feeling awful

Hello everyone

I havent been around for a couple of days as I have sinus really bad and have been so sick with it all. I am starting to feel a bit better today thank goodness and will try and catch up with everyones blogs as soon as I can. I havent forgotten you all and I hope everything is going well and will catch up soon.

I weighed in on Tuesday, had a 300 gram loss so still going downnnnn.

Take care

Emi

Go the mighty tigerssssssss

Hello everyone

OMG I am still over the moon about my tigers win yesterday. I cried, I have waited 36 years to see my tigers win a Grandfinal and finally it happened. I had some friends over and well yes we opted for pizza but hey thats ok all will be good. I have a bit of a sore throat at the moment now of course that wouldnt have anything to do with me screaming and cheering last night now would it? Nope of course not damn weather changing all the times fault lol.

I have been pretty good with my exercising this past week managed to do 1 1/2 hrs everyday instead of my 2 21/2 hours but it is school holidays and I try to do things with my girls so at the end of the day its all good too. We have been for walks, to the park, shopping,Koala park and this week we are going ten pin bowling and to the movies. My 19 year old is home for a couple of weeks which is great so will be a busy two weeks but as long as I get some exercising in each day I will be happy with that.

Hope everyone is doing well and having a good long weekend. Weigh in for me tomorrow so until then bye and take care

Emixx

Shocking my body

Hello everyone

I weighed in today at 92.8 kgs , this week I lost a massive 3 kgs. I guess because I worked my butt off on my treadmill , plus did some walking out in the fresh air that I shocked my body and therefore lost that much. I am over the moon.

I finished AJ'S book last night.. what a wonderful read.

I am still working on changing one negative from my list into a positive..... is not as easy as it looks and at the end of the day it is me who has to alter my way of thinking. I had a look at myself yesterday in a full length mirror and yes I can see a big difference, as for worrying welllll that is another story. I am still waiting on my mammogram results, talk about taking forever to come back ( nearly 3 weeks of waiting) so am still worrying about that. I have no idea why I cant be positive about this and why I am worrying about something that hasnt happened yet, no wonder my friends shake their head at me( oh dear).

What about my TIGERSSSSSSS wooooo hooooo we are in the Grand Final. I am sooooo happyyyyyy.

Ok well I hope everyone has a great week , take care

Emixxx

Smiles,tears,determination

Hello everyone

Just had to let everyone know that I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill since last Friday, am very happy with that. I set myself a goal to complete an hr everyday on it and yep I did it so smiles all round here. I feel really good about everything again and am happy with being back to doing 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it not only burns all my fat it makes me feel so happy and positive.

I am half way through AJ's book and wow what a great book it really is. For me it brought back a few memories so therefore a few tears but gees it so far has really made me sit up and take notice of a lot of things and see so many things more clearly.So I have decided to write down a few positives and negatives from the past few days on here to try and make it all sink in to my head and to be aware of the negatives but also to be aware that there are positives as well. I feel that all I do is say ok this was positive and get over it but the negatives stick around in my mind far too long.

POSITIVES
- I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill in a week
-I am back to doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday
-I am tracking and eating really well
-I am averaging 18000 steps on my pedometer everyday
-I am trying new foods instead of saying yuk I dont like that.
- I am drinking 3 litres of water everyday

NEGATIVES
- I am still worrying far too much
-I still have trouble seeing my weight loss( one day I do next I dont)
-I am my own worst enemy at times

Ok so now my goal for this week is to try and turn at least one of those negatives into a positive.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.... and GO TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Emixx

still a loss

Ahhh well weighed myself this morning and lost .2, still a loss hey. I feel ok about it although I dont think I will ever truly understand how it all works as last week I was so shocked at my loss and this week where I thought I should have lost more I didnt lol.

I was upset last night as I received an email and virtually it read that I have lost my weight far too quickly,am heart attack material and basically sensibility and honesty were 2 important factors with weight loss, WOW gees am so glad this person isnt a friend as who needs friends like that. I dont even know this person so how can she say stuff like that to me. I guess I wont be posting my measurements or weight loss anymore in that site. I feel at times I am surrounded by so many negative ppl, everytime my mum rings me or I ring her its "Are you still on your diet?" just feels like at times she is waiting for me to fail. Funny thing is when I sit back and have my few minutes of getting it all off my chest( anger, upset, disbelief etc) I find that these negative comments only drive me more, make me even more determined, still no need for it hey.

Well I hope everyone is having a good week and take care all
Emixx

Awsome is the word for the days just gone

What a awsome last few days I have had, firstly I am back on track 100% as far as my exercising goes. I am changing my program again lol, going to do 60 mins everyday on the treadmill, 45 mins on my bike, 30 mins on chuck/weights and instead of doing my floor exercises I am going to do"8 minutes in the morning"program. I got the book today and have had a quick look am going to read it thoroughly tonight but it appears to be really good and incorporates a few of the exercises I am already doing plus heaps more. I also got the book"Confessions of a Reformed Dieter" as I have heard so much about this book so am going to become a bookworm lol.

Miss 11 was in her school musical last Thursday and it was awsome, gees its so wonderful to see so many talented kids give such a great performance, was a wonderful night.

Ok last but not least what a AWSOME, AWSOME win for my tigers !!!!! We are into the final now wooooooo hooooooo so watch out Dragons here come the tigersssssssssss. I had a fabulous time watching the game, the atmosphere was awsome one couldnt help but get caught up in the emotion of it all, was totally awsome. Sorry sly lol.

Weigh in for me tomorrow....... lets hope its awsome too lol
Take care
Emixxxx

Time for a change

Hi everyone

Well I have had a very different day today. I decided I wanted a change of hairstyle and some diff colours. I made the appt yesterday and off I went today. I sat down and Sally says to me How much do you want off today? I replied I want something different but just not sure what different is....welll guess what I do now. It looks good, just still coming to terms with its me underneath this new hairstyle and colours, and I do mean colours lol. I really really love the new style and I guess the copper foils are going to grow on me probably when they have grown out lol no seriously its really nice just so different. I kept the blonde on the top and had a brown put on the bottom, now you are confused arent you ? lol.So I guess im somewhere in between a licorice allsort perhaps ( oh dear).

I got some good news yesterday as well two tests have come back with the all clear so just one more to go now which is such a relief.


Miss 11 is performing at the Town Hall tonight, her school is putting on a production called" 100 year rock" so am really looking forward to seeing this and especially seeing my daughter up on stage, I will be soo proud as we all are of our kids (well those who have kids are).

I am really enjoying reading all the different blogs and I want to thank everyone who reads and comments on mine is much appreciated :-)

Hope everyone is doing well

Take care
Emixxxxxxxx

Absolutely Amazed

hi everyone

Just a quick one today as I am off to see my g/f.
Weighed in this morning and lost 1.7 kg, how the hell did I loose that much this past week? Was an awful week, only managed 30 mins of exercise everyday and the weekend was major blowout material. My head is still shaking in disbelief here.

It was so nice to see such warm beautiful weather towards the end of last week but was too good to last for the time being here as yesterday here was so bitterly cold, today is sunny and not as cold. I guess the weather is hard to predict just like what you will weigh in at is hey lol.

Hope everyone is doing well and staying focussed.

Take care

Emixxx

trying hard

Hi everyone

Back on track today, really got stuck into the exercising, did 60 mins on my bike, 30 mins on the treadmill, went for a wee walk and did 15 mins of floor exercises so I am feeling pretty good. I should get some results back tomorrow , then more early next week and about 2 /3 weeks for the mammogram one, just hate the waiting but I am trying really hard to stay positive.

I bought a pedometer on Sat , have been really curious about them since hearing about Lynne's and today was day 1 of using it, so far I have done 21049 so amazing.

What about my tigers woooo hoo we flogged the cowboys and are up against the broncos this Sunday, sorry sly but we are going to kick butt again lol. Well I sincerely hope so anyway haha. Exciting news is I am off to Sydney to see them play, cant wait am so excited about that. Hurry up and come weekend lol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day, not expecting a loss here as I hardly exercised this past week and the weekend well lets just forget about that hey.

Hope everyone is good and until tomorrow take care
Emixxx

wanting my life back

Hello everyone

Firstly I want to thank everyone who has been worried about me and thanks for caring.
This past week has been awful, sitting back and watching a close friend loose her breast to breast cancer is an awful thing. It just happened so damn quickly , but she is very strong and quite positive which is good. I went and had my mammogram done today and they are no where near as bad as I have heard so go have one done if you havent already is my advice.

Ok now I caught up with slys' blog especially and the way in which she was so positive and I thought hey I want my life back. I want to be that girl again that exercises for 2 hrs min everyday, who is tired but ever so happy by night time. I want to be the girl who is so positive and determined to shed this weight once and for all. I am the only one who can get my life back and stop worrying so much and I am determined to do this as of today. So I guess Emi is back again lol. I havent gone off the rails eating wise this past week , just havent been motivated to get in and exercise, just been so down in the dumps which isnt good.

I hope my tigers can win tonight, I so much wanted to go see them play but just ran out of time so hopefully they will make it to the next round so I can be there with bells on hey lol.

Hope everyone is doing well, staying positive

Have a great weekend

Emixx

.8 loss

Hi everyone
Weighed in today and had a loss of.8 so am a double digit 99 .4.

I am surprised I even had a loss this week as these past few days have been awful, found it really hard to stay focussed . I have been thinking and isnt it amazing at just how powerful the mind can be so great when you are positive and your worst enemy when your down.
Anyway hope everyone has had a good week.
Take care
Emixxx

Scared and borderline

What a day today has been.......... my g/f was diagnosed with breast cancer and I spent the morning today with her to try and cheer her up and I guess take her mind off things for a bit before she goes into hospital tomorrow. She did thank me before I left for being there and cheering her up as best as one can do which was good as she did laugh and I so admire her strength and courage.

So anyway I got home and just fell apart, I have cried and cried virtually for the past 2 hours, scared for her and scared for me too. Instead of exercising like I normally would I just seem to want to sit and cry. I feel a tad selfish as this isnt about me its about my g/f but its just when someone close to you is diagnosed with that dreaded C word , you begin to think what if I have it as well, well I think it and im sure others do too. I have even gone and made an appointment for me to have a mammogram as I am so scared. I am thinking the worst before I even know anything and its eating me, tearing me up inside and all I can think of is what if I am loosing all this weight for nothing, what if I have C too , then it wont matter about loosing weight will it? . I just wish I could switch my mind off, I know I am being silly but am really really scared.
Why am I writing this in here anyway........ gees I guess this is my diary where I air my feelings well I have done before with other stuff so guess wont matter.

soooooo close

Hello

Well today was weigh in day...... lost 1 kg this week so am .2 short of reaching the 100 kg mark and.3 of being a double digit. So next week that will come, I am so excited 19.8 kgs gone for good and I soon will be under the 100kgs.
It is such a good feeling, knowing you are doing something so positive for yourself.
K well I am off to so some shopping, take care all and smile.
Emixxx

my hips are going

Hello
Hope everyone had a great weekend:-)
I had a good one even though my tigers lost but oh well we will be back on track this weekend I am sure .
I had my measurements taken on Saturday and was very pleased with the results here. I lost 27.5 cms this month taking my total now in 15 weeks of measuring myself(didnt do it for the first 3 weeks)to a total loss of 91 cms . I also lost this month 7 cms off my hips , I am absolutely over the moon with that loss as they seemed to be so slow compared to the rest of me.

I am also happy to say that I am up to 45 mins on my treadmill now and in a week of doing it I have walked 11 ks so not too bad . I am looking at trying to increase it every week atm and see how I go with that.

Well tomorrow is weigh in day for me so until then take care all
Emixx

Getting there

Hello Everyone

I am very happy I managed to do 30 mins on the treadmill this morning and then another 15 mins a while ago...... it is getting easier Alleluia lol.

I want to thank everyone who is stopping by and having a read of my blog and thanx for leaving comments...... so nice to hear from you all :-)

I have a question if anyone can help...... Can you do too much exercise??
A couple of my friends believe I am doing too much, its not like I push myself to near exhaustion or anything like that , i really do enjoy it and feel on top of the world afterwards , am a bit stuffed at times and by 9 ish am tired but I feel good so I dont know.All help with this is greatly appreciated..thank you.

Take care all
Emixx

Emi VS Treadmill

Omg... give me walking outdoors anytime.... this machine is out to kill me I am sure of it . I got up at 6 this morning as usual did my 45 mins on my bike then attacked the treadmill and although I did manage to do 15 mins it is so hard. I cant recall walking ever so damn exhausting in my whole entire life lol.
I am staring at it now and theres no way its gonna win lol.

I cant wait until Saturday when I measure myself again as I know this time there is going to be a substantial loss in my hips wooo hooo ( about time lol). I have pants now that were big cause of the weight loss on my legs and waist but my hips were the only thing in the way of them falling to the ground, well now they just fall to the ground woo hooooo. I have been doing a set of 10 exercises daily for about 2 weeks now from the hip n thigh diet ( ewwwww that D word ) but really do feel that they have made a big difference so when on a good thing stick to it hey.

K well miss 7 is off to a disco for book week as a "BRAT DOLL " so got to go do her hair

Take care and smile

Emixx

Week 17

Wow I sometimes cant believe that I have been doing this for 17 weeks now.... truly amazing for me to have stuck at it this time but I am more determined then ever that this will be the time for me:-).

Well its Tuesday and weigh in day for me and this week I lost 1.8 kg so my total now is 18.8 kgs gone for gooooooooood . I am very excited ..... Can you tell ??? lol.

I bought myself a treadmill yesterday and omg it nearly killed me.. no seriously I was absolutely buggered, I can do my bike for 60 mins straight but could only manage 15 mins on the treadmill...but am determined its not gonna beat me lol. I really do enjoy my exercise and while its much more enjoyable to be out walking in the sun and fresh air its a time factor thing for me and I can get up at 6 every morning and do my bike and treadmill while girls are still in bed where I couldnt leave them alone to do it. I personally cant wait until its warmer and daylight savings then we can all go for an afternoon walk.

My girls have been sick with the flu and bronchitis but went back to school today which is great.. only thing was miss 11 missed out on competing at the carnival on Friday which was so disappointing for her; she was so upset but was something that couldnt be helped so she needed lots of extra cuddles.

What about my tigers too .. what a win on Friday night!!!!!!!!!

I am changing my exercise program as of today again ( I know again) lol but same thing does become boring too lol.. well thats my excuse and sounds good lol.

Take care and stay positive
Emixxxxxxxxx

Another kg gone

Woooo hoooooooooo 17 kgs now, feeling really good and it wont be too long until I am a double digit girl......gees how long has it been since I was one of them ...too long.
Well the week has been pretty good, had a bit of a hard day Sunday could have eaten the house out but fortunately didnt. I guess that it is good to know that I can now take my mind and body elsewhere instead of the fridge or cupboards.

Girls are doing really well........Miss 11 is in the zone carnival this Friday which is great ..........she has really put a lot of training into her running and is reaping the rewards atm.
Miss 7 is planning to do a dance with a few friends in front of the whole class tomorrow .... so all in all a good positive household, we seem to bounce off each other and I am well aware of just how my girls support me in their own way :-).
My tigers are playing so well toooo..... beat the cowboys on Sunday wow what a game....I am definately off to Sydney for one finals game that I am positive of.

OK just decided my goal is to get to double digits by the finals so 4 weeks to loose 3 kgs........... Emicandoit .....well shes going to give it her best shot anyway.

Take care and believe in yoursef

Emixxxxx



Am

16 kgs gone for good

I am so excited ... 16 kgs gone now and like my buddy Tash says gone for good wooooo hoooooooo.
I feel really great and I can see a big difference in me now, so many clothes that are just too big to wear anymore.
I am doing weights now every second day, plus other exercises , plus my total gym so this takes almost 60 mins to get through so on this day I only do my bike of a morning for 30 mins.I am really enjoying my exercising and find myself looking forward to it which is good.
I ve been so busy these past 2 weeks and am really enjoying doing more things with my girls , we went on a picnic last weekend and I even played footy with them. I t was such a good feeling to be able to do this and the girls were over the moon that mum could join in.
Today was miss 11's sport carnival, she won the 200 metre race and she won her age heat plus the final, came 2nd in long jump, 1st in the relay. I was so proud of her :-).
I am also over the moon about my tigers wooo hoooo we are in 4th spot on the ladder now wooooo hooooooooooo got a really tough one this week against the cowboys though so once again come this Sunday I will be cheering them on lol.

It is still so cold here but not long now and winter will be over and we can be so much more proud that we all survived a winter.
Take care all
Emixxxxxxxxxxxx

Great Day

I have had a great day :-) It was time to measure myself again .. I do this once a mth ( except for the one time I cheated lol)and I lost 20 cms this month taking my total to 63.5 cms . I was over the moon.
Then we all went shopping , got a few bargains for the girls and came home for lunch.

I t is a glorious day here today actually the days have been like this for a while , still cold of a morning and night though but anyway after lunch we went for a walk and came across a Garage Sale so went and had a sticky . I was looking at this stepper exerciser , the ones with the handles anyway I asked the lady how much and she said oh you can have it for a $1. I was amazed a dollar but I didnt have a dollar on me lol but alls good she kept it for me so we went home got the car and went and paid and picked up my stepper.
So now I have a stepper to do some different exercises on lol , just got to look up the net and see what benefits these provide but hey for a dollar you cant go wrong. Am cooking a baked dinner tonight for a change and making my own seasoning which doesnt go in the chook I prefer to cook it on a seperate tray so its all nice and crunchy and serve it on the side.
cya for now
xxxxx