Hi All
I havent been around as my puter decided to die ..fan went in it but alls good now.
I weighed myself last Tuesday as promised and I had gained 1kg.... all I can say is that thursday, friday saturday and sunday were awful days...I ate until I made myself sick on Sunday..how damn stupid is that!!!. I have no idea why I did it, and on sunday night I was so scared of failure, had thoughts of what if I gain all this weight back..guess I lost all faith in myself.
Monday was day of reckoning for me........ I exercised and ate well as I have done now all week and I swear if I go off the rails this weekend I am going to write Emi is a fat pig everywhere...how awful is that. I know I will get to goal but am scared.. I find myself worrying about it all again..worrying about how I am going to survive winter.. I tell myself you started this journey this time last year, you have lost over 50 kgs, you surived winter so you can do it again........I just need to find that inner peace again where I dont think about this... ah I am probable making no sense here.
Hope you all have a great weekend
Love Em xx
SUNDAY UPDATE
I am feeling really good.......I survived a few temptations yesterday and stuck to my points and exercise as planned. Today has been reasonably good also no exercise as it is Sunday which is day off and all Ive had to eat from the norty bin is a few potato chips. I still have tonight to go but my daughter has made a low fat lasagne for dinner and really I am quite confident that I will survive and wont have to see that awful statement.
My heart goes out to Sophie Delezio and her family...this little girl has suffered so much already and to try and understand how this could happen to her is just too hard. My prayers are with this little girl and I am very thankful that my girls are healthy and outside playing at the moment. I remember my Grandad saying to my sister-in-law once when she was complaining about her son making a mess and being noisy..he said" its better to see him like this then between clean sheets" How true is that!!!!.
I also pray that they rescue the two miners very soon and thank God that they were both alive.
I hope everyone is having a good weekend
Em
3 comments:
Well done for surviving the temptations.
Yay, the miners are safely back above ground.
Yes, my prayers are with Sophie too. It is so unfair for the dear little girl.
My God Emi. 50 kgs!!! Sweetheart for godsakes you are a legend. I like to think you a human and slip up every now and then. Then you get right back on track.
I am so thrilled about the miners. I have been following that story in anticipation. I don't know about Sophie though.
I know Lee-Anne..sometimes I am my own worst enemy. My thanx to you and Suzie who show me so much support :).
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