Silly Me

Hello again

I forgot to tell you all how much weight I lost this week..silly me. I lost 1.7 kgs so am really really happy with that:-).

I know I am still cursing myself for mowing my phone....

Take care

Love Emixx

Weigh Day

Howdy

Woke up this morning feeling a lot better , had a good nights sleep for a change ( doesnt that make a world of difference to begin with). I think a combination of having that virus last week and lack of sleep from that and then my worry about Al's trip had just made me a mess. I didnt exercise Saturday, Sunday or yesterday so that wouldnt have helped my cause either.... for me exercise just boosts me so much. Its funny you know just reading that last bit a few months ago I wouldnt have known that gawd what was exercise other then housework and walking around the shops.
Im still worried about Al but not to the extent of yesterday.. just hope and pray they will all be safe. It is so scary when you think about it, all those ppl arrested in Sydney and Melbourne last night apparently there being a real threat of an attack... wonder when it will all end if ever hey.

I mowed my lawn this morning and also my mobile phone :-( Cant believe that happened but the proof is sitting out the back on the garbage. I diverted my phone to my mobile and it must have fell out of my pocket and of course I didnt realise this until it was too late.So guess I will be looking to buy a new one damn!!!!.

Ok well I am off to do some ironing.........

Hope everyone is having a lovely day

Love Emixxx

Monday

Hi Everyone

Sometimes I really think I am loosing the plot........
Miss 11 left this morning on a school excursion to Canberra , she was all excited but said she would miss me and her little sister( of course) and all I could do was cry. I was able to hold back the tears until she got on the bus which was good as she would have got upset if she had seen them. I had a bad weekend, tears as I didnt want her to go. I am such a worry wart and all I can think of is these bloody terrorists and just wanted to keep her with me. I know I had to let her go though as it is a wonderful experience for her, just got to pray she and all the rest of the kids and teachers will be ok. I really am loosing the plot.... didnt see any other parents with tears, wonder if any other parent has had thoughts like mine? I know Al's friends parents are fine with it all.......Friday hurry up and come please , its going to be a hard week for L and I without Al :-(


Hope all is well with you all

Love Emixx

mixed emotions

Hi everyone

Weigh in day for me yesterday...I lost 700 grams this week.

I should be over the moon but for some reason I'm not......... am feeling a bit emotional atm.. on the verge of tears and to cap it off have been sick with some sort of virus which consists of massive headaches. I have been so sick Monday and yesterday that I couldnt exercise which makes me feel bad... I just seem to be so different when I exercise ...so on top of my world. Im guessing that the combination of being sick and not exercising has just bought me down .

I hope everyone is doing well :-)

Love Emixx

Friends

Hi everyone

Just reflecting on the past few days and my friends. I have caught up with a few this past week gone and done the cuppa thing and their comments have been really great.

They now tell me that I am starting to get a figure (my reply) What didnt I have one before ! You are changing shape (my reply) What to a square now ? You are really looking good Em ( my reply) What did I look awful before? lol. They just shake their heads and say Em you know what we mean and yes I do know what they mean, I am actually starting to get real good curves, my body is definately changing shape which for me is soooo great as I didnt want to just become a smaller version of the shape I was ( if you know what I mean):-).


I am going out tomorrow nite a girls nite out and am even going to have a couple of drinks without feeling guilty here .. I figure I do enough exercise and basically stick to my points everyday and I never use any of my bonus points so a couple of drinks isnt going to hurt me. I think its ok as long as I keep it in perspective and know that its not going to be an everyday or weekly occurance for me.

Ok well hope everyone is going well and have a great weekend.
Love Emi xxxx

Weigh in

Hi everyone

I lost 1.5 kgs this week, taking my total now to 31.8 kgs gone for good. I really believe for me that when I found a inner peace within myself that this weight loss journey for me has been better. I can still remember the times where I was obsessed with it all, wouldnt go out for lunch with g/fs, wouldnt eat anything like a potato chip or chocolate and if I did omg the guilt was so awful that I felt down in the dumps for days.

I have no idea why I loose everyweek and because I dont go to meetings or even do the home program anymore I really cant ask anyone. I have just put it down to the amount of exercise I do 6 days a week... has to be that cause I still have those potato chips.. and more potato chips.....
I took my girls to see sky high on Sunday.. was different , they enjoyed it so that was great and I even had a choc top icecream without feeling guilty so I guess I have come a long way and should be proud of myself.

I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week..... take care

Love Emixxx

Hope you liked as much as me

DON"T QUIT
When you've eaten too much and u cant write it down
And u feel like the biggest failure in town
When u want to give up because u gave in
and forget all about being healthy and thin
So What ! u went over your points a bit
Its your next move that counts
SO DONT U QUIT
Its a moment of truth an attitude change
Its learning the skills to get back in your range
It's telling yourself "you've done great up till now
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow"
Its part of your journey toward reaching your goal
Your still going to make it just stay in control
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace
if you summon the will to get back in the race
But, often the struggler's when losing their grip
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip
And learn to late when the damage is done
that the race wasn't over..they still could have won
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow
but facing each challenge will help you to grow
Success is failure turned in side out
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt
When u are pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit
IF U BITE IT U WRITE IT .. BUT DON'T U QUIT..author unknown

I got this from the WW community and think its great.......

Weigh in today

Hello everyone

Weighed today and this week I lost 900 grams.... am over the moon.

Everything is going pretty good, am really enjoying my exercises at the moment. I was given a Air swing at the weekend and included it into my exercise program but today it broke :-(. I was so lucky I didnt break my leg or much worse as I exercise in my garage and of course cement floor. Was excited about having another piece of equipment too... maybe it can be fixed hope sooo.

Ok well best go .. girls are waiting for me to help with their homework. Hope everyone is having a great week and take care
Love Emixx

Cleansing of the mind

Hi everyone :-)

I have read some truly inspirational blogs this morning and have come to realise that this weight loss journey is also in a sense a cleansing of your mind. There are so many fears , insecurities still holding me back and I am sure I am not alone here in that. I read Karens blog and for some unknown reason I cant leave a comment.... but I just wanted to say that I have that quote as a fridge magnet just I ve never taken the time to try and live by it. I understand what you mean about the bike Karen as I have often thought about getting one myself and riding with my girls but have held back because I think to myself that ppl will say gees she needs to ride more often.You have certainly given me a lot to think about as well as Suzy, and Jak's posts always find them inspirational... as I do a lot more recently with Lee-annes posts as well. I dont read that many blogs...know I should as everyone is wonderful in their own way of dealing with this weight loss journey.

I have been back into the full swing of things with my exercise..... have done 2 1/2 hours everyday so am really happy with that. I have even managed to do those arm exercises everyday in the hope that my arms will tone up at least a little bit.

K well I hope everyone has a great weekend, good luck with your weighins Karen and Jak ( hope I can comment soon on blogs).

Take care
Love Emixxxxxx

Weigh in day

Hi everyone

Weigh in day again today am very happy to report that I lost 1.5 kg this week.

Girls went back to school yesterday so I was up at 6 and into my exercises, felt really tired last night but fantastic as well. I missed that feeling the past 2 weeks. I have been doing my stepper everyday and I am also doing more with my total gym basically just concentrating on my top half though. I tried these arm exercises that were in a blog that I linked from Jak's blog and I did them this morning and omg did they kill. I could really feel the whole sensation of it all so I really think in time and if I manage to do these everyday as well as total gym every second day that there is hope for my arms ( alleluia).

I wanted to have a mushroom and chicken omelette for lunch today but silly me didnt refrigerate what was left over from Saturday and it went off. I am new to mushrooms and so wanted that gotta make up for 40 years of not eating them havent I lol. Oh well I had a toasted chicken, cheese and pineapple sandwich instead was yummmy too.

I got my mammogram results back yesterday all clear so that is a bigggg relief.

Ok well that all from me today... hope everyone is well.

Emixx

RE: Negative list

Hi Back again

I have been in a thoughtful mood the past week and have been thinking about my negative list from a couple of weeks ago. I sometimes look in the mirror and see a difference and then the next day I cant see it or I feel fat and frumpy. In the past I hated having my photo taken and while on this image part I used to hate looking at myself in the mirror as well. I can remember times where I have been shopping and have actually hated my reflection on the freezer doors, Ive never had full length mirrors in my house and sometimes I have even been known to not get my hair cut when its been needed as I have not liked what I have seen looking back at me. Wow I really had low self esteem, poor self image and a huge dose of self denial.

Now ok that is the past and the day I decided to change my lifestyle was the biggest positive step.Anyway my point being that I have come to realise that why I cant see the 28 kg loss( nearly there) when I look in the mirror is because I never actually had a good look at the old me. I never accepted just how big I was, what I really looked like before so now when I look my mind thinks I should look smaller and therefore I cant see it. I know I have lost heaps just by the size I now take and my old clothes falling off me but to mentally see it in the mirror has been such a struggle for me.Does this make sense or is it just me? Ok so to turn this negative into a positive I tracked down a couple of old pics of me and made myself have a good look at them, I then got my daughter to take a photo of me and I compared the two. I went shopping and made myself look at me in the doors of the freezers and I liked what I saw, I really liked my reflection and then I stood on my bed and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and it finally sunk in just how much I have lost and just how my body has and still is changing shape.

Anyway just thought I would share this.... hope everyone is doing well and had a great weekend.
Love Emixxx

goodbye chips

Hello

Well I think I have had a major breakthrough.... I think I am over my craving for potato chips once and for all. I had a 50 gram pkt of deli style chips on Friday night and today I went to have another packet( I know norty me) but I felt quite ill after eating a few and I really believe that they no longer will be a weakness for me.
I was talking to my g/f last week and she said to me do you think you will gain weight once you reach your goal, like hello let me get to goal first lol but seriously I answered NO as I really do not enjoy eating the fatty foods anymore. I know I ve still had the occasional pizza, kfc, hot chips over the past 6 mths but really after eating them Ive sat back and realised that I havent really enjoyed it to be honest. I do enjoy however all the "new" foods I eat and am trying new foods all the time only yesterday it was mushrooms and arent they yumm.

School goes back tomorrow and therefore its time to get back into my 2 21/2 hrs of exercise.I am kinda looking forward to that......omg I said that. I was reading Karens blog and at the things she has changed in her lifestyle so my imaginary leader said for me to write down my changes as I head to my 30 kg loss .Here goes

1 I now drink at least 3.5 litres of water everyday compared to never.
2 I now eat broc, cabbage, spinach, cauli,mushrooms,zuchini,asparagus .
3 I now exercise everyday and really enjoy it.
4 I now have a lot more energy, sleep better,no headaches and overall feel great.
5 I have cut my portion sizes, and eat more vegies and fruit.

Ok well there it is..... well it is Sunday so I think I will get away with the sermon lol.
Take care
Emixxxx

feeling awful

Hello everyone

I havent been around for a couple of days as I have sinus really bad and have been so sick with it all. I am starting to feel a bit better today thank goodness and will try and catch up with everyones blogs as soon as I can. I havent forgotten you all and I hope everything is going well and will catch up soon.

I weighed in on Tuesday, had a 300 gram loss so still going downnnnn.

Take care

Emi

Go the mighty tigerssssssss

Hello everyone

OMG I am still over the moon about my tigers win yesterday. I cried, I have waited 36 years to see my tigers win a Grandfinal and finally it happened. I had some friends over and well yes we opted for pizza but hey thats ok all will be good. I have a bit of a sore throat at the moment now of course that wouldnt have anything to do with me screaming and cheering last night now would it? Nope of course not damn weather changing all the times fault lol.

I have been pretty good with my exercising this past week managed to do 1 1/2 hrs everyday instead of my 2 21/2 hours but it is school holidays and I try to do things with my girls so at the end of the day its all good too. We have been for walks, to the park, shopping,Koala park and this week we are going ten pin bowling and to the movies. My 19 year old is home for a couple of weeks which is great so will be a busy two weeks but as long as I get some exercising in each day I will be happy with that.

Hope everyone is doing well and having a good long weekend. Weigh in for me tomorrow so until then bye and take care

Emixx

Shocking my body

Hello everyone

I weighed in today at 92.8 kgs , this week I lost a massive 3 kgs. I guess because I worked my butt off on my treadmill , plus did some walking out in the fresh air that I shocked my body and therefore lost that much. I am over the moon.

I finished AJ'S book last night.. what a wonderful read.

I am still working on changing one negative from my list into a positive..... is not as easy as it looks and at the end of the day it is me who has to alter my way of thinking. I had a look at myself yesterday in a full length mirror and yes I can see a big difference, as for worrying welllll that is another story. I am still waiting on my mammogram results, talk about taking forever to come back ( nearly 3 weeks of waiting) so am still worrying about that. I have no idea why I cant be positive about this and why I am worrying about something that hasnt happened yet, no wonder my friends shake their head at me( oh dear).

What about my TIGERSSSSSSS wooooo hooooo we are in the Grand Final. I am sooooo happyyyyyy.

Ok well I hope everyone has a great week , take care

Emixxx

Smiles,tears,determination

Hello everyone

Just had to let everyone know that I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill since last Friday, am very happy with that. I set myself a goal to complete an hr everyday on it and yep I did it so smiles all round here. I feel really good about everything again and am happy with being back to doing 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it not only burns all my fat it makes me feel so happy and positive.

I am half way through AJ's book and wow what a great book it really is. For me it brought back a few memories so therefore a few tears but gees it so far has really made me sit up and take notice of a lot of things and see so many things more clearly.So I have decided to write down a few positives and negatives from the past few days on here to try and make it all sink in to my head and to be aware of the negatives but also to be aware that there are positives as well. I feel that all I do is say ok this was positive and get over it but the negatives stick around in my mind far too long.

POSITIVES
- I have walked 17 ks on my treadmill in a week
-I am back to doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday
-I am tracking and eating really well
-I am averaging 18000 steps on my pedometer everyday
-I am trying new foods instead of saying yuk I dont like that.
- I am drinking 3 litres of water everyday

NEGATIVES
- I am still worrying far too much
-I still have trouble seeing my weight loss( one day I do next I dont)
-I am my own worst enemy at times

Ok so now my goal for this week is to try and turn at least one of those negatives into a positive.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.... and GO TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Emixx

still a loss

Ahhh well weighed myself this morning and lost .2, still a loss hey. I feel ok about it although I dont think I will ever truly understand how it all works as last week I was so shocked at my loss and this week where I thought I should have lost more I didnt lol.

I was upset last night as I received an email and virtually it read that I have lost my weight far too quickly,am heart attack material and basically sensibility and honesty were 2 important factors with weight loss, WOW gees am so glad this person isnt a friend as who needs friends like that. I dont even know this person so how can she say stuff like that to me. I guess I wont be posting my measurements or weight loss anymore in that site. I feel at times I am surrounded by so many negative ppl, everytime my mum rings me or I ring her its "Are you still on your diet?" just feels like at times she is waiting for me to fail. Funny thing is when I sit back and have my few minutes of getting it all off my chest( anger, upset, disbelief etc) I find that these negative comments only drive me more, make me even more determined, still no need for it hey.

Well I hope everyone is having a good week and take care all
Emixx

Awsome is the word for the days just gone

What a awsome last few days I have had, firstly I am back on track 100% as far as my exercising goes. I am changing my program again lol, going to do 60 mins everyday on the treadmill, 45 mins on my bike, 30 mins on chuck/weights and instead of doing my floor exercises I am going to do"8 minutes in the morning"program. I got the book today and have had a quick look am going to read it thoroughly tonight but it appears to be really good and incorporates a few of the exercises I am already doing plus heaps more. I also got the book"Confessions of a Reformed Dieter" as I have heard so much about this book so am going to become a bookworm lol.

Miss 11 was in her school musical last Thursday and it was awsome, gees its so wonderful to see so many talented kids give such a great performance, was a wonderful night.

Ok last but not least what a AWSOME, AWSOME win for my tigers !!!!! We are into the final now wooooooo hooooooo so watch out Dragons here come the tigersssssssssss. I had a fabulous time watching the game, the atmosphere was awsome one couldnt help but get caught up in the emotion of it all, was totally awsome. Sorry sly lol.

Weigh in for me tomorrow....... lets hope its awsome too lol
Take care
Emixxxx

Time for a change

Hi everyone

Well I have had a very different day today. I decided I wanted a change of hairstyle and some diff colours. I made the appt yesterday and off I went today. I sat down and Sally says to me How much do you want off today? I replied I want something different but just not sure what different is....welll guess what I do now. It looks good, just still coming to terms with its me underneath this new hairstyle and colours, and I do mean colours lol. I really really love the new style and I guess the copper foils are going to grow on me probably when they have grown out lol no seriously its really nice just so different. I kept the blonde on the top and had a brown put on the bottom, now you are confused arent you ? lol.So I guess im somewhere in between a licorice allsort perhaps ( oh dear).

I got some good news yesterday as well two tests have come back with the all clear so just one more to go now which is such a relief.


Miss 11 is performing at the Town Hall tonight, her school is putting on a production called" 100 year rock" so am really looking forward to seeing this and especially seeing my daughter up on stage, I will be soo proud as we all are of our kids (well those who have kids are).

I am really enjoying reading all the different blogs and I want to thank everyone who reads and comments on mine is much appreciated :-)

Hope everyone is doing well

Take care
Emixxxxxxxx

Absolutely Amazed

hi everyone

Just a quick one today as I am off to see my g/f.
Weighed in this morning and lost 1.7 kg, how the hell did I loose that much this past week? Was an awful week, only managed 30 mins of exercise everyday and the weekend was major blowout material. My head is still shaking in disbelief here.

It was so nice to see such warm beautiful weather towards the end of last week but was too good to last for the time being here as yesterday here was so bitterly cold, today is sunny and not as cold. I guess the weather is hard to predict just like what you will weigh in at is hey lol.

Hope everyone is doing well and staying focussed.

Take care

Emixxx