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Today is Friday...girls go back to school next Wednesday/Thursday....... they are looking forward to going back ( as is mum lol ) I didnt say that ok :)...miss 10 goes into year 5 and miss 13 into year 9 wow where has the time gone hey.


Today we are going to have a look around at the festival.........from what I have heard it doesnt seem to be as big this year as previous, not as many people here apparently.....we normally get around 70 000 extra people during Country Music Festival.......whether you like country music or not the festival is definately an experience .........

Miss 10 wants to go see Kasey Chambers tonight...she always gives a free concert in the park which is pretty damn good of her really so we will be going to that around 5 ish.

As each day passes , I am feeling better and the pain is easing..... time is what its going to take but I know its going to be ok.......there are some incredible ladies out there in blogland..... truly inspirational , really has made me sit back, think and gain some positives ........

To hear the news of Heath Ledger , such a sad loss, so young, my heart goes out to his little girl , Michelle and his family.

To all the Aussies hope you have a great Australia Day ..... to my NZ friends have a great weekend
Em x

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Hey All

I am back home......holiday was relaxing, even though it rained some of the time...girls had a great time as we all did....shopping, seeing friends, went to the beach a couple of times.... very relaxing just what the dr ordered :).
Didnt get to see my parents or my brothers and their families....they have made their mind up that its my fault miss 21 is the way she is, some very hurtful things were said on their part to miss 20 which I see as being so wrong anyway, if they have a problem with me say it to me dont run me down or say stuff to my children.Miss 20 was so hurt by what was said to her that she cut her holiday (she was staying at their place) and came home before we left.
I have decided that they arent going to change....I keep allowing them to hurt me and boy could I fill you on some stuff they have done even to the extent of denying that my two younger children even exist to my uncles/ aunts etc all because I didnt marry their father.... I think the term my parents used once was "BASTARDS". Anyway I have shed enough tears, they are who they are I cant change that but I do have control over how much I let them into my life..... and am going to seek some professional help so that I can face this and everything else and move on to a happier healthier me :).

I weighed myself this morning and the scales say the same ...this is ok could be worse and say I've gained so am smiling and saying thank you :).

I am doing ok I think ...will definately still be blogging and trying really hard to continue this journey..am positive that my life will be much brighter now...sorry for being a downer again but it really helps airing it even if here.........

Will catch up really soon .....

Love Em