What the hell am I doing here

Hello

I have no idea if anyone is still around to read this........what I do know is I need this to keep me honest and to help me get rid of these kgs.......

Yes you heard right unwanted kgs that I now have to get rid of again...dont worry I have asked myself a hundred times or more over these past 8 months....What the hell am I doing here...Why am I doing this to me after I worked so damn hard to get to goal in the first place.......no answer really.....could be stoopidiness.......carelessness..........whatever it was it cant be anymore...I dont want to get back to where I was...I cant go back to being that person who lives in self denial ....so no more excuses........get your act together and back on track.............

The damage done over the past 8 mths is 19 kgs..I know that is soo bad and yes also so hard to have to sit here and write this but I have to face up to this ..it may be the only way to kickstart my journey again.

I know I have to blog regularly..........hope I can gain some support on the way as that is something that is priceless

I am 42 yr old now............and its about time I realised that this time its for keeps...no more being overweight and unhealthy..I know I can do this........I will tell myself this everyday until I reach my goal then every day after that..atm that is the only goal I am setting myself..I know the road to goal....its one of ups and downs..commitment..attitude..determination....healthier eating and exercise...... its one that never ends unless you give up and throw the towel in and boy this gal aint gonna do that..

I will pop by my old buddies soon..............I hope some of you join me yet again for the journey

Em xxx