Merry Christmas(20th Dec)

Hi Everyone

Well Christmas is only a few days away .. hope everyone is all organised.

Weigh in day for me and I needed to loose 1.1 kgs to take my total loss to 40 kg.... well I didnt make the 40 kg loss:-( lost 1 kg making my loss 39.9...Can you believe it so close but so far...ahh well doesnt matter.... keep telling myself this as I am a little bit disappointed.. I guess thats silly but I just wanted to be able to say 40 kgs gone for good.

Ok well I wont be back here until the New year..... so I take this opportunity to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. I hope you all have a wonderful time with family and friends .

Lots of Love

Em xxxxxxxxxxx

38.9 ( 13th dec)

Howdy everyone

Hope everyone is well and staying positive.... is such a busy time of the year but I love Christmas....so exciting.
We went and had a look at some of the decorated houses ... some ppl go to so much effort..... must admit our house looks quite good too.

We went to Carols in the Park last Sunday..... sang our hearts out.

Survived my birthday pretty good... had a piece of cake but basically just watched what I ate and all was good. Hopped on the scales this morning and had lost 1.1 kg which was good seeing as though I gave myself Friday off from exercise and did the bare minimum on the weekend. I cant believe that I have nearly lost 40 kgs... really do hope that next week the scales will register that 1.1 loss needed to make 40 kgs but if they dont alls good .

Ok well take care everyone and enjoy your week..

Happy Birthday to me

Hi everyone

I have had so much trouble trying to read all your blogs this week.. has been very annoying.

Ok today is my birthday....sweet 41:-). My 19 yr old is coming home so at least I will have 3 of my girls here... would have been so wonderful to have the 4 but these things cant be helped. She did ring me early and sing happy birthday to me so was happy about that. My D/B bought me a gold bracelet sooo beautiful and the 2 littlies bought me a watch and perfume so I was a very lucky girl.

I lost 1.8 kgs when I weighed myself on Tuesday... taking my total loss now to 37.8 kgs gone for good. I am hoping and have set myself a mini goal to have lost 40 kgs by Christmas..... hope I can achieve this.

Ok well I hope everyone has a great weekend ..... take care

Love Emxxxxxxx

Mixed Bag Today(Friday)

Hi Everyone

Firstly I want to say that I have read some amazing blogs this morning.. truly inspirational women....women who have made me sit up and have a long hard think. I have been rather sluggish the past 2 days .. I have stuck to my points and exercised but there just hasnt been that oomphhhhh behind it. I have lied in bed and thought oh I dont feel good... or it wouldnt matter if I missed this mornings exercising when in all honesty there wasnt anything wrong with me just seemed to be searching for an excuse not to go exercise. I know above all that I need to exercise so after reading these blogs I have decided to get my act together and go find that oomph!!!!!!!!!!(ATTITUDE).

I made this yummy vegetable slice last night.... the original recipe (Asparagus and Ham slice) came from Annette Sym's Cookbook but I didnt use Ham instead I used carrott and peas.... girls loved it too.

I had Al's Yr 7 Orientation Day yesterday cant believe Al is off to High School next year only seems like yesterday I was leaving her in Kindergarten. Looking back over these past few years and what we as a family have endured and overcome to get to where we all are today brings tears and a smile to my face. I know what it is like to overcome hurdles.. to survive when you somehow dont know how that is going to happen and if there really is such a thing as a rainbow at the end but there is and that is how I know that I will get to my goal... this is what makes me continue no matter what hurdle appears. I know Im sort of rambling here but I need to see this for myself.. be able to go back and read over this the next few weeks as it is pretty scary for me thinking about my birthday dinner, miss 7's birthday, Christmas parties, Christmas and New Year all scary times when food and drink are going to be in plenty... ohhh but I know what I have to do, I have worked to hard and come to far to stop so continue I will regardless. If I eat or drink a bit too much I am not going to beat myself up about it (am I em !!!!) I will move on and make the next day count and so on and so on. Ok well there you go its in my mind nice and clear for now and here for future reference.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Take care
Love Emxxxx

Still Here

Hi Everyone

Well its Tuesday .. weigh in day and this week I am happy to say that I lost 900 grams :-). It is so great to see the scales go down a little more each week and I am finding myself doing little cheers and jumps and eyeing myself off in windows and mirrors omg am I becoming vein lol

Ok news on my g/f, she had the operation last week and they got all the tumour and the outlook for her is very good. This is such a relief, am extremely happy for her and her kids goes without saying hey.

We all had a busy weekend, Christmas shopping, birthday party( wasnt a really good girl) but the scales were kind, must be the exercise I do which helps with this. We put up the Christmas tree , looks beautiful, and the window decorations and this weekend some friends are coming over to help with the outside decorations.

The weather wasnt really good here last weekend, Saturday was a stinking hot day, then storms and wild winds Sat night followed by a windy wet Sunday which turned cold . The last two nights and mornings have been quite cold and today it looks as rain isnt too far away again. I mowed the front and back yard this morning .. left my new phone inside.. good idea hey lol.

Ok well hope everyone is having a great week...

Cya Em xxx

PS ( Is definately Tuesday 2 46 pm ... cant change my date etc )

Weigh in day again

Hi

Just a quick hello to let you all know that this week I lost 400 grams.......

I did my rowing again today ... gees its hard but I will get there.... I am determined.

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week

Take care

Em xxxx

Change of Exercise

Hi Everyone

Hope you all had a great weekend... the girls and I did. On Saturday we went shopping bought some Christmas pressies, got some really good bargains esp for my older girls which is always a good thing. Yesterday we went to Apsley Falls at Walcha, we had a picnic then we went for a walk around the falls, so peaceful and beautiful, Al actually said to me to slow down as she couldnt keep up lol ... now that is a good thing to hear.


Did my measurements on Sat .... my total loss now is 148.5 cms and I ve lost the most off my hips woo hooooo am excited about that as my hips have always been so much bigger then the rest of me . I really think those exercises I ve been doing from the hip and thigh diet are working or it could be just a combination of everything.
Today however I have changed my exercise program... now I will be doing 30 mins on my bike,treadmill,air walker(yay a friend was able to fix that for me) and stepper taking that to a daily total of 2 hrs. Then I will do my arm weights every second day for 20 mins, the days I dont do my arm weights I will do a variety of exercises for 20 mins and finally I have converted my total gym into a rowing machine so will try and I do mean try to do 15 mins a day on that. This morning I found it difficult but I guess like all new things will take time as I can clearly remember how hard I found the stepper and treadmill to begin with. I will see how this goes for a few weeks plus I want to go for a few walks with the girls:-).

Ok well bye for now... take care

Love Emixx

Feeling better

Hi everyone

Firstly I want to say thank you to Suzie and Karen for caring..... your words mean a lot thankyou once again :-).

I am feeling better, my g/f is home at the moment as they cant do the operation just yet due to machine failure so they sent her home for the time being. I am so amazed at just how much inner strength my g/f has and even my g/f that had breast cancer and lost a breast has.... they are truly wonderful ppl.

I have been good with eating after Sunday.. omg what a day that was am still kinda annoyed at myself but it happened and I cant alter that so all I could do was move ahead and get back on track Monday which I did. I am still doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it really helps my mind as well as my body.

Al had a wonderful time in Canberra ..so good to have her home though :-).

Finally yesterday was weigh in day for me .. doesnt it come around quickly .. anyway I lost 500 grams ( 1 of suzies tubs of margarine/butter lol) so gotta be happy with that.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying their week..will try and catch up with all your blogs real soon.


Take care
Love Emixx

so sad

Hi

I am feeling so many emotions here atm...anger, sadness, scared, annoyed u name it I am feeling it. I received some awful news yesterday morning my g/f in Newcastle has been diagnosed with a brain tumour and the drs dont give much hope. She is currently in hospital awaiting more tests which are to be done tomorrow. I feel so sad, so angry as she has 4 kids why why why ? I am a believer, I do have my faith but its times like this that I just struggle to understand.
Once again though this isnt about me so how dare I eat bad foods, foods that I know I shouldnt eat, that I know I dont want to eat, that I know I dont even enjoy so why do I do it? Why do I hurt myself, I thought I had overcome this but apparently not. I am trying so hard to come to terms with this.. just doesnt seem real.

Ahh sorry about this negative entry... hope everyone is doing really well and enjoying their weekend. Emi

Silly Me

Hello again

I forgot to tell you all how much weight I lost this week..silly me. I lost 1.7 kgs so am really really happy with that:-).

I know I am still cursing myself for mowing my phone....

Take care

Love Emixx

Weigh Day

Howdy

Woke up this morning feeling a lot better , had a good nights sleep for a change ( doesnt that make a world of difference to begin with). I think a combination of having that virus last week and lack of sleep from that and then my worry about Al's trip had just made me a mess. I didnt exercise Saturday, Sunday or yesterday so that wouldnt have helped my cause either.... for me exercise just boosts me so much. Its funny you know just reading that last bit a few months ago I wouldnt have known that gawd what was exercise other then housework and walking around the shops.
Im still worried about Al but not to the extent of yesterday.. just hope and pray they will all be safe. It is so scary when you think about it, all those ppl arrested in Sydney and Melbourne last night apparently there being a real threat of an attack... wonder when it will all end if ever hey.

I mowed my lawn this morning and also my mobile phone :-( Cant believe that happened but the proof is sitting out the back on the garbage. I diverted my phone to my mobile and it must have fell out of my pocket and of course I didnt realise this until it was too late.So guess I will be looking to buy a new one damn!!!!.

Ok well I am off to do some ironing.........

Hope everyone is having a lovely day

Love Emixxx

Monday

Hi Everyone

Sometimes I really think I am loosing the plot........
Miss 11 left this morning on a school excursion to Canberra , she was all excited but said she would miss me and her little sister( of course) and all I could do was cry. I was able to hold back the tears until she got on the bus which was good as she would have got upset if she had seen them. I had a bad weekend, tears as I didnt want her to go. I am such a worry wart and all I can think of is these bloody terrorists and just wanted to keep her with me. I know I had to let her go though as it is a wonderful experience for her, just got to pray she and all the rest of the kids and teachers will be ok. I really am loosing the plot.... didnt see any other parents with tears, wonder if any other parent has had thoughts like mine? I know Al's friends parents are fine with it all.......Friday hurry up and come please , its going to be a hard week for L and I without Al :-(


Hope all is well with you all

Love Emixx

mixed emotions

Hi everyone

Weigh in day for me yesterday...I lost 700 grams this week.

I should be over the moon but for some reason I'm not......... am feeling a bit emotional atm.. on the verge of tears and to cap it off have been sick with some sort of virus which consists of massive headaches. I have been so sick Monday and yesterday that I couldnt exercise which makes me feel bad... I just seem to be so different when I exercise ...so on top of my world. Im guessing that the combination of being sick and not exercising has just bought me down .

I hope everyone is doing well :-)

Love Emixx

Friends

Hi everyone

Just reflecting on the past few days and my friends. I have caught up with a few this past week gone and done the cuppa thing and their comments have been really great.

They now tell me that I am starting to get a figure (my reply) What didnt I have one before ! You are changing shape (my reply) What to a square now ? You are really looking good Em ( my reply) What did I look awful before? lol. They just shake their heads and say Em you know what we mean and yes I do know what they mean, I am actually starting to get real good curves, my body is definately changing shape which for me is soooo great as I didnt want to just become a smaller version of the shape I was ( if you know what I mean):-).


I am going out tomorrow nite a girls nite out and am even going to have a couple of drinks without feeling guilty here .. I figure I do enough exercise and basically stick to my points everyday and I never use any of my bonus points so a couple of drinks isnt going to hurt me. I think its ok as long as I keep it in perspective and know that its not going to be an everyday or weekly occurance for me.

Ok well hope everyone is going well and have a great weekend.
Love Emi xxxx

Weigh in

Hi everyone

I lost 1.5 kgs this week, taking my total now to 31.8 kgs gone for good. I really believe for me that when I found a inner peace within myself that this weight loss journey for me has been better. I can still remember the times where I was obsessed with it all, wouldnt go out for lunch with g/fs, wouldnt eat anything like a potato chip or chocolate and if I did omg the guilt was so awful that I felt down in the dumps for days.

I have no idea why I loose everyweek and because I dont go to meetings or even do the home program anymore I really cant ask anyone. I have just put it down to the amount of exercise I do 6 days a week... has to be that cause I still have those potato chips.. and more potato chips.....
I took my girls to see sky high on Sunday.. was different , they enjoyed it so that was great and I even had a choc top icecream without feeling guilty so I guess I have come a long way and should be proud of myself.

I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week..... take care

Love Emixxx

Hope you liked as much as me

DON"T QUIT
When you've eaten too much and u cant write it down
And u feel like the biggest failure in town
When u want to give up because u gave in
and forget all about being healthy and thin
So What ! u went over your points a bit
Its your next move that counts
SO DONT U QUIT
Its a moment of truth an attitude change
Its learning the skills to get back in your range
It's telling yourself "you've done great up till now
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow"
Its part of your journey toward reaching your goal
Your still going to make it just stay in control
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace
if you summon the will to get back in the race
But, often the struggler's when losing their grip
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip
And learn to late when the damage is done
that the race wasn't over..they still could have won
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow
but facing each challenge will help you to grow
Success is failure turned in side out
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt
When u are pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit
IF U BITE IT U WRITE IT .. BUT DON'T U QUIT..author unknown

I got this from the WW community and think its great.......

Weigh in today

Hello everyone

Weighed today and this week I lost 900 grams.... am over the moon.

Everything is going pretty good, am really enjoying my exercises at the moment. I was given a Air swing at the weekend and included it into my exercise program but today it broke :-(. I was so lucky I didnt break my leg or much worse as I exercise in my garage and of course cement floor. Was excited about having another piece of equipment too... maybe it can be fixed hope sooo.

Ok well best go .. girls are waiting for me to help with their homework. Hope everyone is having a great week and take care
Love Emixx

Cleansing of the mind

Hi everyone :-)

I have read some truly inspirational blogs this morning and have come to realise that this weight loss journey is also in a sense a cleansing of your mind. There are so many fears , insecurities still holding me back and I am sure I am not alone here in that. I read Karens blog and for some unknown reason I cant leave a comment.... but I just wanted to say that I have that quote as a fridge magnet just I ve never taken the time to try and live by it. I understand what you mean about the bike Karen as I have often thought about getting one myself and riding with my girls but have held back because I think to myself that ppl will say gees she needs to ride more often.You have certainly given me a lot to think about as well as Suzy, and Jak's posts always find them inspirational... as I do a lot more recently with Lee-annes posts as well. I dont read that many blogs...know I should as everyone is wonderful in their own way of dealing with this weight loss journey.

I have been back into the full swing of things with my exercise..... have done 2 1/2 hours everyday so am really happy with that. I have even managed to do those arm exercises everyday in the hope that my arms will tone up at least a little bit.

K well I hope everyone has a great weekend, good luck with your weighins Karen and Jak ( hope I can comment soon on blogs).

Take care
Love Emixxxxxx

Weigh in day

Hi everyone

Weigh in day again today am very happy to report that I lost 1.5 kg this week.

Girls went back to school yesterday so I was up at 6 and into my exercises, felt really tired last night but fantastic as well. I missed that feeling the past 2 weeks. I have been doing my stepper everyday and I am also doing more with my total gym basically just concentrating on my top half though. I tried these arm exercises that were in a blog that I linked from Jak's blog and I did them this morning and omg did they kill. I could really feel the whole sensation of it all so I really think in time and if I manage to do these everyday as well as total gym every second day that there is hope for my arms ( alleluia).

I wanted to have a mushroom and chicken omelette for lunch today but silly me didnt refrigerate what was left over from Saturday and it went off. I am new to mushrooms and so wanted that gotta make up for 40 years of not eating them havent I lol. Oh well I had a toasted chicken, cheese and pineapple sandwich instead was yummmy too.

I got my mammogram results back yesterday all clear so that is a bigggg relief.

Ok well that all from me today... hope everyone is well.

Emixx

RE: Negative list

Hi Back again

I have been in a thoughtful mood the past week and have been thinking about my negative list from a couple of weeks ago. I sometimes look in the mirror and see a difference and then the next day I cant see it or I feel fat and frumpy. In the past I hated having my photo taken and while on this image part I used to hate looking at myself in the mirror as well. I can remember times where I have been shopping and have actually hated my reflection on the freezer doors, Ive never had full length mirrors in my house and sometimes I have even been known to not get my hair cut when its been needed as I have not liked what I have seen looking back at me. Wow I really had low self esteem, poor self image and a huge dose of self denial.

Now ok that is the past and the day I decided to change my lifestyle was the biggest positive step.Anyway my point being that I have come to realise that why I cant see the 28 kg loss( nearly there) when I look in the mirror is because I never actually had a good look at the old me. I never accepted just how big I was, what I really looked like before so now when I look my mind thinks I should look smaller and therefore I cant see it. I know I have lost heaps just by the size I now take and my old clothes falling off me but to mentally see it in the mirror has been such a struggle for me.Does this make sense or is it just me? Ok so to turn this negative into a positive I tracked down a couple of old pics of me and made myself have a good look at them, I then got my daughter to take a photo of me and I compared the two. I went shopping and made myself look at me in the doors of the freezers and I liked what I saw, I really liked my reflection and then I stood on my bed and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and it finally sunk in just how much I have lost and just how my body has and still is changing shape.

Anyway just thought I would share this.... hope everyone is doing well and had a great weekend.
Love Emixxx

goodbye chips

Hello

Well I think I have had a major breakthrough.... I think I am over my craving for potato chips once and for all. I had a 50 gram pkt of deli style chips on Friday night and today I went to have another packet( I know norty me) but I felt quite ill after eating a few and I really believe that they no longer will be a weakness for me.
I was talking to my g/f last week and she said to me do you think you will gain weight once you reach your goal, like hello let me get to goal first lol but seriously I answered NO as I really do not enjoy eating the fatty foods anymore. I know I ve still had the occasional pizza, kfc, hot chips over the past 6 mths but really after eating them Ive sat back and realised that I havent really enjoyed it to be honest. I do enjoy however all the "new" foods I eat and am trying new foods all the time only yesterday it was mushrooms and arent they yumm.

School goes back tomorrow and therefore its time to get back into my 2 21/2 hrs of exercise.I am kinda looking forward to that......omg I said that. I was reading Karens blog and at the things she has changed in her lifestyle so my imaginary leader said for me to write down my changes as I head to my 30 kg loss .Here goes

1 I now drink at least 3.5 litres of water everyday compared to never.
2 I now eat broc, cabbage, spinach, cauli,mushrooms,zuchini,asparagus .
3 I now exercise everyday and really enjoy it.
4 I now have a lot more energy, sleep better,no headaches and overall feel great.
5 I have cut my portion sizes, and eat more vegies and fruit.

Ok well there it is..... well it is Sunday so I think I will get away with the sermon lol.
Take care
Emixxxx

feeling awful

Hello everyone

I havent been around for a couple of days as I have sinus really bad and have been so sick with it all. I am starting to feel a bit better today thank goodness and will try and catch up with everyones blogs as soon as I can. I havent forgotten you all and I hope everything is going well and will catch up soon.

I weighed in on Tuesday, had a 300 gram loss so still going downnnnn.

Take care

Emi

Go the mighty tigerssssssss

Hello everyone

OMG I am still over the moon about my tigers win yesterday. I cried, I have waited 36 years to see my tigers win a Grandfinal and finally it happened. I had some friends over and well yes we opted for pizza but hey thats ok all will be good. I have a bit of a sore throat at the moment now of course that wouldnt have anything to do with me screaming and cheering last night now would it? Nope of course not damn weather changing all the times fault lol.

I have been pretty good with my exercising this past week managed to do 1 1/2 hrs everyday instead of my 2 21/2 hours but it is school holidays and I try to do things with my girls so at the end of the day its all good too. We have been for walks, to the park, shopping,Koala park and this week we are going ten pin bowling and to the movies. My 19 year old is home for a couple of weeks which is great so will be a busy two weeks but as long as I get some exercising in each day I will be happy with that.

Hope everyone is doing well and having a good long weekend. Weigh in for me tomorrow so until then bye and take care

Emixx

Shocking my body

Hello everyone

I weighed in today at 92.8 kgs , this week I lost a massive 3 kgs. I guess because I worked my butt off on my treadmill , plus did some walking out in the fresh air that I shocked my body and therefore lost that much. I am over the moon.

I finished AJ'S book last night.. what a wonderful read.

I am still working on changing one negative from my list into a positive..... is not as easy as it looks and at the end of the day it is me who has to alter my way of thinking. I had a look at myself yesterday in a full length mirror and yes I can see a big difference, as for worrying welllll that is another story. I am still waiting on my mammogram results, talk about taking forever to come back ( nearly 3 weeks of waiting) so am still worrying about that. I have no idea why I cant be positive about this and why I am worrying about something that hasnt happened yet, no wonder my friends shake their head at me( oh dear).

What about my TIGERSSSSSSS wooooo hooooo we are in the Grand Final. I am sooooo happyyyyyy.

Ok well I hope everyone has a great week , take care

Emixxx

Smiles,tears,determination

Hello everyone

Just had to let everyone know that I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill since last Friday, am very happy with that. I set myself a goal to complete an hr everyday on it and yep I did it so smiles all round here. I feel really good about everything again and am happy with being back to doing 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it not only burns all my fat it makes me feel so happy and positive.

I am half way through AJ's book and wow what a great book it really is. For me it brought back a few memories so therefore a few tears but gees it so far has really made me sit up and take notice of a lot of things and see so many things more clearly.So I have decided to write down a few positives and negatives from the past few days on here to try and make it all sink in to my head and to be aware of the negatives but also to be aware that there are positives as well. I feel that all I do is say ok this was positive and get over it but the negatives stick around in my mind far too long.

POSITIVES
- I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill in a week
-I am back to doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday
-I am tracking and eating really well
-I am averaging 18000 steps on my pedometer everyday
-I am trying new foods instead of saying yuk I dont like that.
- I am drinking 3 litres of water everyday

NEGATIVES
- I am still worrying far too much
-I still have trouble seeing my weight loss( one day I do next I dont)
-I am my own worst enemy at times

Ok so now my goal for this week is to try and turn at least one of those negatives into a positive.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.... and GO TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Emixx

still a loss

Ahhh well weighed myself this morning and lost .2, still a loss hey. I feel ok about it although I dont think I will ever truly understand how it all works as last week I was so shocked at my loss and this week where I thought I should have lost more I didnt lol.

I was upset last night as I received an email and virtually it read that I have lost my weight far too quickly,am heart attack material and basically sensibility and honesty were 2 important factors with weight loss, WOW gees am so glad this person isnt a friend as who needs friends like that. I dont even know this person so how can she say stuff like that to me. I guess I wont be posting my measurements or weight loss anymore in that site. I feel at times I am surrounded by so many negative ppl, everytime my mum rings me or I ring her its "Are you still on your diet?" just feels like at times she is waiting for me to fail. Funny thing is when I sit back and have my few minutes of getting it all off my chest( anger, upset, disbelief etc) I find that these negative comments only drive me more, make me even more determined, still no need for it hey.

Well I hope everyone is having a good week and take care all
Emixx

Awsome is the word for the days just gone

What a awsome last few days I have had, firstly I am back on track 100% as far as my exercising goes. I am changing my program again lol, going to do 60 mins everyday on the treadmill, 45 mins on my bike, 30 mins on chuck/weights and instead of doing my floor exercises I am going to do"8 minutes in the morning"program. I got the book today and have had a quick look am going to read it thoroughly tonight but it appears to be really good and incorporates a few of the exercises I am already doing plus heaps more. I also got the book"Confessions of a Reformed Dieter" as I have heard so much about this book so am going to become a bookworm lol.

Miss 11 was in her school musical last Thursday and it was awsome, gees its so wonderful to see so many talented kids give such a great performance, was a wonderful night.

Ok last but not least what a AWSOME, AWSOME win for my tigers !!!!! We are into the final now wooooooo hooooooo so watch out Dragons here come the tigersssssssssss. I had a fabulous time watching the game, the atmosphere was awsome one couldnt help but get caught up in the emotion of it all, was totally awsome. Sorry sly lol.

Weigh in for me tomorrow....... lets hope its awsome too lol
Take care
Emixxxx

Time for a change

Hi everyone

Well I have had a very different day today. I decided I wanted a change of hairstyle and some diff colours. I made the appt yesterday and off I went today. I sat down and Sally says to me How much do you want off today? I replied I want something different but just not sure what different is....welll guess what I do now. It looks good, just still coming to terms with its me underneath this new hairstyle and colours, and I do mean colours lol. I really really love the new style and I guess the copper foils are going to grow on me probably when they have grown out lol no seriously its really nice just so different. I kept the blonde on the top and had a brown put on the bottom, now you are confused arent you ? lol.So I guess im somewhere in between a licorice allsort perhaps ( oh dear).

I got some good news yesterday as well two tests have come back with the all clear so just one more to go now which is such a relief.


Miss 11 is performing at the Town Hall tonight, her school is putting on a production called" 100 year rock" so am really looking forward to seeing this and especially seeing my daughter up on stage, I will be soo proud as we all are of our kids (well those who have kids are).

I am really enjoying reading all the different blogs and I want to thank everyone who reads and comments on mine is much appreciated :-)

Hope everyone is doing well

Take care
Emixxxxxxxx

Absolutely Amazed

hi everyone

Just a quick one today as I am off to see my g/f.
Weighed in this morning and lost 1.7 kg, how the hell did I loose that much this past week? Was an awful week, only managed 30 mins of exercise everyday and the weekend was major blowout material. My head is still shaking in disbelief here.

It was so nice to see such warm beautiful weather towards the end of last week but was too good to last for the time being here as yesterday here was so bitterly cold, today is sunny and not as cold. I guess the weather is hard to predict just like what you will weigh in at is hey lol.

Hope everyone is doing well and staying focussed.

Take care

Emixxx

trying hard

Hi everyone

Back on track today, really got stuck into the exercising, did 60 mins on my bike, 30 mins on the treadmill, went for a wee walk and did 15 mins of floor exercises so I am feeling pretty good. I should get some results back tomorrow , then more early next week and about 2 /3 weeks for the mammogram one, just hate the waiting but I am trying really hard to stay positive.

I bought a pedometer on Sat , have been really curious about them since hearing about Lynne's and today was day 1 of using it, so far I have done 21049 so amazing.

What about my tigers woooo hoo we flogged the cowboys and are up against the broncos this Sunday, sorry sly but we are going to kick butt again lol. Well I sincerely hope so anyway haha. Exciting news is I am off to Sydney to see them play, cant wait am so excited about that. Hurry up and come weekend lol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day, not expecting a loss here as I hardly exercised this past week and the weekend well lets just forget about that hey.

Hope everyone is good and until tomorrow take care
Emixxx

wanting my life back

Hello everyone

Firstly I want to thank everyone who has been worried about me and thanks for caring.
This past week has been awful, sitting back and watching a close friend loose her breast to breast cancer is an awful thing. It just happened so damn quickly , but she is very strong and quite positive which is good. I went and had my mammogram done today and they are no where near as bad as I have heard so go have one done if you havent already is my advice.

Ok now I caught up with slys' blog especially and the way in which she was so positive and I thought hey I want my life back. I want to be that girl again that exercises for 2 hrs min everyday, who is tired but ever so happy by night time. I want to be the girl who is so positive and determined to shed this weight once and for all. I am the only one who can get my life back and stop worrying so much and I am determined to do this as of today. So I guess Emi is back again lol. I havent gone off the rails eating wise this past week , just havent been motivated to get in and exercise, just been so down in the dumps which isnt good.

I hope my tigers can win tonight, I so much wanted to go see them play but just ran out of time so hopefully they will make it to the next round so I can be there with bells on hey lol.

Hope everyone is doing well, staying positive

Have a great weekend

Emixx

.8 loss

Hi everyone
Weighed in today and had a loss of.8 so am a double digit 99 .4.

I am surprised I even had a loss this week as these past few days have been awful, found it really hard to stay focussed . I have been thinking and isnt it amazing at just how powerful the mind can be so great when you are positive and your worst enemy when your down.
Anyway hope everyone has had a good week.
Take care
Emixxx

Scared and borderline

What a day today has been.......... my g/f was diagnosed with breast cancer and I spent the morning today with her to try and cheer her up and I guess take her mind off things for a bit before she goes into hospital tomorrow. She did thank me before I left for being there and cheering her up as best as one can do which was good as she did laugh and I so admire her strength and courage.

So anyway I got home and just fell apart, I have cried and cried virtually for the past 2 hours, scared for her and scared for me too. Instead of exercising like I normally would I just seem to want to sit and cry. I feel a tad selfish as this isnt about me its about my g/f but its just when someone close to you is diagnosed with that dreaded C word , you begin to think what if I have it as well, well I think it and im sure others do too. I have even gone and made an appointment for me to have a mammogram as I am so scared. I am thinking the worst before I even know anything and its eating me, tearing me up inside and all I can think of is what if I am loosing all this weight for nothing, what if I have C too , then it wont matter about loosing weight will it? . I just wish I could switch my mind off, I know I am being silly but am really really scared.
Why am I writing this in here anyway........ gees I guess this is my diary where I air my feelings well I have done before with other stuff so guess wont matter.

soooooo close

Hello

Well today was weigh in day...... lost 1 kg this week so am .2 short of reaching the 100 kg mark and.3 of being a double digit. So next week that will come, I am so excited 19.8 kgs gone for good and I soon will be under the 100kgs.
It is such a good feeling, knowing you are doing something so positive for yourself.
K well I am off to so some shopping, take care all and smile.
Emixxx

my hips are going

Hello
Hope everyone had a great weekend:-)
I had a good one even though my tigers lost but oh well we will be back on track this weekend I am sure .
I had my measurements taken on Saturday and was very pleased with the results here. I lost 27.5 cms this month taking my total now in 15 weeks of measuring myself(didnt do it for the first 3 weeks)to a total loss of 91 cms . I also lost this month 7 cms off my hips , I am absolutely over the moon with that loss as they seemed to be so slow compared to the rest of me.

I am also happy to say that I am up to 45 mins on my treadmill now and in a week of doing it I have walked 11 ks so not too bad . I am looking at trying to increase it every week atm and see how I go with that.

Well tomorrow is weigh in day for me so until then take care all
Emixx

Getting there

Hello Everyone

I am very happy I managed to do 30 mins on the treadmill this morning and then another 15 mins a while ago...... it is getting easier Alleluia lol.

I want to thank everyone who is stopping by and having a read of my blog and thanx for leaving comments...... so nice to hear from you all :-)

I have a question if anyone can help...... Can you do too much exercise??
A couple of my friends believe I am doing too much, its not like I push myself to near exhaustion or anything like that , i really do enjoy it and feel on top of the world afterwards , am a bit stuffed at times and by 9 ish am tired but I feel good so I dont know.All help with this is greatly appreciated..thank you.

Take care all
Emixx

Emi VS Treadmill

Omg... give me walking outdoors anytime.... this machine is out to kill me I am sure of it . I got up at 6 this morning as usual did my 45 mins on my bike then attacked the treadmill and although I did manage to do 15 mins it is so hard. I cant recall walking ever so damn exhausting in my whole entire life lol.
I am staring at it now and theres no way its gonna win lol.

I cant wait until Saturday when I measure myself again as I know this time there is going to be a substantial loss in my hips wooo hooo ( about time lol). I have pants now that were big cause of the weight loss on my legs and waist but my hips were the only thing in the way of them falling to the ground, well now they just fall to the ground woo hooooo. I have been doing a set of 10 exercises daily for about 2 weeks now from the hip n thigh diet ( ewwwww that D word ) but really do feel that they have made a big difference so when on a good thing stick to it hey.

K well miss 7 is off to a disco for book week as a "BRAT DOLL " so got to go do her hair

Take care and smile

Emixx

Week 17

Wow I sometimes cant believe that I have been doing this for 17 weeks now.... truly amazing for me to have stuck at it this time but I am more determined then ever that this will be the time for me:-).

Well its Tuesday and weigh in day for me and this week I lost 1.8 kg so my total now is 18.8 kgs gone for gooooooooood . I am very excited ..... Can you tell ??? lol.

I bought myself a treadmill yesterday and omg it nearly killed me.. no seriously I was absolutely buggered, I can do my bike for 60 mins straight but could only manage 15 mins on the treadmill...but am determined its not gonna beat me lol. I really do enjoy my exercise and while its much more enjoyable to be out walking in the sun and fresh air its a time factor thing for me and I can get up at 6 every morning and do my bike and treadmill while girls are still in bed where I couldnt leave them alone to do it. I personally cant wait until its warmer and daylight savings then we can all go for an afternoon walk.

My girls have been sick with the flu and bronchitis but went back to school today which is great.. only thing was miss 11 missed out on competing at the carnival on Friday which was so disappointing for her; she was so upset but was something that couldnt be helped so she needed lots of extra cuddles.

What about my tigers too .. what a win on Friday night!!!!!!!!!

I am changing my exercise program as of today again ( I know again) lol but same thing does become boring too lol.. well thats my excuse and sounds good lol.

Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx

Another kg gone

Woooo hoooooooooo 17 kgs now, feeling really good and it wont be too long until I am a double digit girl......gees how long has it been since I was one of them ...too long.
Well the week has been pretty good, had a bit of a hard day Sunday could have eaten the house out but fortunately didnt. I guess that it is good to know that I can now take my mind and body elsewhere instead of the fridge or cupboards.

Girls are doing really well........Miss 11 is in the zone carnival this Friday which is great ..........she has really put a lot of training into her running and is reaping the rewards atm.
Miss 7 is planning to do a dance with a few friends in front of the whole class tomorrow .... so all in all a good positive household, we seem to bounce off each other and I am well aware of just how my girls support me in their own way :-).
My tigers are playing so well toooo..... beat the cowboys on Sunday wow what a game....I am definately off to Sydney for one finals game that I am positive of.

OK just decided my goal is to get to double digits by the finals so 4 weeks to loose 3 kgs........... Emicandoit .....well shes going to give it her best shot anyway.

Take care and believe in yoursef

Emixxxxx



Am

16 kgs gone for good

I am so excited ... 16 kgs gone now and like my buddy Tash says gone for good wooooo hoooooooo.
I feel really great and I can see a big difference in me now, so many clothes that are just too big to wear anymore.
I am doing weights now every second day, plus other exercises , plus my total gym so this takes almost 60 mins to get through so on this day I only do my bike of a morning for 30 mins.I am really enjoying my exercising and find myself looking forward to it which is good.
I ve been so busy these past 2 weeks and am really enjoying doing more things with my girls , we went on a picnic last weekend and I even played footy with them. I t was such a good feeling to be able to do this and the girls were over the moon that mum could join in.
Today was miss 11's sport carnival, she won the 200 metre race and she won her age heat plus the final, came 2nd in long jump, 1st in the relay. I was so proud of her :-).
I am also over the moon about my tigers wooo hoooo we are in 4th spot on the ladder now wooooo hooooooooooo got a really tough one this week against the cowboys though so once again come this Sunday I will be cheering them on lol.

It is still so cold here but not long now and winter will be over and we can be so much more proud that we all survived a winter.
Take care all
Emixxxxxxxxxxxx

Great Day

I have had a great day :-) It was time to measure myself again .. I do this once a mth ( except for the one time I cheated lol)and I lost 20 cms this month taking my total to 63.5 cms . I was over the moon.
Then we all went shopping , got a few bargains for the girls and came home for lunch.

I t is a glorious day here today actually the days have been like this for a while , still cold of a morning and night though but anyway after lunch we went for a walk and came across a Garage Sale so went and had a sticky . I was looking at this stepper exerciser , the ones with the handles anyway I asked the lady how much and she said oh you can have it for a $1. I was amazed a dollar but I didnt have a dollar on me lol but alls good she kept it for me so we went home got the car and went and paid and picked up my stepper.
So now I have a stepper to do some different exercises on lol , just got to look up the net and see what benefits these provide but hey for a dollar you cant go wrong. Am cooking a baked dinner tonight for a change and making my own seasoning which doesnt go in the chook I prefer to cook it on a seperate tray so its all nice and crunchy and serve it on the side.
cya for now
xxxxx

Feeling good

What does feeling good mean?
For me its a feeling of inner peace,happiness, satisafaction. I am feeling really comfortable with my weight loss atm. I think for the first time in a very long time I am just going with the flow and not being so damn foccussed every minute of everyday. I know one has to be focussed but not to the extent of beating yourself up if you dont stick to your exercise plans or you eat something that you feel you shouldnt have.It has virtually taken me 13 weeks to reach to the point of "inner peace" and there is a calmness about me now and a feeling that I wont turn back now.
I had a big day yesterday started off by exercising on my bike for 30 mins then went to miss 7's sports carnival, even went in the 3 legged race which was absolutely great. Miss 7 came 2nd in her heat, and fourth in the final woooooo hoooooooo!!!!!.
I was feeling rather proud of the both of us and I am sure my smile was seen for miles when a mum I hadnt seen for weeks says omg youve lost some weight Em :-). Doesnt it make you feel that little bit more when ppl start to comment.
I then did my total gym for 20 mins plus 15 mins of my arm weights and some ab crunches(ouch lol).

Must sign off with this today. What about my "Wests Tigers" WoooooooooHoooooooo!!!!!
We are in 6th position now which is great, thank god its Friday bring on the footyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Have a great weekend :-)

Week 13-13.2 kgs gone

I am very happy, and proud of myself. This week I lost 1.5 kg which brings my total now to 13.2 kg woooooo hoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!.
I have made a few changes these past few days . Firstly I am not going to continue with the home program as I feel that I can use the money elsewhere and basically continue with the forums which are wonderful.
Next change is I am eating later then I did before as I was finding that I was getting hungry around 9 30 ish which wasnt good so no more eating at 5 30 its now 6 30-7 ish and so far this is much better.
My exercising has changed as well I now do my bike for 30 mins twice a day morning and afternoon and I walk every second day for a minumum of 30 mins and every other day I am doing weights, total gym and some other exercises which takes me about 45 mins to an hour.
I will do this for 5 weeks and then look at it again.
I am feeling really good and its like I have a new lease on this weight loss journey and I am so enjoying exercising and am amazed at just how much fitter I am now. I am now a member of "Living in the suburbs" and am really excited about that and hoping to meet lots of ppl and make new friends.
Stay positive
Emi

Successful Weight Loss

Hope someone finds this interesting

HOW DO YOU GET YOUR MIND ON THE RIGHT TRACK????

1 TALK TO YOURSELF

Maybe it sounds a little kooky , but the encouragement wont come from anywhere if it doesnt come from you first. Dont be afraid to give yourself a pep talk every morning, or if you are facing a food like temptation. You can do it, you are worth it, you are an awsome mum , person friend etc etc whatever it takes you are your own best cheerleader.

2 STAY POSITIVE
Slow weight loss is the best and healthiest way to loose. It may seem like slow going , especially since there will undoubtedly be weeks where youll stay the same or gain a little back. Just remember that the slower and steadier your loss, the more likely you are to keep it off.

3GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK
Dont let this become your life.Reward yourself when you meet your goals.If you go off track for a day or two or even a week , dont give up, you didnt gain your weight by eating too much one week so one week wont halt your progress unless you let it.

Knowing that you can be successful is step number 1 to loosing weight. It is more then just knowing it , you have to be ready. You can look in the mirror everyday and think I need to loose 30 kg, but until you have made that commitment to yourself, youll be stuck in a cycle of loss and gain.

Feeling Great

Well I am feeling good about my weight loss, am exercising well, eating well and overall am in a positive state of mind. I lost 1 . 2 kg this week which is quite surprising considering but really lets face it I did make a mountain out of a mole hill.
I am walking for 30 mins everyday now plus my bike for 30 mins and my total gym for another 30 mins just trying to vary me exercises as like everything it too can become boring.

For those who wanted to know about my eating habits well this is what I had to eat yesterday for eg.
BREAKFAST
2 wholemeal crumpets
WW jam
Orange juice
Green tea
SNACK
1 mandarin
LUNCH
Green tea
1 Pita pkt
WW baked beans
1 Sm WW yogurt
AFTERNOON SNACK
1/2 punnet of strawberries
Fresh green beans
DINNER
Green tea
1 sm piece of steak
Smearing of steak sauce
1PT serve of potato
Cabbage, cauli, peas, corn
1 sm WW fruit salad
NITE TIME
1/2 sachet of choc mint hot chocolate

Hope everyone is staying positive and warm
Emi

Im back

I have struggled so much these past few days, felt guilty, a failure wondered even if I could do this basically lost all faith in myself and I felt awful.I had to make some decisions as I had blown two days and I knew that if I didnt do some serious thinking, soul searching that these two days would become a week before I knew it. I was in the middle of my thinking when a friend of mine said to me Em you are my inspiration. I admire you so much that I am going to WW this week and because of how hard I know you have worked that will inspire me to put some effort in this time. I was overwhelmed by her comments, I never thought I would inspire anyone gees I know theres heaps of ppl in the forums that have inspired me but to think me Emi would inspire someone else was just a shock. I began to smile and started to think yes I have worked hard and came to the conclusion that I will be damned if I am going to quit now and pile the kilos and cms back on NOWAY!!!!. I guess I maybe got a bit cocky because I had done this fairly easy but its not easy its a day at a time and somehow I have got to learn not to feel like a failure if I go out for dinner or lunch or have a bad day as its not the end of the world, I am not perfect but I am sensible enough to say ok and get back to it. I am back and feel so good I have exercised today really well and I guess the most important thing is that I believe in me again and I know that emicandoit no matter how hard or slow or long it takes. Take care and doz you can do it too girl.

Decision time

What am I going to do?????
I have had a bad week as far as I am concerned. Firstly my bad choice of food on Sunday followed by a few bad snacks this week and chinese yesterday with my girls and a g/f.I have been exercising still but only managing about half of what I would normally do...... now this isnt the end of the world but to me this week it has been so close to feeling like it.
I am on this journey for the rest of my life for even when I reach my goal its not like its going to be time to eat all the wrong foods again and never exercise is it ?
My decision to begin WW was for me to feel better about me, and be able to enjoy life with my girls and overall a feeling of wellbeing..... now even only after 10 weeks I have achieved all these but when things go wrong or I eat something which I consider to be so bad I get all down in the dumps and feel like a failure.
I dont want to give up.... I know I cant give up, why am I feeling like this? I keep telling myself that my routine will be fine once the girls go back to school and to enjoy this time with them and so what if I dont exercise as much and so what if I even eat a little of my no no food its going to be ok as long as I realsie what I am doing and keep it all in perspective for me. Come on Em its not like you have binged everyday all day... dont be so hard on yourself.
I dont know just want the old Em back, the emicandoit Em, shes here somewhere I know it just got to find her again.
Well take care everyone.... Ill be back I know.
Em

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When will I learn not to hurt Me

Ahhhhhhhhhhh What damage have I done?
I had the most awful weekend, went away to see my b/f and hes having such a hard time atm with work and his ex and I hate seeing him so torn up inside but I know I needed to deal with all this in other ways then food but what did I do I hurt myself by eating the wrong food. My body felt so ill after those chips and scallops so it obviously doesnt even like that food anymore but no I kept stuffing it all in.Then to top that off I ate a piece of chocolate mudcake and a bottle of coke.Will I ever learn that when things are down not to hurt myself by eating. I have been so strong and so proud of myself for these past 9 weeks so why did I do this yesterday?
I am back on track today and very determined but cant find the answer as to Why I did it?Maybe I should just forget it, Can you do this successfully ? I guess you have to and one thing I know is theres no excuses. I am responsible for what I do to myself, what I put in my mouth is my own doing.
Now I also have come to realise that before I reach my goal my lifes more than likely going to have some ups and downs and the ppl in my life who I love are going to have problems too that is a reality so what do I do next time I feel so helpless , last thing I want is to turn to food so I am going to do myself a little book to read when I feel like I did yesterday and hopefully that will help me .
If anyone reads this pls feel free to leave any suggestions.
Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx

here comes the sun

The sun has finally come out here and although it was great to see the rain its so great to see it go too .
Ive had the reading bug the last few days and have read about green tea and its benefits to weight loss.Well I went and bought some as I dont like coffee at all so I am a tea drinker and its very nice I must say. Its too early to say whether it has assisted me with my weight loss but its refreshingly nice and the information about it is quite interesting.
Ive been asked if I found it hard to cut out or cut down on stuff like butter, milk, sweets, sugar etc etc.Well I guess I have been lucky in that area as I never ate butter or margarine , always had my tea black with no sugar and wasnt a big sweets eater. I was more the potato chip queen or cheese and biscuits and to be honest I havent really missed chips or the cheese and biscuits and I cant tell you why this is so either just lucky I guess:-).
As for being tempted to snack well yes I have had a few days like this especially in the colder weather but most of the time I find that Im full and I put that down to the water it appears to make me feel full. I always drink 600 mls with lunch and dinner and I drink another 2-3 during the day and of a nite. I drink tea at breakfast and am drinking a cup of green tea now before each meal also and apart from this I hardly ever drink diet coke or substitute of any kind .
OK well I hope everyone has a great weekend, take care, stay positive and smile
Emixxxxxxxx

I will survive

Well I have lost a total of 10 .5 kg in 9 weeks and so far 48 cms. I have gone down comfortably 2 sizes already and I feel absolutely wonderful and on top of the world. I find these forums a great boost for me but am a tad disappointed as my buddies have disappeared off the face of the earth. .
On a more positive note also I read an article yesterday that says that if you exercise before breakfast you increase your weight loss by 300% so thats good as I always get on my exercise bike before breakfast.
Take care and stay positive
Emi

Wild Windy Day

It is a wild and windy day here today and raining.I have been shopping and bought lots of yummy vegies to make some soup to freeze so I will have warm filling lunches for a while .
I started back with my total gym yesterday so am happy with that was able to do the 30 min beginners program quite easily so will continue that each afternoon before I begin getting dinner ready. Im also trying something new with my exercise bike too , instead of doing a hour each morning before breakfast I ve decided to do 3o mins before breakfast then 30 mins before lunch and chuck( my nic for total gym lol) 30 mins before dinner.
I miss my 11 yr old , she is at her grans house for a weeks holiday so its just miss 7 and I here atm.We have had lots of fun watching dvds and playing games and weve even managed to eat lots of vegies still each night so miss 11 will be very impressed lol. No seriously I love my vegies but miss 7 doesnt eat every vegie like miss 11 does so spinach and broccoli havent been on menu so far lol. Well thats it for now take care all and stay positive!!!!!!! Luv Emi(hugsss)

Weigh In Day

Woooo hooooooooooooo I lost 1 kg, takes my total to 10.5 kg now wooooo hooooooo!!!!!!!!!!.
I feel good and mostly I feel so alive, its amazing just the difference in my attitude towards life and things in general since Ive changed my lifestyle.Today I have decided to get back on my total gym, I find my exercise bike is good but I believe that my total gym does wonders so as of today its the bike for an hr and total gym for 30 mins.
Im a little concerned too about my neck it seems to be wrinkly, Ive read where water helps and to loose weight slowly helps too, gives your body time to adjust ,gees Im just hoping it doesnt get any worse :-(.

I havent worked out how to adjust my ticker , oh dear!!!
Anyway time to go go go bike
Take care and stay positive
Emi

Weekend with the family

Well I just had a weekend with my family........... had a nice two days , went out on Saturday with some friends and even was a good girl , just had a few diet lemon and vodkas. My mum cooked her normal Sunday lunch of fatty vegies omg I just cringed at the look at them sizzling away in the fat.
My family didnt even say to me gees youve lost weight, I wasnt expecting a WOW but thought a good on ya or something to that effect but nope it didnt come.
I guess most important lesson here is that I am doing this for me, so I can enjoy life with my girls, be able to do things with them etc and for me so as long as I notice it thats all that matters. I guess you all would appreciate just how nice it is when someone notices though but hey my girls notice it as do my friends so I do get to experince it at times .
Weigh in day for me tomorrow.. I dont normally fuss about this . The tape measure is my buddy lol and so far in 9 weeks I have lost a total of 48 cms .
My tuna casserole is calling me yummmmmmmmmmm
Cya tomorrow

Am I so hard to feed??

Well here we are , its Friday and tomorrow I leave for my parents place for the weekend......mmmmm now this should be a good experience hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Well experience yes as for good well its up to me to make sure its good for me as mum isnt going to lol.My mum rings me and says Im doing baked chicken on Sunday are you going to be here I said yes and she then goes on to say what are you going to have? I say chicken of course which in turn creates a big drama of can you eat chicken?........ I am on a lifestyle change mum thats all so why couldnt I eat chicken and she replies with that dreaded word, a word that isnt mentioned in my vocabulary now DIET omg my mum says to me but arent you on a diet .................. I sometimes wonder if my mum even understands this but anyway Im going to make sure I stick to it this weekend even though I know the vegies wont be cooked healthy, there will be desserts and lots of temptations. I am going to pack my DIET food lol and take it with me lol.

Anyway I have remained positive the rest of this week after that nasty Tuesday and I feel so good about myself and the fact that I seem to be able to cope these days without turning to comfort food like chips and chocolate.

Well thats about it for today...... will be back on Monday :-)

Some positive quotes I read to myself everyday

1- It wont be easy BUT Emicandoit!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2- Never,never,never quit!!!!!!!!!!!!

3-One who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones!!!!!!!!

4-Seeing myself as I want to be is the key to personal growth!!!!!!!

5-The tragedy in life doesnt lie in not reaching your goal , it lies in having no goal to reach!!!!

6-It doesn't matter how slow you go as long as you dont stop!!!!!

how hard was yesterday

Yesterday was a hard day for me .. started out by not exercising first thing in the morning as normal and then I struggled big time with my water intake( was 9.30 pm before I had my 2 litres). I normally manage nearly 3 litres a day. I was also so so hungry and all I seemed to do all afternoon was eat( banana, rice cakes, ritz biscuits, mandarins). I guess the positive thing to come of it all was that I didnt go eat a pkt of potato chips or a chocolate.So I did a lot of thinking last night and came up with that I hate winter lol, I was probably more hungry because my water level was down and it was also soo cold here and raining here and also I think I need routine in my life big time. I have been going so well , get out of bed exercise brekkie etc and I just felt out of sorts yest so routine is a must for Emi. Today has been a much better day and I was so scared yesterday that today would be the same and the next etc etc etc but it wasnt.............alleluiaaaaaaaaaaaa lol. I still hate winter though!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Week 8

Here I am at week 8 and weigh in at 110.5 kg. I am feeling really positive and am enjoying my daily journey. I exercise everyday for an hr now on my bike plus I have been looking into step aerobics and fitball.I tried step aerobics yesterday and omg I was shocked, I couldnt even keep up with the warmups let alone the exercise itself lol.I started to wonder if the bike was doing me any good at all but was quickly reassured that it is and this was a totally different exercise and Id get it eventually.Today it was fitball day and I must admit I get along with this ball better then the stepper, Im kinda thinking here that the ball will be seen more then step step step lol.
I must admit that I have gained so much from the ww forums, I think all of you out there are just simply wonderful , so honest and helpful .
If anyone ever gets to read this and I have my doubts as I am totally illiterate when it comes to computers , this is my way of seeing my journey in a different light from tracking, tape measures and scales.

My first blog day

Hi
This is my first blog day and Im so excited lol. I am a 40 year old mum to four beautiful girls who are my life. I have always been overweight but once I turned 40 I began to see things a little differently and realised that although I was happy I knew I could be happier and asked myself the question...... Dont you deserve to be the happiest you can be??. My answer was YESSSSS and so began my ww journey. I started ww at home 7 weeks ago and so far so good. I am determined this is my time and have so far lost 9.5 kg and I am over the moon.
I have made so many changes these past 8 weeks and it feels wonderful.....so I will continue my journey as I begin to see that "nothing tastes as good as being thinner feels".