No more Tippy Toes

You know what ...well besides thinking I am going mad... I have realised that I dont really have a lot of support here around me, close by me.... I do have a wonderful man who is suportive but am really struggling with not having him around and am bottling a lot of feelings and emotions up inside me as I dont want to be in tears everytime I talk to him on the Phone.....
I dont have that friend who will come walking with me....I have those friends that say to me Em you look great the way you are, dont know why you go on about this weight stuff....the ones who say yeah walking sounds good, Curves sounds good ....but never commit to anything .........I love them for who they are as I am sure they do me but am going to have to learn the lesson again and that is to rely on me, find that inner strength that will support me when the obstacles and hurdles appear because they will appear ... I am so sick of having a few great days then blowing the next few .......working my butt out exercising only to go and have a pigfest..........what is the good of that...........once upon a time while ever I exercised my eating was under control..now that isnt as concrete as it once was and that scares me.......

Have a few ideas.....firstly I need to learn to cope with my stress in a productive way..secondly when I start to fumble and feel like I am falling I am going to think of you all ....
LEE-ANNE......JEN.....CHRIS.....ZANNA...SUZIE.....I am going to lean on you all..think of you all at different times and draw on your strengths to help me ...hope you dont mind but this may just work.......

Anyway have TAFE again today........

Take care..

Em xx

I am Spoilt

I havent been around since Wednesday because my internet connection decided to go on a holiday grrrrrrrrr was finally fixed late Friday......

DF came home this weekend so we have been out shopping he finally got a bonus from work that was due to him back in January better late then never .......feel so spoilt after having oodles of money spent on myself and the girls. ....I got a new Doona cover from Target originally $89.00 down to $25.00....... Wests Tigers Pyjamas oh yeahhhhhh.......... pr of jeans.....jumper..new joggers......girls got some playstation games and some books and last but not least I now have one of the lovliest gardens in my street thanks to new soil and lots of new plants am so happy after spending the afternoon in the garden........

Back to TAFE tomorrow..am looking forward to it in one respect...hope Miss 22 will be alright here at home at least Miss 21 will be here until lunch time........is a worry leaving her on her own

Was just the battery in my car so that was a relief

Exercise has been pretty good..eating well not so good.....tomorrow being back at TAFE might be a blessing in disguise as sometimes one can have too much time on their hands and boredom can set in ....which might result in eating a little more than one would like to BUT one has to learn to deal with that so that is no EXCUSE...........weekend was good stayed within my points so maybe there will be some sort of loss to report tomorrow...

Hope everyone has had a lovely weekend...catch up soon

Em x