Scared and borderline

What a day today has been.......... my g/f was diagnosed with breast cancer and I spent the morning today with her to try and cheer her up and I guess take her mind off things for a bit before she goes into hospital tomorrow. She did thank me before I left for being there and cheering her up as best as one can do which was good as she did laugh and I so admire her strength and courage.

So anyway I got home and just fell apart, I have cried and cried virtually for the past 2 hours, scared for her and scared for me too. Instead of exercising like I normally would I just seem to want to sit and cry. I feel a tad selfish as this isnt about me its about my g/f but its just when someone close to you is diagnosed with that dreaded C word , you begin to think what if I have it as well, well I think it and im sure others do too. I have even gone and made an appointment for me to have a mammogram as I am so scared. I am thinking the worst before I even know anything and its eating me, tearing me up inside and all I can think of is what if I am loosing all this weight for nothing, what if I have C too , then it wont matter about loosing weight will it? . I just wish I could switch my mind off, I know I am being silly but am really really scared.
Why am I writing this in here anyway........ gees I guess this is my diary where I air my feelings well I have done before with other stuff so guess wont matter.

soooooo close

Hello

Well today was weigh in day...... lost 1 kg this week so am .2 short of reaching the 100 kg mark and.3 of being a double digit. So next week that will come, I am so excited 19.8 kgs gone for good and I soon will be under the 100kgs.
It is such a good feeling, knowing you are doing something so positive for yourself.
K well I am off to so some shopping, take care all and smile.
Emixxx

my hips are going

Hello
Hope everyone had a great weekend:-)
I had a good one even though my tigers lost but oh well we will be back on track this weekend I am sure .
I had my measurements taken on Saturday and was very pleased with the results here. I lost 27.5 cms this month taking my total now in 15 weeks of measuring myself(didnt do it for the first 3 weeks)to a total loss of 91 cms . I also lost this month 7 cms off my hips , I am absolutely over the moon with that loss as they seemed to be so slow compared to the rest of me.

I am also happy to say that I am up to 45 mins on my treadmill now and in a week of doing it I have walked 11 ks so not too bad . I am looking at trying to increase it every week atm and see how I go with that.

Well tomorrow is weigh in day for me so until then take care all
Emixx

Getting there

Hello Everyone

I am very happy I managed to do 30 mins on the treadmill this morning and then another 15 mins a while ago...... it is getting easier Alleluia lol.

I want to thank everyone who is stopping by and having a read of my blog and thanx for leaving comments...... so nice to hear from you all :-)

I have a question if anyone can help...... Can you do too much exercise??
A couple of my friends believe I am doing too much, its not like I push myself to near exhaustion or anything like that , i really do enjoy it and feel on top of the world afterwards , am a bit stuffed at times and by 9 ish am tired but I feel good so I dont know.All help with this is greatly appreciated..thank you.

Take care all
Emixx

Emi VS Treadmill

Omg... give me walking outdoors anytime.... this machine is out to kill me I am sure of it . I got up at 6 this morning as usual did my 45 mins on my bike then attacked the treadmill and although I did manage to do 15 mins it is so hard. I cant recall walking ever so damn exhausting in my whole entire life lol.
I am staring at it now and theres no way its gonna win lol.

I cant wait until Saturday when I measure myself again as I know this time there is going to be a substantial loss in my hips wooo hooo ( about time lol). I have pants now that were big cause of the weight loss on my legs and waist but my hips were the only thing in the way of them falling to the ground, well now they just fall to the ground woo hooooo. I have been doing a set of 10 exercises daily for about 2 weeks now from the hip n thigh diet ( ewwwww that D word ) but really do feel that they have made a big difference so when on a good thing stick to it hey.

K well miss 7 is off to a disco for book week as a "BRAT DOLL " so got to go do her hair

Take care and smile

Emixx

Week 17

Wow I sometimes cant believe that I have been doing this for 17 weeks now.... truly amazing for me to have stuck at it this time but I am more determined then ever that this will be the time for me:-).

Well its Tuesday and weigh in day for me and this week I lost 1.8 kg so my total now is 18.8 kgs gone for gooooooooood . I am very excited ..... Can you tell ??? lol.

I bought myself a treadmill yesterday and omg it nearly killed me.. no seriously I was absolutely buggered, I can do my bike for 60 mins straight but could only manage 15 mins on the treadmill...but am determined its not gonna beat me lol. I really do enjoy my exercise and while its much more enjoyable to be out walking in the sun and fresh air its a time factor thing for me and I can get up at 6 every morning and do my bike and treadmill while girls are still in bed where I couldnt leave them alone to do it. I personally cant wait until its warmer and daylight savings then we can all go for an afternoon walk.

My girls have been sick with the flu and bronchitis but went back to school today which is great.. only thing was miss 11 missed out on competing at the carnival on Friday which was so disappointing for her; she was so upset but was something that couldnt be helped so she needed lots of extra cuddles.

What about my tigers too .. what a win on Friday night!!!!!!!!!

I am changing my exercise program as of today again ( I know again) lol but same thing does become boring too lol.. well thats my excuse and sounds good lol.

Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx

Another kg gone

Woooo hoooooooooo 17 kgs now, feeling really good and it wont be too long until I am a double digit girl......gees how long has it been since I was one of them ...too long.
Well the week has been pretty good, had a bit of a hard day Sunday could have eaten the house out but fortunately didnt. I guess that it is good to know that I can now take my mind and body elsewhere instead of the fridge or cupboards.

Girls are doing really well........Miss 11 is in the zone carnival this Friday which is great ..........she has really put a lot of training into her running and is reaping the rewards atm.
Miss 7 is planning to do a dance with a few friends in front of the whole class tomorrow .... so all in all a good positive household, we seem to bounce off each other and I am well aware of just how my girls support me in their own way :-).
My tigers are playing so well toooo..... beat the cowboys on Sunday wow what a game....I am definately off to Sydney for one finals game that I am positive of.

OK just decided my goal is to get to double digits by the finals so 4 weeks to loose 3 kgs........... Emicandoit .....well shes going to give it her best shot anyway.

Take care and believe in yoursef

Emixxxxx



Am

16 kgs gone for good

I am so excited ... 16 kgs gone now and like my buddy Tash says gone for good wooooo hoooooooo.
I feel really great and I can see a big difference in me now, so many clothes that are just too big to wear anymore.
I am doing weights now every second day, plus other exercises , plus my total gym so this takes almost 60 mins to get through so on this day I only do my bike of a morning for 30 mins.I am really enjoying my exercising and find myself looking forward to it which is good.
I ve been so busy these past 2 weeks and am really enjoying doing more things with my girls , we went on a picnic last weekend and I even played footy with them. I t was such a good feeling to be able to do this and the girls were over the moon that mum could join in.
Today was miss 11's sport carnival, she won the 200 metre race and she won her age heat plus the final, came 2nd in long jump, 1st in the relay. I was so proud of her :-).
I am also over the moon about my tigers wooo hoooo we are in 4th spot on the ladder now wooooo hooooooooooo got a really tough one this week against the cowboys though so once again come this Sunday I will be cheering them on lol.

It is still so cold here but not long now and winter will be over and we can be so much more proud that we all survived a winter.
Take care all
Emixxxxxxxxxxxx

Great Day

I have had a great day :-) It was time to measure myself again .. I do this once a mth ( except for the one time I cheated lol)and I lost 20 cms this month taking my total to 63.5 cms . I was over the moon.
Then we all went shopping , got a few bargains for the girls and came home for lunch.

I t is a glorious day here today actually the days have been like this for a while , still cold of a morning and night though but anyway after lunch we went for a walk and came across a Garage Sale so went and had a sticky . I was looking at this stepper exerciser , the ones with the handles anyway I asked the lady how much and she said oh you can have it for a $1. I was amazed a dollar but I didnt have a dollar on me lol but alls good she kept it for me so we went home got the car and went and paid and picked up my stepper.
So now I have a stepper to do some different exercises on lol , just got to look up the net and see what benefits these provide but hey for a dollar you cant go wrong. Am cooking a baked dinner tonight for a change and making my own seasoning which doesnt go in the chook I prefer to cook it on a seperate tray so its all nice and crunchy and serve it on the side.
cya for now
xxxxx

Feeling good

What does feeling good mean?
For me its a feeling of inner peace,happiness, satisafaction. I am feeling really comfortable with my weight loss atm. I think for the first time in a very long time I am just going with the flow and not being so damn foccussed every minute of everyday. I know one has to be focussed but not to the extent of beating yourself up if you dont stick to your exercise plans or you eat something that you feel you shouldnt have.It has virtually taken me 13 weeks to reach to the point of "inner peace" and there is a calmness about me now and a feeling that I wont turn back now.
I had a big day yesterday started off by exercising on my bike for 30 mins then went to miss 7's sports carnival, even went in the 3 legged race which was absolutely great. Miss 7 came 2nd in her heat, and fourth in the final woooooo hoooooooo!!!!!.
I was feeling rather proud of the both of us and I am sure my smile was seen for miles when a mum I hadnt seen for weeks says omg youve lost some weight Em :-). Doesnt it make you feel that little bit more when ppl start to comment.
I then did my total gym for 20 mins plus 15 mins of my arm weights and some ab crunches(ouch lol).

Must sign off with this today. What about my "Wests Tigers" WoooooooooHoooooooo!!!!!
We are in 6th position now which is great, thank god its Friday bring on the footyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Have a great weekend :-)

Week 13-13.2 kgs gone

I am very happy, and proud of myself. This week I lost 1.5 kg which brings my total now to 13.2 kg woooooo hoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!.
I have made a few changes these past few days . Firstly I am not going to continue with the home program as I feel that I can use the money elsewhere and basically continue with the forums which are wonderful.
Next change is I am eating later then I did before as I was finding that I was getting hungry around 9 30 ish which wasnt good so no more eating at 5 30 its now 6 30-7 ish and so far this is much better.
My exercising has changed as well I now do my bike for 30 mins twice a day morning and afternoon and I walk every second day for a minumum of 30 mins and every other day I am doing weights, total gym and some other exercises which takes me about 45 mins to an hour.
I will do this for 5 weeks and then look at it again.
I am feeling really good and its like I have a new lease on this weight loss journey and I am so enjoying exercising and am amazed at just how much fitter I am now. I am now a member of "Living in the suburbs" and am really excited about that and hoping to meet lots of ppl and make new friends.
Stay positive
Emi

Successful Weight Loss

Hope someone finds this interesting

HOW DO YOU GET YOUR MIND ON THE RIGHT TRACK????

1 TALK TO YOURSELF

Maybe it sounds a little kooky , but the encouragement wont come from anywhere if it doesnt come from you first. Dont be afraid to give yourself a pep talk every morning, or if you are facing a food like temptation. You can do it, you are worth it, you are an awsome mum , person friend etc etc whatever it takes you are your own best cheerleader.

2 STAY POSITIVE
Slow weight loss is the best and healthiest way to loose. It may seem like slow going , especially since there will undoubtedly be weeks where youll stay the same or gain a little back. Just remember that the slower and steadier your loss, the more likely you are to keep it off.

3GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK
Dont let this become your life.Reward yourself when you meet your goals.If you go off track for a day or two or even a week , dont give up, you didnt gain your weight by eating too much one week so one week wont halt your progress unless you let it.

Knowing that you can be successful is step number 1 to loosing weight. It is more then just knowing it , you have to be ready. You can look in the mirror everyday and think I need to loose 30 kg, but until you have made that commitment to yourself, youll be stuck in a cycle of loss and gain.

Feeling Great

Well I am feeling good about my weight loss, am exercising well, eating well and overall am in a positive state of mind. I lost 1 . 2 kg this week which is quite surprising considering but really lets face it I did make a mountain out of a mole hill.
I am walking for 30 mins everyday now plus my bike for 30 mins and my total gym for another 30 mins just trying to vary me exercises as like everything it too can become boring.

For those who wanted to know about my eating habits well this is what I had to eat yesterday for eg.
BREAKFAST
2 wholemeal crumpets
WW jam
Orange juice
Green tea
SNACK
1 mandarin
LUNCH
Green tea
1 Pita pkt
WW baked beans
1 Sm WW yogurt
AFTERNOON SNACK
1/2 punnet of strawberries
Fresh green beans
DINNER
Green tea
1 sm piece of steak
Smearing of steak sauce
1PT serve of potato
Cabbage, cauli, peas, corn
1 sm WW fruit salad
NITE TIME
1/2 sachet of choc mint hot chocolate

Hope everyone is staying positive and warm
Emi

Im back

I have struggled so much these past few days, felt guilty, a failure wondered even if I could do this basically lost all faith in myself and I felt awful.I had to make some decisions as I had blown two days and I knew that if I didnt do some serious thinking, soul searching that these two days would become a week before I knew it. I was in the middle of my thinking when a friend of mine said to me Em you are my inspiration. I admire you so much that I am going to WW this week and because of how hard I know you have worked that will inspire me to put some effort in this time. I was overwhelmed by her comments, I never thought I would inspire anyone gees I know theres heaps of ppl in the forums that have inspired me but to think me Emi would inspire someone else was just a shock. I began to smile and started to think yes I have worked hard and came to the conclusion that I will be damned if I am going to quit now and pile the kilos and cms back on NOWAY!!!!. I guess I maybe got a bit cocky because I had done this fairly easy but its not easy its a day at a time and somehow I have got to learn not to feel like a failure if I go out for dinner or lunch or have a bad day as its not the end of the world, I am not perfect but I am sensible enough to say ok and get back to it. I am back and feel so good I have exercised today really well and I guess the most important thing is that I believe in me again and I know that emicandoit no matter how hard or slow or long it takes. Take care and doz you can do it too girl.

Decision time

What am I going to do?????
I have had a bad week as far as I am concerned. Firstly my bad choice of food on Sunday followed by a few bad snacks this week and chinese yesterday with my girls and a g/f.I have been exercising still but only managing about half of what I would normally do...... now this isnt the end of the world but to me this week it has been so close to feeling like it.
I am on this journey for the rest of my life for even when I reach my goal its not like its going to be time to eat all the wrong foods again and never exercise is it ?
My decision to begin WW was for me to feel better about me, and be able to enjoy life with my girls and overall a feeling of wellbeing..... now even only after 10 weeks I have achieved all these but when things go wrong or I eat something which I consider to be so bad I get all down in the dumps and feel like a failure.
I dont want to give up.... I know I cant give up, why am I feeling like this? I keep telling myself that my routine will be fine once the girls go back to school and to enjoy this time with them and so what if I dont exercise as much and so what if I even eat a little of my no no food its going to be ok as long as I realsie what I am doing and keep it all in perspective for me. Come on Em its not like you have binged everyday all day... dont be so hard on yourself.
I dont know just want the old Em back, the emicandoit Em, shes here somewhere I know it just got to find her again.
Well take care everyone.... Ill be back I know.
Em

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When will I learn not to hurt Me

Ahhhhhhhhhhh What damage have I done?
I had the most awful weekend, went away to see my b/f and hes having such a hard time atm with work and his ex and I hate seeing him so torn up inside but I know I needed to deal with all this in other ways then food but what did I do I hurt myself by eating the wrong food. My body felt so ill after those chips and scallops so it obviously doesnt even like that food anymore but no I kept stuffing it all in.Then to top that off I ate a piece of chocolate mudcake and a bottle of coke.Will I ever learn that when things are down not to hurt myself by eating. I have been so strong and so proud of myself for these past 9 weeks so why did I do this yesterday?
I am back on track today and very determined but cant find the answer as to Why I did it?Maybe I should just forget it, Can you do this successfully ? I guess you have to and one thing I know is theres no excuses. I am responsible for what I do to myself, what I put in my mouth is my own doing.
Now I also have come to realise that before I reach my goal my lifes more than likely going to have some ups and downs and the ppl in my life who I love are going to have problems too that is a reality so what do I do next time I feel so helpless , last thing I want is to turn to food so I am going to do myself a little book to read when I feel like I did yesterday and hopefully that will help me .
If anyone reads this pls feel free to leave any suggestions.
Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx

here comes the sun

The sun has finally come out here and although it was great to see the rain its so great to see it go too .
Ive had the reading bug the last few days and have read about green tea and its benefits to weight loss.Well I went and bought some as I dont like coffee at all so I am a tea drinker and its very nice I must say. Its too early to say whether it has assisted me with my weight loss but its refreshingly nice and the information about it is quite interesting.
Ive been asked if I found it hard to cut out or cut down on stuff like butter, milk, sweets, sugar etc etc.Well I guess I have been lucky in that area as I never ate butter or margarine , always had my tea black with no sugar and wasnt a big sweets eater. I was more the potato chip queen or cheese and biscuits and to be honest I havent really missed chips or the cheese and biscuits and I cant tell you why this is so either just lucky I guess:-).
As for being tempted to snack well yes I have had a few days like this especially in the colder weather but most of the time I find that Im full and I put that down to the water it appears to make me feel full. I always drink 600 mls with lunch and dinner and I drink another 2-3 during the day and of a nite. I drink tea at breakfast and am drinking a cup of green tea now before each meal also and apart from this I hardly ever drink diet coke or substitute of any kind .
OK well I hope everyone has a great weekend, take care, stay positive and smile
Emixxxxxxxx

I will survive

Well I have lost a total of 10 .5 kg in 9 weeks and so far 48 cms. I have gone down comfortably 2 sizes already and I feel absolutely wonderful and on top of the world. I find these forums a great boost for me but am a tad disappointed as my buddies have disappeared off the face of the earth. .
On a more positive note also I read an article yesterday that says that if you exercise before breakfast you increase your weight loss by 300% so thats good as I always get on my exercise bike before breakfast.
Take care and stay positive
Emi

Wild Windy Day

It is a wild and windy day here today and raining.I have been shopping and bought lots of yummy vegies to make some soup to freeze so I will have warm filling lunches for a while .
I started back with my total gym yesterday so am happy with that was able to do the 30 min beginners program quite easily so will continue that each afternoon before I begin getting dinner ready. Im also trying something new with my exercise bike too , instead of doing a hour each morning before breakfast I ve decided to do 3o mins before breakfast then 30 mins before lunch and chuck( my nic for total gym lol) 30 mins before dinner.
I miss my 11 yr old , she is at her grans house for a weeks holiday so its just miss 7 and I here atm.We have had lots of fun watching dvds and playing games and weve even managed to eat lots of vegies still each night so miss 11 will be very impressed lol. No seriously I love my vegies but miss 7 doesnt eat every vegie like miss 11 does so spinach and broccoli havent been on menu so far lol. Well thats it for now take care all and stay positive!!!!!!! Luv Emi(hugsss)