Water , water, water

Hi All

Day 3 and am feeling really , really wonderful ...not cocky just wonderful , have so much more energy and ooomph .

I was talking to a "expert " so to speak about my fluid retention and was told that for every 25 kgs you should be drinking 1 litre of water.....I thought omg I am way under ..anyways have been drinking my quota for 3 days now and so far so good only thing is the loo has become my new home :) ...have also cut back on carbs and like I said am feeling really awsum.

Exercise has been very limited mainly walking ..plan is to get back into the swing of that next week ..just felt that I needed to control my eating first instead of trying to do two things at once..........hurdle for me in the past has been that when I exercise I am on top of my world and food isnt an issue..dont exercise well then food is an issue.... so am teaching myself that food isnt an issue with or without exercise.......:)

Thanx to all who have been so kind really means a lot to me having your support .........

xxxx Em

Just what I needed

Hello

All I have done this morning is cry...cry..ahhh well crying is ok and I feel is just what I needed.....am over the moon about being engaged but deep down I knew that still my weight is an issue for me......so I jumped on the scales not prepared for what they revealed but must face reality and say I am now 110 kgs.............a hell of a lot of weight to cry about .........so out came all the emotions , the blame, the hating myself, the wonder why my guy would have asked me to marry him as all I am is fat and ugly.....I feel like a mix master is inside me........... so there is the story behind the morning of tears....... I went back to day 1 of my blog and have just re read all my entries ...gathered some points here and there, laughed and cried some more.....and am now ready to start this journey all over again............

For however long it takes ....I am going to try and blog more regularly and have also decided to draw on past entries for inspiration, will post a past entry from time to time in no specific order What better time to start then now


Blog entry 2005
I had Al's Y7 orientation day yesterday cant believe Al is off to high school next year only seems like yesterday I was leaving her in kindergarten.Looking back over these past years and what we as a family have endured and overcome to get where we all are today brings tears and a smile to my face. I know what it is like to overcome hurdles, to survive when you somehow dont know how that is going to happen and if there really is such a thing as a rainbow at the end but there is and that is how I know that I will get to my goal ...this is what will make me continue no matter what hurdle appears. I know I am sort of rambling here but I need to see this for myself...be able to go back and read over this during the next few week

Time to start this journey again...........time to wipe away the tears......... hugs to you all :)

You can bend but never break me
'Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'Cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

Better late than never

Hello ooooooo am back .........god knows how many times ive been and gone.....anyway so much has happened in the past 4 to 6 weeks where does one start.....
Ok first with the sad news my daughter had a miscarriage 2 weeks ago .....mainly brought on by her violent ex b/f who has now landed himself a few yrs holiday ............ she is as well as can be expected...............

Hard to be happy when she is going through all this but I do deserve to be happy and therefore am over the moon to say that my lovely man asked me to marry him ...... he took me out to dinner 3 weeks ago and proposed ........I was shocked .....delighted.......and my ring is absolutely gorgeous........... so the future holds a big move for the girls and I ...over to the coast which is great ...beaches.........him...... sand......... him .............places to go and did I mention him lol....... will try and work out how to post a pic on here so you can all have a look at the ring :).....

next exciting news is that I was offered part time work in 2008 from my work placement .... woooooo hooooooo ......will work p/t and complete my diploma before moving to the coast......


On the weight front well nothing great....staying about the same I think ...one day I will be brave enough to hop back on the scales .......... anyway must go just wanted to share my world with you all ...is my 43 rd birthday today so best get back to my friends ....hope you are all well will be around soon xxx