Hi Everyone
Hope you are all doing well..finally caught up with all your blogs.
I am really at a loss at the moment..... did weigh myself this morning as usual and had a loss of 2.1 kgs so I should be over the moon..guess I am but arent either.
My mum said some hurtful things to me on the weekend and guess I am struggling big time to deal with it all...... stuff like you look so old now, so sunkin in the face, you looked so much better before you lost this weight and you dont need to loose anymore weight, she kept going on about how I look so old now:(... I know I am 41 yrs of age and I am well aware of how my mother is and really to be honest it shouldn't upset me like it has..... I just dont understand why , guess I never will. It would be so nice to have her support but I guess thats not going to happen either :(
I went to Tafe yesterday, was a long day and the weather is still so hot here, I came away with a feeling that this course isnt for me...... wondering here if its because of how upset and alone I feel at the moment is the reason for this or whether this isnt for me. I feel so lost, I am so close to my goal , yet I feel like a failure,I feel sluggish, have lost interest in exercising,am very teary, gosh what am I doing here...... probably need a good kick up the behind hey.
OK well sorry for raving on here.. just needed to let it all out
Take care all
Love Emxxx
