Feeling Flat

Hi All
Am feeling a tad flat today.. firsty my daughter went back to Newcastle this morning, we were all at the train station with tears in our eyes. The younger girls really get upset especially miss 8 she absolutely cries her heart out..... I decided to take them to see Chicken Little to cheer them up a bit, it worked and they liked that.

Only managed half hour on my bike this morning as I slept in....... mind you that isnt something that is the norm for me but when you have 2 dogs next door that continually bark all damn night cause their owners are away and your bedroom is at the back of the house,need I say that sleep is very much interupted. I havent done my normal 30 mins before lunch either as we were at the movies so its all up to me at least to do my hour this afternoon.......that way I will at least have 90 mins to show for Thursday.... I know I am a exercise nutter.

Hope all is well with you all....cya soon

Love Em

Tuesday.....out come the scales

Hi All

Weigh day today...result a loss of 2.2 kgs , am very pleased with that.
I have been back into exercising full on since I came back from Newcastle, I feel that I needed that week and a bit off from exercising as I was starting to feel like it was a chore which was kinda scary but now I am back to enjoying it, looking forward to it and wiser...

I had a nice weekend, went shopping with miss 11 and 8 on Saturday for their school stuff, saturday night was simple just watching dvds with the girls and a friend. Sunday I went to the new Wests Diggers club here for the first time, so nice and was so good to be able to sit back and relax with my D/B.

Miss 18 goes back to Newcastle on Thursday :(.... I am such a sook I know but I dont want her to go... have soooo much enjoyed having her home for the last month but I know she has to. I am not sure if miss 19 is coming back home next week for a few days or not... have to check in with her about that.......

Ok well best be off.....have a great day everyone..cya soon

Love Emxxxxxxxx

Hi Everyone



The heat has been awful these past few days..... we had a bit of rain again yesterday for an hr or so , then a bit last night but today is hot once again. There hasnt even been any relief of a night....even with the rain. Oh well no use complaining hey lol.

We all went to see Nanny McPhee yesterday, was enjoyable and I took my water and wasnt even tempted to buy a choc top.. now this is good I thought to myself so with a grin from ear to ear after not being tempted at the movies, we met up with a friend of mine for lunch. Lunch was good, had a prawn salad, resisted the garlic bread that was ordered by my friend, resisted the chips that miss 8 left on her plate gees thinking at this point in time how good am I lol but then came the cookies and cream cheesecake, Miss 11 and my friend sitting there eating this cheesecake, so I gave in and just had to try it, it looked so yummy even though I dont have a sweet tooth by any means as I am the potato chip queen remember lol anyway I had a small spoonful..... mmm niceeeeeee but was happy to just leave it at that......

The festival is about to begin here yet again, the campers are starting to roll in , the cowboys and cowgals are roaming around and no they dont tie their horses outside the pubs lol had to laugh when I was asked that by an american lady a few weeks back. This place comes alive at country music festival time, so busy, buskers everywhere, clubs open 24/7, I know I walked around with my mouth open the first yr we were here, was amazed. Anyway even if you dont like Country Music the festival is still definately an experience.

I am still doing my 2 1/2 hours of exercise , eating is going well, water is flowing lol so all is looking pretty rosey.Thanks to everyone who commented on my 40 kg loss.. is wonderful to have so much support and I have decided to keep drinking my water everyday but am going to make an appointment to see my dr , probably get one in 3 weeks time if I ring today, its hard to get a dr here let alone get an appointment in a hurry but theres no hurry with this just want to ask her.

Ok well hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.. take care
Love Emxxxx

Tuesday......Weigh in day

Hi All

Weighed in this morning and am over the moon :) I lost 1.3 kgs taking my total loss now to 40 .2 kgs woooohooooooooo and it is even TTOTM.

Sooooo I have 10 kgs to go before goal on my scales or 15 kgs to go if I use the weight I was when I went to the drs.... I guess the drs would be more accurate so I will see how I go.


Ok got a question for you all .. if you can help me ... I drink a minumum of 4 .5 litres of water everyday, some days like yesterday I drink 5/6 litres now my g/f tells me thats far too much water...sheesh I didnt know there was such a thing as too much water. Now also bear in mind that besides having a cup of green tea with every meal I do not drink anything else in the day... oh on the rare occasion I might have a pepsi max or diet solo but it is very rare. So am I drinking too much water.... I do retain fluid as a rule but its no worse from the water intake I have.

Ok much appreciated if anyone can help..... hope all is well

Love Em xxxx

Monday, Monday

Hi all

I am sooooo happy can you hear me singing...... Monday Monday so good to seee that I survived the whole weekend without a single chippeeeeeee haha
No seriously this was the first weekend in sooooo long that I didnt have a pkt of potato chips , they are my weakness but I made my goal for this month... no potato chips instead of say loosing 2 kgs etc.
I am really proud of myself, my first weekend without potato chips wooo hooooo.

The rain didnt come to anything much so the weather has been dry and hot.......

I am still doing my normal 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday and feel really good.. exercise definately agrees with me.

Well I hope everyone is having a lovely day... cya tomorrow as its weigh in day for me so am excited .. lets hope for the big 40 kg loss .

Take care
Love Emxxxxxxxx

feeling really good

Hi Everyone

Hope all is well with you .

I feel really good , back into exercising have done 2 1/2 hrs everyday since Tuesday, have been eating really really well and drinking lots of water and boy isnt my body thanking me for it.I havent even been tempted by potato chips and today I am sure the local supermarket knew I was coming as they had so many displays of potato chips but they didnt get to me lol.

We had a lovely day yesterday, we went to Lake Keepit for the day , my 18 yr old is still here and the younger ones really love having their older sister around as does mum :). We went swimming and I hired a canoe so the three girls had heaps of fun with that.The weather has been so hot and dry but thankfully there is rain here atm so that is wonderful.

I have decided to stick to counting points.. I figure that so far it has worked for me so why change it.
Ok well I hope you are all enjoying your weekend..
Love Em xxxxxxxxxx

Happy New Year Everyone

Hi All

Well I am back home and yes we all had a wonderful Christmas and New Year. It was so good to catch up with my family...some hadnt seen me since june so they really noticed a difference which was great..still get a laugh when I think about some of the comments made .. oh well thats brothers for you . Newcastle changes everytime I go home I am sure of it and the humidity knocked us a bit especially last Sunday it was a killer. We really enjoyed going to the beach..especially Al and Loz, they had so much fun...aww we all miss the beach.
I went out for the New year with some old friends.. had a great night, dancing and singing only thing is it went to quick but it is nice to be back home.

Ok now I had to face the scales this morning really had myself convinced that I had done major damage... not due to the fact of overeating endlessly just the fact I hadnt exercised and mum is still such a shocker when it comes to cooking and I didnt really plan well with taking my " Diet food" lol mums words exactly with me. Anyway the damage was 1 kg which was such a relief... yes I know I should be over my 40 kgs by now but alas I am 38.9 kgs down and Back on track today with my exercise and eating . I promised myself I wouldnt beat myself up over this so am pleased to say I have kept that promise to myself :-).
I am not sure about the no count program.. really have to read a bit more into it for the moment before I decide which way to go although it seems to be working really well for a few ppl.

Well I am off now.. was so good to read everyones blogs and catch up and I really am looking forward to keeping in touch with everyone in 2006....

Take care

Love Emxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Merry Christmas(20th Dec)

Hi Everyone

Well Christmas is only a few days away .. hope everyone is all organised.

Weigh in day for me and I needed to loose 1.1 kgs to take my total loss to 40 kg.... well I didnt make the 40 kg loss:-( lost 1 kg making my loss 39.9...Can you believe it so close but so far...ahh well doesnt matter.... keep telling myself this as I am a little bit disappointed.. I guess thats silly but I just wanted to be able to say 40 kgs gone for good.

Ok well I wont be back here until the New year..... so I take this opportunity to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. I hope you all have a wonderful time with family and friends .

Lots of Love

Em xxxxxxxxxxx

38.9 ( 13th dec)

Howdy everyone

Hope everyone is well and staying positive.... is such a busy time of the year but I love Christmas....so exciting.
We went and had a look at some of the decorated houses ... some ppl go to so much effort..... must admit our house looks quite good too.

We went to Carols in the Park last Sunday..... sang our hearts out.

Survived my birthday pretty good... had a piece of cake but basically just watched what I ate and all was good. Hopped on the scales this morning and had lost 1.1 kg which was good seeing as though I gave myself Friday off from exercise and did the bare minimum on the weekend. I cant believe that I have nearly lost 40 kgs... really do hope that next week the scales will register that 1.1 loss needed to make 40 kgs but if they dont alls good .

Ok well take care everyone and enjoy your week..

Happy Birthday to me

Hi everyone

I have had so much trouble trying to read all your blogs this week.. has been very annoying.

Ok today is my birthday....sweet 41:-). My 19 yr old is coming home so at least I will have 3 of my girls here... would have been so wonderful to have the 4 but these things cant be helped. She did ring me early and sing happy birthday to me so was happy about that. My D/B bought me a gold bracelet sooo beautiful and the 2 littlies bought me a watch and perfume so I was a very lucky girl.

I lost 1.8 kgs when I weighed myself on Tuesday... taking my total loss now to 37.8 kgs gone for good. I am hoping and have set myself a mini goal to have lost 40 kgs by Christmas..... hope I can achieve this.

Ok well I hope everyone has a great weekend ..... take care

Love Emxxxxxxx

Mixed Bag Today(Friday)

Hi Everyone

Firstly I want to say that I have read some amazing blogs this morning.. truly inspirational women....women who have made me sit up and have a long hard think. I have been rather sluggish the past 2 days .. I have stuck to my points and exercised but there just hasnt been that oomphhhhh behind it. I have lied in bed and thought oh I dont feel good... or it wouldnt matter if I missed this mornings exercising when in all honesty there wasnt anything wrong with me just seemed to be searching for an excuse not to go exercise. I know above all that I need to exercise so after reading these blogs I have decided to get my act together and go find that oomph!!!!!!!!!!(ATTITUDE).

I made this yummy vegetable slice last night.... the original recipe (Asparagus and Ham slice) came from Annette Sym's Cookbook but I didnt use Ham instead I used carrott and peas.... girls loved it too.

I had Al's Yr 7 Orientation Day yesterday cant believe Al is off to High School next year only seems like yesterday I was leaving her in Kindergarten. Looking back over these past few years and what we as a family have endured and overcome to get to where we all are today brings tears and a smile to my face. I know what it is like to overcome hurdles.. to survive when you somehow dont know how that is going to happen and if there really is such a thing as a rainbow at the end but there is and that is how I know that I will get to my goal... this is what makes me continue no matter what hurdle appears. I know Im sort of rambling here but I need to see this for myself.. be able to go back and read over this the next few weeks as it is pretty scary for me thinking about my birthday dinner, miss 7's birthday, Christmas parties, Christmas and New Year all scary times when food and drink are going to be in plenty... ohhh but I know what I have to do, I have worked to hard and come to far to stop so continue I will regardless. If I eat or drink a bit too much I am not going to beat myself up about it (am I em !!!!) I will move on and make the next day count and so on and so on. Ok well there you go its in my mind nice and clear for now and here for future reference.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Take care
Love Emxxxx

Still Here

Hi Everyone

Well its Tuesday .. weigh in day and this week I am happy to say that I lost 900 grams :-). It is so great to see the scales go down a little more each week and I am finding myself doing little cheers and jumps and eyeing myself off in windows and mirrors omg am I becoming vein lol

Ok news on my g/f, she had the operation last week and they got all the tumour and the outlook for her is very good. This is such a relief, am extremely happy for her and her kids goes without saying hey.

We all had a busy weekend, Christmas shopping, birthday party( wasnt a really good girl) but the scales were kind, must be the exercise I do which helps with this. We put up the Christmas tree , looks beautiful, and the window decorations and this weekend some friends are coming over to help with the outside decorations.

The weather wasnt really good here last weekend, Saturday was a stinking hot day, then storms and wild winds Sat night followed by a windy wet Sunday which turned cold . The last two nights and mornings have been quite cold and today it looks as rain isnt too far away again. I mowed the front and back yard this morning .. left my new phone inside.. good idea hey lol.

Ok well hope everyone is having a great week...

Cya Em xxx

PS ( Is definately Tuesday 2 46 pm ... cant change my date etc )

Weigh in day again

Hi

Just a quick hello to let you all know that this week I lost 400 grams.......

I did my rowing again today ... gees its hard but I will get there.... I am determined.

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week

Take care

Em xxxx

Change of Exercise

Hi Everyone

Hope you all had a great weekend... the girls and I did. On Saturday we went shopping bought some Christmas pressies, got some really good bargains esp for my older girls which is always a good thing. Yesterday we went to Apsley Falls at Walcha, we had a picnic then we went for a walk around the falls, so peaceful and beautiful, Al actually said to me to slow down as she couldnt keep up lol ... now that is a good thing to hear.


Did my measurements on Sat .... my total loss now is 148.5 cms and I ve lost the most off my hips woo hooooo am excited about that as my hips have always been so much bigger then the rest of me . I really think those exercises I ve been doing from the hip and thigh diet are working or it could be just a combination of everything.
Today however I have changed my exercise program... now I will be doing 30 mins on my bike,treadmill,air walker(yay a friend was able to fix that for me) and stepper taking that to a daily total of 2 hrs. Then I will do my arm weights every second day for 20 mins, the days I dont do my arm weights I will do a variety of exercises for 20 mins and finally I have converted my total gym into a rowing machine so will try and I do mean try to do 15 mins a day on that. This morning I found it difficult but I guess like all new things will take time as I can clearly remember how hard I found the stepper and treadmill to begin with. I will see how this goes for a few weeks plus I want to go for a few walks with the girls:-).

Ok well bye for now... take care

Love Emixx

Feeling better

Hi everyone

Firstly I want to say thank you to Suzie and Karen for caring..... your words mean a lot thankyou once again :-).

I am feeling better, my g/f is home at the moment as they cant do the operation just yet due to machine failure so they sent her home for the time being. I am so amazed at just how much inner strength my g/f has and even my g/f that had breast cancer and lost a breast has.... they are truly wonderful ppl.

I have been good with eating after Sunday.. omg what a day that was am still kinda annoyed at myself but it happened and I cant alter that so all I could do was move ahead and get back on track Monday which I did. I am still doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it really helps my mind as well as my body.

Al had a wonderful time in Canberra ..so good to have her home though :-).

Finally yesterday was weigh in day for me .. doesnt it come around quickly .. anyway I lost 500 grams ( 1 of suzies tubs of margarine/butter lol) so gotta be happy with that.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying their week..will try and catch up with all your blogs real soon.


Take care
Love Emixx

so sad

Hi

I am feeling so many emotions here atm...anger, sadness, scared, annoyed u name it I am feeling it. I received some awful news yesterday morning my g/f in Newcastle has been diagnosed with a brain tumour and the drs dont give much hope. She is currently in hospital awaiting more tests which are to be done tomorrow. I feel so sad, so angry as she has 4 kids why why why ? I am a believer, I do have my faith but its times like this that I just struggle to understand.
Once again though this isnt about me so how dare I eat bad foods, foods that I know I shouldnt eat, that I know I dont want to eat, that I know I dont even enjoy so why do I do it? Why do I hurt myself, I thought I had overcome this but apparently not. I am trying so hard to come to terms with this.. just doesnt seem real.

Ahh sorry about this negative entry... hope everyone is doing really well and enjoying their weekend. Emi

Silly Me

Hello again

I forgot to tell you all how much weight I lost this week..silly me. I lost 1.7 kgs so am really really happy with that:-).

I know I am still cursing myself for mowing my phone....

Take care

Love Emixx

Weigh Day

Howdy

Woke up this morning feeling a lot better , had a good nights sleep for a change ( doesnt that make a world of difference to begin with). I think a combination of having that virus last week and lack of sleep from that and then my worry about Al's trip had just made me a mess. I didnt exercise Saturday, Sunday or yesterday so that wouldnt have helped my cause either.... for me exercise just boosts me so much. Its funny you know just reading that last bit a few months ago I wouldnt have known that gawd what was exercise other then housework and walking around the shops.
Im still worried about Al but not to the extent of yesterday.. just hope and pray they will all be safe. It is so scary when you think about it, all those ppl arrested in Sydney and Melbourne last night apparently there being a real threat of an attack... wonder when it will all end if ever hey.

I mowed my lawn this morning and also my mobile phone :-( Cant believe that happened but the proof is sitting out the back on the garbage. I diverted my phone to my mobile and it must have fell out of my pocket and of course I didnt realise this until it was too late.So guess I will be looking to buy a new one damn!!!!.

Ok well I am off to do some ironing.........

Hope everyone is having a lovely day

Love Emixxx

Monday

Hi Everyone

Sometimes I really think I am loosing the plot........
Miss 11 left this morning on a school excursion to Canberra , she was all excited but said she would miss me and her little sister( of course) and all I could do was cry. I was able to hold back the tears until she got on the bus which was good as she would have got upset if she had seen them. I had a bad weekend, tears as I didnt want her to go. I am such a worry wart and all I can think of is these bloody terrorists and just wanted to keep her with me. I know I had to let her go though as it is a wonderful experience for her, just got to pray she and all the rest of the kids and teachers will be ok. I really am loosing the plot.... didnt see any other parents with tears, wonder if any other parent has had thoughts like mine? I know Al's friends parents are fine with it all.......Friday hurry up and come please , its going to be a hard week for L and I without Al :-(


Hope all is well with you all

Love Emixx

mixed emotions

Hi everyone

Weigh in day for me yesterday...I lost 700 grams this week.

I should be over the moon but for some reason I'm not......... am feeling a bit emotional atm.. on the verge of tears and to cap it off have been sick with some sort of virus which consists of massive headaches. I have been so sick Monday and yesterday that I couldnt exercise which makes me feel bad... I just seem to be so different when I exercise ...so on top of my world. Im guessing that the combination of being sick and not exercising has just bought me down .

I hope everyone is doing well :-)

Love Emixx