Welcome Back Attitude

Hi Everyone

You guys are so wonderful, I always know I can count on you all for support so once again thankyou :).

Ok well firstly , yes I had a gain, this was expected so no real shock here, damage done was 500 grams so I guess that wasnt too bad. That is all I am going to say about the past couple of weeks , they are over and done with and as of yesterday I am happy to say that my attitude has returned, my determination is on a high and last night when I finally hit the pillow I was feeling sore, tired but on top of the world........ and isnt that just the greatest feeling :).


My exercise program for the next 4 to 6 weeks will be

Mon to Fri

6am 30 mins bike, 30 mins rowing machine

12 midday 30 mins total gym ( alternate days of upper and lower body)
15 mins rowing machine, Floor exercises ( 15 mins roughly)

4.30 pm 30 mins bike, 30 mins rowing machine

Saturday

6am 30 mins bike, 30 mins rowing machine

12 midday Floor exercises ( 15 mins roughly)

4.30 30 mins bike , 30 mins stepper

Sunday
Rest day... although we normally go on a picnic, ten pin, walks etc.After this time I will cut back on the bike or rowing machine and work on the treadmill.

I am so glad I am back into exercise full swing, even though I have only been back a day and this morning, I can notice just how great I feel.

What about the biggest looser.. doesnt David look great!!!!!!!!!! I was sure Jo would go.....

Ok well hope everyone is well, am off now to catch up with you all

Take care
Love Emxxx

Confession

Hi All

I have a confession to make... I have eaten and eaten so much on Friday, Saturday and so far today...... there are no excuses for this. I have hardly been exercising these past two weeks and now that I have taken my eating to unbelivable heights it has come to the point where I am scared and have to sit back and take charge of my life again. Ask myself why the hell am I doing this when I am so close to my goal? I do know that I need to somehow ignore all the negativity that seems to be around me, apart from my girls, my d/b ( who is miles away ) my closest g/f who is in Sydney and my dear blog buddies (you guys) everyone else seems to be so against me... I am fed up with hearing you dont need to loose anymore weight, or you looked better bigger, or you have aged so much...... do you hear me I am sick of this and today I am taking a stand against this....the next person to say one negative thing is going to get a blast.......

The rest of today is going to be good as far as eating goes, tomorrow is going to be day 1 all over again as if it isnt the only person I will be hurting is ME!!! I have worked too hard to let it all come undone now, I need to go back and have a good long hard think about why I have been like this these past few weeks then accept it and move on. The only consolation if you can even call it that is I feel quite ill at present so my body is telling me, so I know there is no way I could go back to this way forever...... I guess I am just upset that I still havent learnt to not hurt myself when the going gets me down.

Thanx for listening

Em xxxxxxxx