Ahhhhhhhhhhh What damage have I done?
I had the most awful weekend, went away to see my b/f and hes having such a hard time atm with work and his ex and I hate seeing him so torn up inside but I know I needed to deal with all this in other ways then food but what did I do I hurt myself by eating the wrong food. My body felt so ill after those chips and scallops so it obviously doesnt even like that food anymore but no I kept stuffing it all in.Then to top that off I ate a piece of chocolate mudcake and a bottle of coke.Will I ever learn that when things are down not to hurt myself by eating. I have been so strong and so proud of myself for these past 9 weeks so why did I do this yesterday?
I am back on track today and very determined but cant find the answer as to Why I did it?Maybe I should just forget it, Can you do this successfully ? I guess you have to and one thing I know is theres no excuses. I am responsible for what I do to myself, what I put in my mouth is my own doing.
Now I also have come to realise that before I reach my goal my lifes more than likely going to have some ups and downs and the ppl in my life who I love are going to have problems too that is a reality so what do I do next time I feel so helpless , last thing I want is to turn to food so I am going to do myself a little book to read when I feel like I did yesterday and hopefully that will help me .
If anyone reads this pls feel free to leave any suggestions.
Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx
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