seeing red

I just finished reading someone's blog , where she went on to tell how her doctor had said things to her, wont go into detail as it is her story, her blog but it made me see farking red........last week I went to a new dr as my old dr had moved to Canberra, right from the moment I walked into her room she was negative and cold........after weighing me, measuring me, calculating my bmi, all of which I could have told her she went on to suggest I have surgery WTF, then came the lecture of how I am a walking candidate for everything you name it she said it....gees I know I am overweight, I weighed 96 kgs on her scales but to suggest surgery just blew me away taking my self esteem with it. I went on to tell her that I had got down to 75 kgs but before I could say anything else she went on her soap box again about the why I gained and might as well said I was a pig, I am sure this woman who calls herself a dr was sitting there with visions of me stuffing my face hour after hour day after day till I gained this weight as she said this is more the reason for you to consider surgery, yeah I know what your thinking have surgery and you wont be able to stuff yourself......BITCH .Where is the support, the understanding, ok I need to loose weight, I am achieving this, I am exercising, if you dont want to be a dr to me then bye as I wont be coming back....to top all this off I had a pap smear and when I was about to leave she handed me the pathology bag and said to me when I do pap smears I also check for clamydia WTF......
I didnt have the slightest concern I had this but my thoughts were how dare you test for something without asking me, is it not a patients right to be told this, then also their right to say yes or no apparently not with this dr...... I went and paid the account, when I rang for my results today I told her I wouldnt be coming back and the reasons why, her responce this is entirely your choice....yep exactly my choice and I am making it.

Anyway my rant ...have a great weekend all
Em x

Filling in the gaps

Hi

Seems like I am getting really slack with my blog at the moment..another week has passed

On the weight front , well I weighed myself again at my neighbours house and this week showed a loss of 1.2 kgs..this is good, have decided might weigh regularly but am not going to jump up and down if they say I have gained etc , as I will know the reasons why and if its because I chose to go off the rails then I will have to be accountable for that and pay the price.I am up to day 43 in the step forward challenge, am feeling good and proud to have come this far :).

I went to Curves last Thursday, was made feel very comfortable indeed, explained how everything works, given a trial run and I decided to join up....I have heard comments like its boring after a while the same thing etc but I feel that anything can become boring and I feel the key is to make it work for you, and am a firm believer you only get back what you give and I am determined to give it all I have got. I have been twice now and am enjoying it...

Was my eldest daughters birthday last Friday, she was 22, sadly though she didnt come home for her birthday and sadly again I dont think she will even make the trip for Easter or her sister's 21st early April.....want to reach out and help her see the light so to speak but am afraid that I cant do a damn thing just be here if she needs me.

While on the birthday front my 3rd daughter turned 14 today........she got a new mobile phone and money so far and we are just having a quiet family dinner tonight with cake (of course )....will be having a small piece.


Catch up real soon

Em x