Hi All
Firstly thankyou for everyone who has popped by my blog is so nice to know you gals are thinking about me.
Well I have been swamped with this Tafe course and my girls....have really struggled to make it all fall into place........have had 13 assignments to do in the first term and some have been really full on...at times I have been really stressed ..mornings of going to bed at 12 30 and then up again at 5 30 to try and get some sort of exercise in have been part of my world..also trying to be here for the girls so they dont feel left out as I have always said NO 1 I am a mum and by the end of the week I have been so tired and more stressed that at times I have asked myself IS this really worth it........Answer has been yes all the time just kept saying to myself it will get easier and trying really hard to convince myself :).
Soooooooo have no idea what my weight situation is like ..feel really fat atm and I am aware that some of my clothes are tighter so gosh knows what damage ive done...........thing is I havent been overeating but exercise has really gone by the wayside and the food choices havent always been good either ........Conclusion ...I need a big kick up the bum........... Solution...........Ok have done myself a timetabe thurs n fri are solely for tafe assignments while girls are at school....so hopefully this will stop the late nights which means the mornings of exercise will happen which means Em will be on top of her world if she can exercise... sounds good hey?
Well seeing as tho I do have a life besides Tafe.. my eldest turned 21 on the 7th March and my 3rd turned 13 on the 11th March so we have had 2 pretty big celebrations happening :).
I will try and pop by everyones blogs really soon .............hope all is going well for everyone
Love Em xxxxxxxxxx
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Busy..busy...busy
Hello
I have been so busy getting the girls back to school ..started miss 9 in a new school one closer to where we now live ..made more sense especially with me starting Tafe and hopefully she will make friends with kids in our area.
Tafe is very heavy....wouldnt really expect welfare not to be now would we..am enjoying it though and even after only 3 days its been amazing just how much more I have learnt about ME.......am so determined to get this qualification and then get the job I want.....I truly believe I can give so much to this area.
Well as far as this journey is going hasnt been too bad at all have managed an hr each day of exercise and my eating is absolutely brilliant while at tafe......but I am struggling at home and this makes me so mad when I can go all day virtually and not worry yet once at home have this struggle.grrrrrrrrr.....but as each struggle appears I just kindly remind myself I can do this..I dont need this nor do I want this and basically this has had a 98% success. I am not finding it as easy.... not that the last time was easy but its harder for me this time..is all in my head and I really feel that I need to find that inner peace again ..once I find that it may then become easier. I havent been near the scales......... I figure that time will come eventually...just dont want to rock the boat so to speak ............
I t is so hot and dry here .....our water levels are slowly twindling.....we cant use hoses only buckets and is very hard to try and maintain our gardens and yards.....they estimate only enough water for 12 mths if no real rainfall.....isnt good ......
Ok well I am out of here ..have been by some of you ones I havent expect a visit soon .....just I have been so busy with Tafe and then the girls once home and exercise and home duties ....trying to fit it all into place will take time but we will get there just like our weight loss journey hey:)
Take care all
Em xxxx
I have been so busy getting the girls back to school ..started miss 9 in a new school one closer to where we now live ..made more sense especially with me starting Tafe and hopefully she will make friends with kids in our area.
Tafe is very heavy....wouldnt really expect welfare not to be now would we..am enjoying it though and even after only 3 days its been amazing just how much more I have learnt about ME.......am so determined to get this qualification and then get the job I want.....I truly believe I can give so much to this area.
Well as far as this journey is going hasnt been too bad at all have managed an hr each day of exercise and my eating is absolutely brilliant while at tafe......but I am struggling at home and this makes me so mad when I can go all day virtually and not worry yet once at home have this struggle.grrrrrrrrr.....but as each struggle appears I just kindly remind myself I can do this..I dont need this nor do I want this and basically this has had a 98% success. I am not finding it as easy.... not that the last time was easy but its harder for me this time..is all in my head and I really feel that I need to find that inner peace again ..once I find that it may then become easier. I havent been near the scales......... I figure that time will come eventually...just dont want to rock the boat so to speak ............
I t is so hot and dry here .....our water levels are slowly twindling.....we cant use hoses only buckets and is very hard to try and maintain our gardens and yards.....they estimate only enough water for 12 mths if no real rainfall.....isnt good ......
Ok well I am out of here ..have been by some of you ones I havent expect a visit soon .....just I have been so busy with Tafe and then the girls once home and exercise and home duties ....trying to fit it all into place will take time but we will get there just like our weight loss journey hey:)
Take care all
Em xxxx
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Winners never Quit...Quitters never Win
Hi Again
Today has been a very eventful day.........firstly I woke up with so many mixed emotions..I felt really down n out and as I lied in bed all I could do was think about the kgs I have gained and how I felt I had lost so much of me....so much of my newly found confidence..so much of my energy ..... and the fear of how am I really going to do this again and then the tears came tumbling down.....it was almost uncontrollable crying..cetainly it was a cry that I hadnt had in a very long time ...tears became sobs and when I finally stopped I felt like a load had been lifted..maybe it was long overdue???.
After breakfast the four of us went to the movies to see Flicka........what a beautiful movie even miss 19 enjoyed it.We then went for a walk down town..last day of the festival thank god lol....Ah its not that bad but this yr there were soo many more ppl here then previous years and it was a rat race.....we didnt get to do too much as we only got back from Newcastle on the Wednesday but we did get to see Lee Kernighan in the park on Thursday night which was good anyways after that it was shopping for some fresh fruit and vegies so now my fridge is chockers with the right kind of food and my cupboards are friendly too so this is a definate step in the right direction hey:).
This afternoon I have read so many blogs....found some new inspirational quotes.......made some new friends found some old ones :) and am feeling really good.
Emotionally I am unstable atm ..might have something to do with not having much ME time for the past 6 weeks...my friends tell me things will settle down when school goes back which is probably true:).........I have enrolled in tafe to do welfare...this has been my passion for so long ...for so long I have avoided it but last yr applied and got accepted.....my course starts on the5th Feb...got to be honest there has been times in the past week that I have thought no I cant do this.....how many times have I lost faith in myself recently??? ANSWER far too many times and I think its about time I stopped this.......found this gr8 inspiration "Winners never Quit and Quitters never Win" how true is this........Em take note of this let this sink in girl !!!!!!!!!!!.
Anyways I am out of here for now.......hope you all had a lovely weekend
Em xx
Today has been a very eventful day.........firstly I woke up with so many mixed emotions..I felt really down n out and as I lied in bed all I could do was think about the kgs I have gained and how I felt I had lost so much of me....so much of my newly found confidence..so much of my energy ..... and the fear of how am I really going to do this again and then the tears came tumbling down.....it was almost uncontrollable crying..cetainly it was a cry that I hadnt had in a very long time ...tears became sobs and when I finally stopped I felt like a load had been lifted..maybe it was long overdue???.
After breakfast the four of us went to the movies to see Flicka........what a beautiful movie even miss 19 enjoyed it.We then went for a walk down town..last day of the festival thank god lol....Ah its not that bad but this yr there were soo many more ppl here then previous years and it was a rat race.....we didnt get to do too much as we only got back from Newcastle on the Wednesday but we did get to see Lee Kernighan in the park on Thursday night which was good anyways after that it was shopping for some fresh fruit and vegies so now my fridge is chockers with the right kind of food and my cupboards are friendly too so this is a definate step in the right direction hey:).
This afternoon I have read so many blogs....found some new inspirational quotes.......made some new friends found some old ones :) and am feeling really good.
Emotionally I am unstable atm ..might have something to do with not having much ME time for the past 6 weeks...my friends tell me things will settle down when school goes back which is probably true:).........I have enrolled in tafe to do welfare...this has been my passion for so long ...for so long I have avoided it but last yr applied and got accepted.....my course starts on the5th Feb...got to be honest there has been times in the past week that I have thought no I cant do this.....how many times have I lost faith in myself recently??? ANSWER far too many times and I think its about time I stopped this.......found this gr8 inspiration "Winners never Quit and Quitters never Win" how true is this........Em take note of this let this sink in girl !!!!!!!!!!!.
Anyways I am out of here for now.......hope you all had a lovely weekend
Em xx
Friday, January 26, 2007
What the hell am I doing here
Hello
I have no idea if anyone is still around to read this........what I do know is I need this to keep me honest and to help me get rid of these kgs.......
Yes you heard right unwanted kgs that I now have to get rid of again...dont worry I have asked myself a hundred times or more over these past 8 months....What the hell am I doing here...Why am I doing this to me after I worked so damn hard to get to goal in the first place.......no answer really.....could be stoopidiness.......carelessness..........whatever it was it cant be anymore...I dont want to get back to where I was...I cant go back to being that person who lives in self denial ....so no more excuses........get your act together and back on track.............
The damage done over the past 8 mths is 19 kgs..I know that is soo bad and yes also so hard to have to sit here and write this but I have to face up to this ..it may be the only way to kickstart my journey again.
I know I have to blog regularly..........hope I can gain some support on the way as that is something that is priceless
I am 42 yr old now............and its about time I realised that this time its for keeps...no more being overweight and unhealthy..I know I can do this........I will tell myself this everyday until I reach my goal then every day after that..atm that is the only goal I am setting myself..I know the road to goal....its one of ups and downs..commitment..attitude..determination....healthier eating and exercise...... its one that never ends unless you give up and throw the towel in and boy this gal aint gonna do that..
I will pop by my old buddies soon..............I hope some of you join me yet again for the journey
Em xxx
I have no idea if anyone is still around to read this........what I do know is I need this to keep me honest and to help me get rid of these kgs.......
Yes you heard right unwanted kgs that I now have to get rid of again...dont worry I have asked myself a hundred times or more over these past 8 months....What the hell am I doing here...Why am I doing this to me after I worked so damn hard to get to goal in the first place.......no answer really.....could be stoopidiness.......carelessness..........whatever it was it cant be anymore...I dont want to get back to where I was...I cant go back to being that person who lives in self denial ....so no more excuses........get your act together and back on track.............
The damage done over the past 8 mths is 19 kgs..I know that is soo bad and yes also so hard to have to sit here and write this but I have to face up to this ..it may be the only way to kickstart my journey again.
I know I have to blog regularly..........hope I can gain some support on the way as that is something that is priceless
I am 42 yr old now............and its about time I realised that this time its for keeps...no more being overweight and unhealthy..I know I can do this........I will tell myself this everyday until I reach my goal then every day after that..atm that is the only goal I am setting myself..I know the road to goal....its one of ups and downs..commitment..attitude..determination....healthier eating and exercise...... its one that never ends unless you give up and throw the towel in and boy this gal aint gonna do that..
I will pop by my old buddies soon..............I hope some of you join me yet again for the journey
Em xxx
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Holidays
Hello
Here we are into the second week of the school holidays....been to the movies a couple of times, ten pin, the park, a fete and the markets last Sunday.....so we have been busy.....tomorrow my 8 yr old is going on her first sleepover at a friends house she is so excited :).
I have been really motivated even though it is school holidays and before this has been a time when I have struggled am not good when my routine is interupted normally but this time all seems to be going smoothly.....so am really proud of this achievement....even got back into my weights and am doing 12 different upper body exercises 3 sets of 12 with 10 kg weights ..was really surprised that I could manage them seeing as though last time I picked up my weights was back in May but I did :)......Anyway am off now to do lower body...hope all is well in your world
Love Em xxxx
Here we are into the second week of the school holidays....been to the movies a couple of times, ten pin, the park, a fete and the markets last Sunday.....so we have been busy.....tomorrow my 8 yr old is going on her first sleepover at a friends house she is so excited :).
I have been really motivated even though it is school holidays and before this has been a time when I have struggled am not good when my routine is interupted normally but this time all seems to be going smoothly.....so am really proud of this achievement....even got back into my weights and am doing 12 different upper body exercises 3 sets of 12 with 10 kg weights ..was really surprised that I could manage them seeing as though last time I picked up my weights was back in May but I did :)......Anyway am off now to do lower body...hope all is well in your world
Love Em xxxx
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
So far so good
Well after doing some real soul searching this past weekend and looking at the few pics that I have of me before I started this journey seems to have lifted me. I have come a long way.......sure I went backwards there for a while but that doesnt mean I have to be so down on myself so I am really confident that the journey has begun again. I have been looking through some WW recipe books that my neighbour lent me and wow there are some really nice recipes.....this has spurred me on also ...tonight I made a chicken and vegie pie has no pastry at all but still it is called a pie lol. It was absolutely scrumptious ..........exercise is going well if I get 60 mins in most days I will be over the moon with that.....30 mins I will be happy with also so am easing the pressure of the hrs I put on myself as far as exercising goes as well....next change is that I am not going to weigh myself on a regular basis...I figure that if I am exercing and eating well then all will be good at the end of the day...........so watch out world Em is back :).
Hope all is well......
Love Em xxxx
Hope all is well......
Love Em xxxx
Friday, September 29, 2006
Remember Me
Hi Everyone
It was good to catch up on all your blogs....and hear all your news...seems like ages since I have been around, well it has been hasnt it...........want to know why ???? ok I hear you saying yes..well I have been so sick.....my sinuses really flared up I could have been a Jon English look alike 3 weeks ago plus I had a middle ear infection and was unable to walk without almost falling over for 3 days..in between I was managing a exercise/eating program seemed like I had a few good days where all was going well then I got sick.....managed to recover get back into it then sick again...trouble also with that was that I was starting to feel so damn down about it all...thoughts that I am never going to get back to where I was last April...bad habits crept in again as far as eating goes and now I am sitting here wondering if I will ever be the same girl I was 16 mths ago when I first started...she seems so long gone as far as my attitude is concerned and I want her back bigtime ( tears go away). Ahhhhh silly me so sorry for being like this atm....anyway also as you know I had computer problem a couple of months ago well I ended up having to buy a new tower so all should really be ok now.
I also lost a dear friend to cancer 2 weeks ago.............OK this isnt good am really emotional atm...if anyone has any ideas as to how I can get the old Em back please feel free to say...guess at the end of the day it has to be me that does it.
Ok hope you all have a lovely weekend.....
Take care
Love Em xxxxx
It was good to catch up on all your blogs....and hear all your news...seems like ages since I have been around, well it has been hasnt it...........want to know why ???? ok I hear you saying yes..well I have been so sick.....my sinuses really flared up I could have been a Jon English look alike 3 weeks ago plus I had a middle ear infection and was unable to walk without almost falling over for 3 days..in between I was managing a exercise/eating program seemed like I had a few good days where all was going well then I got sick.....managed to recover get back into it then sick again...trouble also with that was that I was starting to feel so damn down about it all...thoughts that I am never going to get back to where I was last April...bad habits crept in again as far as eating goes and now I am sitting here wondering if I will ever be the same girl I was 16 mths ago when I first started...she seems so long gone as far as my attitude is concerned and I want her back bigtime ( tears go away). Ahhhhh silly me so sorry for being like this atm....anyway also as you know I had computer problem a couple of months ago well I ended up having to buy a new tower so all should really be ok now.
I also lost a dear friend to cancer 2 weeks ago.............OK this isnt good am really emotional atm...if anyone has any ideas as to how I can get the old Em back please feel free to say...guess at the end of the day it has to be me that does it.
Ok hope you all have a lovely weekend.....
Take care
Love Em xxxxx
Thursday, August 24, 2006
busy bee
Hello everyone
I havent gone missing or back to my old ways just havent had a computer for a couple of weeks is all ... but am back now.
I am really happy to report that I have lost 3.5 kgs and feel like my old determined..positive self and I am also walking something that I didnt do much of before and it is absolutely great to be out there in the fresh air instead of being inside exercising all the time. I still do my bike but atm that is it besides walking ....and I have a lovely yard here at the new house and am soooo enjoying gardening too..have a friend who works at a nursery and she has given me some great deals on some plants...so am really on top of my world atm:):).
My girls are all going well..shell is picking up so much work at the nursing home ..one doesnt get to see her much but she really loves it...Al is finally getting back to her old self after the operation ..we had a bit of drama after i went missing on here ..her wound opened up and just wouldnt heal and it turned out that she was allergic to the stitiches ..then her immune system was low and she picked up every bug that was here im sure but like I said is back to her old self now....loz is a mathematic genius according to her teacher lol and today she went to school as Lilo from Lilo n stitch for the book week parade .....black wig n all lol she looked wonderful......Ash is working atm so all is well :):).
Hope everyone is doing really welll...spring isnt too far away .......Yahhhhhhhh
Catch u all soon ..take care
Love Emxxxxx
I havent gone missing or back to my old ways just havent had a computer for a couple of weeks is all ... but am back now.
I am really happy to report that I have lost 3.5 kgs and feel like my old determined..positive self and I am also walking something that I didnt do much of before and it is absolutely great to be out there in the fresh air instead of being inside exercising all the time. I still do my bike but atm that is it besides walking ....and I have a lovely yard here at the new house and am soooo enjoying gardening too..have a friend who works at a nursery and she has given me some great deals on some plants...so am really on top of my world atm:):).
My girls are all going well..shell is picking up so much work at the nursing home ..one doesnt get to see her much but she really loves it...Al is finally getting back to her old self after the operation ..we had a bit of drama after i went missing on here ..her wound opened up and just wouldnt heal and it turned out that she was allergic to the stitiches ..then her immune system was low and she picked up every bug that was here im sure but like I said is back to her old self now....loz is a mathematic genius according to her teacher lol and today she went to school as Lilo from Lilo n stitch for the book week parade .....black wig n all lol she looked wonderful......Ash is working atm so all is well :):).
Hope everyone is doing really welll...spring isnt too far away .......Yahhhhhhhh
Catch u all soon ..take care
Love Emxxxxx
Friday, August 04, 2006
Return
Hi all
Well I am back ...10 kgs heavier which isnt good hey .......no excuses just an overactive mouth and a lazy attitude.
So its back to loosing weight again.........been trying the past two weeks or so ...with a couple of good days and then the rest shocking but it definately has to be wake up time for me or else i will be back to where I was very very soon and I dont want that...so back to blogland.
I have been reading all your blogs.....not leaving comments though which isnt nice but am excited that you are all doing so well and I see there are a couple of bubs on the way too which is wonderful news.
I hope you will all pop in from time to time....as I really need some support....anyway will be around to comment as of Monday....have a great weekend
Love Em xxxxx
Well I am back ...10 kgs heavier which isnt good hey .......no excuses just an overactive mouth and a lazy attitude.
So its back to loosing weight again.........been trying the past two weeks or so ...with a couple of good days and then the rest shocking but it definately has to be wake up time for me or else i will be back to where I was very very soon and I dont want that...so back to blogland.
I have been reading all your blogs.....not leaving comments though which isnt nice but am excited that you are all doing so well and I see there are a couple of bubs on the way too which is wonderful news.
I hope you will all pop in from time to time....as I really need some support....anyway will be around to comment as of Monday....have a great weekend
Love Em xxxxx
Thursday, June 01, 2006
What a Week
Hi Everyone
I have had an awful week..come to think about it the last two and a half weeks have been ones I just want to forget. I know life dishes out some hurdles to all of us at times and I do believe what doesnt break us only makes us stronger but I dont want to have to be strong all the time...can anyone relate to this or is it just me feeling sorry for myself?.
Ok well tune out now if you like as the next few lines are going to be about the past week........
Last Wednesday my car decided to play up and ended up costing me $470 , then on Friday after I took Alea to the drs my daughter rings me on my mobile crying saying that our little dog was caught under the fence and was being attacked by other dogs....omg I didnt know what to expect but hurried home praying that it wouldnt be as bad as it sounded....thankfully my prayers were answered and poor tiger is a bit worse for wear to look at and is on antibiotics but Shell was able to free him before it was much worse.
Alea got a good report from the dr which was great and went back to school on Monday only to come home and burst into tears........... she didnt have a good day at school , firstly her Science teacher told her that she had that night to catch up on all the work she had missed as she was sick of kids having time off school, when Alea tried to explain to her why she was off she told her that was no excuse...next drama while she was away her timetable was changed and PE prac was on this day, now Al cant do PE, Sport, Dance or much at all until she sees her specialist on the 14th June so the PE teacher gives her a green card and tells her to go pick up rubbish in the playground..once again Al explains to a teacher who this time is prepared to listen but still insists she pick up rubbish which Al said no too(good for her). Next its her Dance teacher who at this stage isnt aware that Al cant participate in the festival which is in 2 weeks time anyway but who says to her that since she has been away the original dance has been changed and it would be best for her to quit as she doesnt feel she could learn it in time.............hows that for shattering ones self esteem!!!!!!!. Then when Al went to pick up her school photos she was told they didnt have them and to check that mum had paid for them...of course I paid for them , I then had to ring the company in Sydney and here it is Thursday and I am still waiting on a return call.
Tuesday I went to the school as you can imagine...I was just so mad.
Monday I found out I have to move , owner wants to renovate the house without us in it....just so wonderful to hear after being here for nearly 4 years.. I hate moving but has to be done so have been house hunting Tuesday and Wednesday and today got a call that I got the one we all wanted which is great but I still hate moving.Dear Mum reminded me this afternoon that if I had done things right a few years back I wouldnt have to worry about renting..thanx mum can always count on you NOT.....will not go into that with you as that is a SAGA in itself.
Anyway no exercise for the past 7 days no excuse.....eating hasnt been the best either.....water not good...fluid retention shocking and the scales saying now a 3 kg gain... I am feeling emotionally drained, cant really deal with this I dont feel until I now move and get settled.....is this sounding like a copout??
Anyway best go get some dinner happening..hope you are all well
Catch you all soon
Love Em xxxxx
I have had an awful week..come to think about it the last two and a half weeks have been ones I just want to forget. I know life dishes out some hurdles to all of us at times and I do believe what doesnt break us only makes us stronger but I dont want to have to be strong all the time...can anyone relate to this or is it just me feeling sorry for myself?.
Ok well tune out now if you like as the next few lines are going to be about the past week........
Last Wednesday my car decided to play up and ended up costing me $470 , then on Friday after I took Alea to the drs my daughter rings me on my mobile crying saying that our little dog was caught under the fence and was being attacked by other dogs....omg I didnt know what to expect but hurried home praying that it wouldnt be as bad as it sounded....thankfully my prayers were answered and poor tiger is a bit worse for wear to look at and is on antibiotics but Shell was able to free him before it was much worse.
Alea got a good report from the dr which was great and went back to school on Monday only to come home and burst into tears........... she didnt have a good day at school , firstly her Science teacher told her that she had that night to catch up on all the work she had missed as she was sick of kids having time off school, when Alea tried to explain to her why she was off she told her that was no excuse...next drama while she was away her timetable was changed and PE prac was on this day, now Al cant do PE, Sport, Dance or much at all until she sees her specialist on the 14th June so the PE teacher gives her a green card and tells her to go pick up rubbish in the playground..once again Al explains to a teacher who this time is prepared to listen but still insists she pick up rubbish which Al said no too(good for her). Next its her Dance teacher who at this stage isnt aware that Al cant participate in the festival which is in 2 weeks time anyway but who says to her that since she has been away the original dance has been changed and it would be best for her to quit as she doesnt feel she could learn it in time.............hows that for shattering ones self esteem!!!!!!!. Then when Al went to pick up her school photos she was told they didnt have them and to check that mum had paid for them...of course I paid for them , I then had to ring the company in Sydney and here it is Thursday and I am still waiting on a return call.
Tuesday I went to the school as you can imagine...I was just so mad.
Monday I found out I have to move , owner wants to renovate the house without us in it....just so wonderful to hear after being here for nearly 4 years.. I hate moving but has to be done so have been house hunting Tuesday and Wednesday and today got a call that I got the one we all wanted which is great but I still hate moving.Dear Mum reminded me this afternoon that if I had done things right a few years back I wouldnt have to worry about renting..thanx mum can always count on you NOT.....will not go into that with you as that is a SAGA in itself.
Anyway no exercise for the past 7 days no excuse.....eating hasnt been the best either.....water not good...fluid retention shocking and the scales saying now a 3 kg gain... I am feeling emotionally drained, cant really deal with this I dont feel until I now move and get settled.....is this sounding like a copout??
Anyway best go get some dinner happening..hope you are all well
Catch you all soon
Love Em xxxxx
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
So disgusted
Hi Everyone
Firstly I want to say a really big thankyou to everyone who sent well wishes to Alea..am happy to say that yesterday she was pretty well back to the old Alea we all know and love....appetite was back and today she is much better again so back to our dr on Friday to get the all clear and hopefully back to school on Monday .We have to go back and see the specialist in 3 weeks time but it all looks really good.
On the scales front.....I would rather just forget to post this but need to be accountable so here goes...I had a gain of 2kgs.I havent exercised for a week, made bad choices when it came to meals and my water intake was way down which isnt good for me especially as I retain fluid all too easily so some of this gain is fluid retention but I am not going to say the whole 2 kgs. Yesterday I managed to do 90 mins of exercise and my eating and water spot on, today eating n water is good exercise well 15 mins so far but will do more later this arvo...... I just seem to fall apart when my rountine is broken..anyway bottom line is I am really disgusted in myself but I am not going to dwell on this as I know what to do to turn it around.
It is getting soooooo cold here now and tonight I have to go pick shell up from work at 1 am .......oh I am not looking forward to this....just glad Ash is here to watch the littlies.
Hope everyone is well
Take care
Love Em xxxxx
Firstly I want to say a really big thankyou to everyone who sent well wishes to Alea..am happy to say that yesterday she was pretty well back to the old Alea we all know and love....appetite was back and today she is much better again so back to our dr on Friday to get the all clear and hopefully back to school on Monday .We have to go back and see the specialist in 3 weeks time but it all looks really good.
On the scales front.....I would rather just forget to post this but need to be accountable so here goes...I had a gain of 2kgs.I havent exercised for a week, made bad choices when it came to meals and my water intake was way down which isnt good for me especially as I retain fluid all too easily so some of this gain is fluid retention but I am not going to say the whole 2 kgs. Yesterday I managed to do 90 mins of exercise and my eating and water spot on, today eating n water is good exercise well 15 mins so far but will do more later this arvo...... I just seem to fall apart when my rountine is broken..anyway bottom line is I am really disgusted in myself but I am not going to dwell on this as I know what to do to turn it around.
It is getting soooooo cold here now and tonight I have to go pick shell up from work at 1 am .......oh I am not looking forward to this....just glad Ash is here to watch the littlies.
Hope everyone is well
Take care
Love Em xxxxx
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Last few days
Hi Everyone
What a time we have all had especially Al.........this started on friday night when she complained of having a sore stomach which got worse so by the early hours of Saturday morning we were at emergency at the local hospital.Finally after about 5 hours we were seen and then after a couple more we were told she had a UTI and sent home with some antibiotics.Ok well Saturday afternoon she got worse, high temp, feverish, vomiting poor baby so back we went only to come home again.Saturday night she was restless and Sunday morning she was a little brighter with the pain being spasmatic now not continuous but much worse when it occured. We went back to the hospital about 12 because she had become much worse by this time and her temp was 40.5.They seen to her immediately which was great..no waiting and by this time her pathology report was back from Saturday and this showed no UTI at all so specialists were called and Appendicitis was what they all suspected. So to be absolutely sure the only option was an operation which was done at 4 pm, by this time though her appendix had burst.Soooo we have been in hospital since Sunday, Al was allowed to come home today as she has recovered really well, of course she is still very sore and has to have 2 weeks off school and cant do anything strenuous for at least 4 weeks but I am just so releived that she is fine and they operated in time...cant imagine what she would be like if they had waited until Sunday night or Monday morning especially seeing as though they had already burst.
I will try and catch up on everyone,s blogs over the next couple of days..hope you are all doing great guns.
Love Em
What a time we have all had especially Al.........this started on friday night when she complained of having a sore stomach which got worse so by the early hours of Saturday morning we were at emergency at the local hospital.Finally after about 5 hours we were seen and then after a couple more we were told she had a UTI and sent home with some antibiotics.Ok well Saturday afternoon she got worse, high temp, feverish, vomiting poor baby so back we went only to come home again.Saturday night she was restless and Sunday morning she was a little brighter with the pain being spasmatic now not continuous but much worse when it occured. We went back to the hospital about 12 because she had become much worse by this time and her temp was 40.5.They seen to her immediately which was great..no waiting and by this time her pathology report was back from Saturday and this showed no UTI at all so specialists were called and Appendicitis was what they all suspected. So to be absolutely sure the only option was an operation which was done at 4 pm, by this time though her appendix had burst.Soooo we have been in hospital since Sunday, Al was allowed to come home today as she has recovered really well, of course she is still very sore and has to have 2 weeks off school and cant do anything strenuous for at least 4 weeks but I am just so releived that she is fine and they operated in time...cant imagine what she would be like if they had waited until Sunday night or Monday morning especially seeing as though they had already burst.
I will try and catch up on everyone,s blogs over the next couple of days..hope you are all doing great guns.
Love Em
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Turning it all around to GOAL
Hello Everyone
Tuesday's weigh in revealed a loss of 1.3 kg...so my determination and I guess above all my attitude paid off for the past week but I was still having serious doubts about the week ahead until this happened below.........
I want to thank Lee-Anne for her comments on my last post......you have really helped me so much since reading them and made me sit back and put this all into perspective again :) A big hug Lee-Anne. Thanx also to Suzie your continued support is wonderful :).
So after reading... and talking to my D/B who will always tell me what he thinks and not what I want to hear which is so great I have come to see hey I have lost over 53.8 kgs and to be happy with that ..sure I was happy but I mean HAPPY, PROUD, and I also have decided to declare GOAL. Now I know that by my drs scales I am still 1.2 kgs out but hey as my D/B pointed out to me that I dont weigh myself on my drs scales every week which is true so this is what has lead me to declare GOAL!!!!!!!!!.
I DIT IT .... The journey has taken a bit over 12 months, the road has been rocky, my girls , my D/B , my friends(in their own way lol) and you wonderful ladies have supported me....... which is something that I truly will always remember:):).
Dr Phil ..... you said something like this in 12 months time you will be heavier or lighter but you wont be the same..what do you choose to do....Guess I chose to be lighter :). ( definately note quoting Dr Phil here ). I did it excuse me am kinda excited here lol.
Anyway thanx once again :)... Ill definately be around as I will still need your support and friendship :). I hope every one has a wonderful mother's day on Sunday ( mums that is ) and take care
Love Em xxxxxxxxx
Tuesday's weigh in revealed a loss of 1.3 kg...so my determination and I guess above all my attitude paid off for the past week but I was still having serious doubts about the week ahead until this happened below.........
I want to thank Lee-Anne for her comments on my last post......you have really helped me so much since reading them and made me sit back and put this all into perspective again :) A big hug Lee-Anne. Thanx also to Suzie your continued support is wonderful :).
So after reading... and talking to my D/B who will always tell me what he thinks and not what I want to hear which is so great I have come to see hey I have lost over 53.8 kgs and to be happy with that ..sure I was happy but I mean HAPPY, PROUD, and I also have decided to declare GOAL. Now I know that by my drs scales I am still 1.2 kgs out but hey as my D/B pointed out to me that I dont weigh myself on my drs scales every week which is true so this is what has lead me to declare GOAL!!!!!!!!!.
I DIT IT .... The journey has taken a bit over 12 months, the road has been rocky, my girls , my D/B , my friends(in their own way lol) and you wonderful ladies have supported me....... which is something that I truly will always remember:):).
Dr Phil ..... you said something like this in 12 months time you will be heavier or lighter but you wont be the same..what do you choose to do....Guess I chose to be lighter :). ( definately note quoting Dr Phil here ). I did it excuse me am kinda excited here lol.
Anyway thanx once again :)... Ill definately be around as I will still need your support and friendship :). I hope every one has a wonderful mother's day on Sunday ( mums that is ) and take care
Love Em xxxxxxxxx
Friday, May 05, 2006
SOS
Hi All
I havent been around as my puter decided to die ..fan went in it but alls good now.
I weighed myself last Tuesday as promised and I had gained 1kg.... all I can say is that thursday, friday saturday and sunday were awful days...I ate until I made myself sick on Sunday..how damn stupid is that!!!. I have no idea why I did it, and on sunday night I was so scared of failure, had thoughts of what if I gain all this weight back..guess I lost all faith in myself.
Monday was day of reckoning for me........ I exercised and ate well as I have done now all week and I swear if I go off the rails this weekend I am going to write Emi is a fat pig everywhere...how awful is that. I know I will get to goal but am scared.. I find myself worrying about it all again..worrying about how I am going to survive winter.. I tell myself you started this journey this time last year, you have lost over 50 kgs, you surived winter so you can do it again........I just need to find that inner peace again where I dont think about this... ah I am probable making no sense here.
Hope you all have a great weekend
Love Em xx
SUNDAY UPDATE
I am feeling really good.......I survived a few temptations yesterday and stuck to my points and exercise as planned. Today has been reasonably good also no exercise as it is Sunday which is day off and all Ive had to eat from the norty bin is a few potato chips. I still have tonight to go but my daughter has made a low fat lasagne for dinner and really I am quite confident that I will survive and wont have to see that awful statement.
My heart goes out to Sophie Delezio and her family...this little girl has suffered so much already and to try and understand how this could happen to her is just too hard. My prayers are with this little girl and I am very thankful that my girls are healthy and outside playing at the moment. I remember my Grandad saying to my sister-in-law once when she was complaining about her son making a mess and being noisy..he said" its better to see him like this then between clean sheets" How true is that!!!!.
I also pray that they rescue the two miners very soon and thank God that they were both alive.
I hope everyone is having a good weekend
Em
I havent been around as my puter decided to die ..fan went in it but alls good now.
I weighed myself last Tuesday as promised and I had gained 1kg.... all I can say is that thursday, friday saturday and sunday were awful days...I ate until I made myself sick on Sunday..how damn stupid is that!!!. I have no idea why I did it, and on sunday night I was so scared of failure, had thoughts of what if I gain all this weight back..guess I lost all faith in myself.
Monday was day of reckoning for me........ I exercised and ate well as I have done now all week and I swear if I go off the rails this weekend I am going to write Emi is a fat pig everywhere...how awful is that. I know I will get to goal but am scared.. I find myself worrying about it all again..worrying about how I am going to survive winter.. I tell myself you started this journey this time last year, you have lost over 50 kgs, you surived winter so you can do it again........I just need to find that inner peace again where I dont think about this... ah I am probable making no sense here.
Hope you all have a great weekend
Love Em xx
SUNDAY UPDATE
I am feeling really good.......I survived a few temptations yesterday and stuck to my points and exercise as planned. Today has been reasonably good also no exercise as it is Sunday which is day off and all Ive had to eat from the norty bin is a few potato chips. I still have tonight to go but my daughter has made a low fat lasagne for dinner and really I am quite confident that I will survive and wont have to see that awful statement.
My heart goes out to Sophie Delezio and her family...this little girl has suffered so much already and to try and understand how this could happen to her is just too hard. My prayers are with this little girl and I am very thankful that my girls are healthy and outside playing at the moment. I remember my Grandad saying to my sister-in-law once when she was complaining about her son making a mess and being noisy..he said" its better to see him like this then between clean sheets" How true is that!!!!.
I also pray that they rescue the two miners very soon and thank God that they were both alive.
I hope everyone is having a good weekend
Em
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Hello
HI Everyone
Just letting you all know I am still around....I havent weighed myself for 2 weeks now.....decided to take a break from the scales as I have been a bit down and out and didnt really want to deal with the scales.. this probably doesnt make a whole lot of sense and maybe I should face a gain or the same or even a loss but chose a break, will definately be back on the next Tuesday though.
I have been pretty good as far as eating goes.. a bit of a disaster at Easter and last Sunday but apart from that I have been a good girl. Exercise has been good too, am really concentrating on toning and did some measurements last Saturday to find that in 2 weeks I have lost 2.5 cms off my arms :)and losses everywhere else also .
I still have my four girls here which is great( most of the time lol) 4 girls in a small house need I explain any further. Shell got a job at a Nursing home here, she starts next Monday.. she is so excited and nervous at the moment you could bounce off her energy.
We have been to the movies twice and ten pin, went to the chinese festival Easter Saturday and this coming weekend we are all going to the Celtic Festival at Glen Innes so am really looking forward to that.
I hope everyone is well, it is certainly getting cold here now..will be around to read up on everyone's blog really soon.
Take care
Love Em xxxxxxx
Just letting you all know I am still around....I havent weighed myself for 2 weeks now.....decided to take a break from the scales as I have been a bit down and out and didnt really want to deal with the scales.. this probably doesnt make a whole lot of sense and maybe I should face a gain or the same or even a loss but chose a break, will definately be back on the next Tuesday though.
I have been pretty good as far as eating goes.. a bit of a disaster at Easter and last Sunday but apart from that I have been a good girl. Exercise has been good too, am really concentrating on toning and did some measurements last Saturday to find that in 2 weeks I have lost 2.5 cms off my arms :)and losses everywhere else also .
I still have my four girls here which is great( most of the time lol) 4 girls in a small house need I explain any further. Shell got a job at a Nursing home here, she starts next Monday.. she is so excited and nervous at the moment you could bounce off her energy.
We have been to the movies twice and ten pin, went to the chinese festival Easter Saturday and this coming weekend we are all going to the Celtic Festival at Glen Innes so am really looking forward to that.
I hope everyone is well, it is certainly getting cold here now..will be around to read up on everyone's blog really soon.
Take care
Love Em xxxxxxx
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Happy Easter
Hi Everyone
Well Tuesday has been and gone and no loss again for me......still needing to loose 1.5 kg to get to goal.
I have been really flat out these past few days ..helping out with Easter celebrations at Laura's school and being a taxi to Richelle .As you all know Shell came back here to live last Saturday so she has been really busy dropping her resume into all the employment agencies and going around all the nursing homes and hospital to seek out being able to do some volunteer work or gain employment. She graduated on Wednesday the 5th April and is so determined to find work in Nursing rather then just settle for any job which may come along which I do admire her for.
It is wonderful having her home .. when I went to pick her up last Saturday she said WOW Mum look at how much weight you have lost now....I was smiling as we hadnt seen each other since Jan and I was amazed at her as well since then she has lost 15 kgs herself bringing her down to 63 kgs which is so wonderful. Lol she didnt even mention to me on the phone that she was doing anything about her weight.
Ash is coming home for the holidays today so I will have my four girls here :):)...... and my d/b will be here tonight :):).
Well I'd best go .. not long until I have to go to the train station to get Ash :) .
I hope everyone has a Happy Easter..stay safe
Love Emixxxxxxxxx
Well Tuesday has been and gone and no loss again for me......still needing to loose 1.5 kg to get to goal.
I have been really flat out these past few days ..helping out with Easter celebrations at Laura's school and being a taxi to Richelle .As you all know Shell came back here to live last Saturday so she has been really busy dropping her resume into all the employment agencies and going around all the nursing homes and hospital to seek out being able to do some volunteer work or gain employment. She graduated on Wednesday the 5th April and is so determined to find work in Nursing rather then just settle for any job which may come along which I do admire her for.
It is wonderful having her home .. when I went to pick her up last Saturday she said WOW Mum look at how much weight you have lost now....I was smiling as we hadnt seen each other since Jan and I was amazed at her as well since then she has lost 15 kgs herself bringing her down to 63 kgs which is so wonderful. Lol she didnt even mention to me on the phone that she was doing anything about her weight.
Ash is coming home for the holidays today so I will have my four girls here :):)...... and my d/b will be here tonight :):).
Well I'd best go .. not long until I have to go to the train station to get Ash :) .
I hope everyone has a Happy Easter..stay safe
Love Emixxxxxxxxx
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
No Loss
Hi All
Well it looks like I am going to have to be patient in loosing these last 1 .5 kgs as this week I had no loss at all. I am not too worried about it though.. they will disappear in all good time :).
I am so excited that Shell is coming home this weekend...... even if it means that I will have to fight for the bathroom lol.
I accomplished something for myself last weekend for which I am very proud and happy with.. I went and bought a full length mirror , one of those ones from homemart...I used to hate mirrors, avoid them like the plague.. looking back I am sure I used to do my hair with my eyes half shut and I never ever wanted to see myself in a full length mirror , just no way but those days are gone forever just like those days of constantly eating junk food, being a couch potato and hating not being able to do the things I used to or wanted to and this is why I dont feel upset about these last kgs... gosh my quality of life has improved way beyond these last kgs.
I hope everyone is well..will be coming to say hello very soon
Take care and have a great rest of the week
Love Em xxxxxxxx
Oh dear I seemed to have posted Richelle's birthday wishes twice..silly me
Well it looks like I am going to have to be patient in loosing these last 1 .5 kgs as this week I had no loss at all. I am not too worried about it though.. they will disappear in all good time :).
I am so excited that Shell is coming home this weekend...... even if it means that I will have to fight for the bathroom lol.
I accomplished something for myself last weekend for which I am very proud and happy with.. I went and bought a full length mirror , one of those ones from homemart...I used to hate mirrors, avoid them like the plague.. looking back I am sure I used to do my hair with my eyes half shut and I never ever wanted to see myself in a full length mirror , just no way but those days are gone forever just like those days of constantly eating junk food, being a couch potato and hating not being able to do the things I used to or wanted to and this is why I dont feel upset about these last kgs... gosh my quality of life has improved way beyond these last kgs.
I hope everyone is well..will be coming to say hello very soon
Take care and have a great rest of the week
Love Em xxxxxxxx
Oh dear I seemed to have posted Richelle's birthday wishes twice..silly me
Monday, April 03, 2006
Daughter No 2 is 19
Hi Everyone
My Second Joy is 19 today...the girl so much like me its scary, anyway am so excited because she is coming home for good as of next weekend :):):):):).
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday Richelleeeee
Happy Birthday to you
Love you sweetheart xxxxoooooo
My Second Joy is 19 today...the girl so much like me its scary, anyway am so excited because she is coming home for good as of next weekend :):):):):).
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday Richelleeeee
Happy Birthday to you
Love you sweetheart xxxxoooooo
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Daughter No 2 is 19
Hi Everyone
My Second Joy is 19 today...the girl so much like me its scary, anyway am so excited because she is coming home for good as of next weekend :):):):):).
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday Richelleeeee
Happy Birthday to you Love you sweetheart
Hope everyone had a great weekend..be back tomorrow with weigh in results
Love Em xxxx
My Second Joy is 19 today...the girl so much like me its scary, anyway am so excited because she is coming home for good as of next weekend :):):):):).
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday Richelleeeee
Happy Birthday to you Love you sweetheart
Hope everyone had a great weekend..be back tomorrow with weigh in results
Love Em xxxx
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
300 grams
Hi Everyone
300 grams is my loss for this week...this is ok..Im actually quite surprised that I havent hit a plateau as yet.....mind you had 3 weeks where I gained due to my eating way out of control days..........will be curious to see what happens from now on in as I have decided as of today to cut back on my exercise...am aiming at doing weights every day upper n lower body alternate days, incorporating chuck into this as well plus some pilates as I really want to tone some areas a bit more so this should take about 40 mins approx , then do 30 mins of cardio everyday so a bit over an hour instead of the 2 1/2 hrs min that I have been doing. I am doing this from scratch as I have done from the very beginning.. so am hoping that what I am doing is going to tone me up a bit more:).
We all had a great weekend.... sat morning was spent cleaning the house , then sat afternoon I tried my hardest to create some space which just doesnt exist here.... will definately have some fun and games next weekend when we assemble Al's new bed and desk.... time to throw out some stuff Al lol. Saturday night we went to the local show..... free entry but boy were the rides expensive... didnt have a pluto pup see I was a good girl...ummmm ok I did have a bite of a pluto pup but it was a tiny bite as my mouth has shrunk :):) lol.
Sunday we went to my g/f's daughters birthday which was a afternoon at the movies... good idea really , we watched Zathura .. now this was a good movie indeed similar to Jumanji ( which I liked ) but in outa space..girls really enjoyed it as did Molly's friends from school.
Sitting here now it is so hot.. we are supposed to be getting a storm, does this mean RAIN...What is Rain ? something that we dont see very often here thats for sure:(.
Anyway hope everyone is well..have a great rest of this week
Love Em xxxx
300 grams is my loss for this week...this is ok..Im actually quite surprised that I havent hit a plateau as yet.....mind you had 3 weeks where I gained due to my eating way out of control days..........will be curious to see what happens from now on in as I have decided as of today to cut back on my exercise...am aiming at doing weights every day upper n lower body alternate days, incorporating chuck into this as well plus some pilates as I really want to tone some areas a bit more so this should take about 40 mins approx , then do 30 mins of cardio everyday so a bit over an hour instead of the 2 1/2 hrs min that I have been doing. I am doing this from scratch as I have done from the very beginning.. so am hoping that what I am doing is going to tone me up a bit more:).
We all had a great weekend.... sat morning was spent cleaning the house , then sat afternoon I tried my hardest to create some space which just doesnt exist here.... will definately have some fun and games next weekend when we assemble Al's new bed and desk.... time to throw out some stuff Al lol. Saturday night we went to the local show..... free entry but boy were the rides expensive... didnt have a pluto pup see I was a good girl...ummmm ok I did have a bite of a pluto pup but it was a tiny bite as my mouth has shrunk :):) lol.
Sunday we went to my g/f's daughters birthday which was a afternoon at the movies... good idea really , we watched Zathura .. now this was a good movie indeed similar to Jumanji ( which I liked ) but in outa space..girls really enjoyed it as did Molly's friends from school.
Sitting here now it is so hot.. we are supposed to be getting a storm, does this mean RAIN...What is Rain ? something that we dont see very often here thats for sure:(.
Anyway hope everyone is well..have a great rest of this week
Love Em xxxx
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