Mixed Bag Today(Friday)

Hi Everyone

Firstly I want to say that I have read some amazing blogs this morning.. truly inspirational women....women who have made me sit up and have a long hard think. I have been rather sluggish the past 2 days .. I have stuck to my points and exercised but there just hasnt been that oomphhhhh behind it. I have lied in bed and thought oh I dont feel good... or it wouldnt matter if I missed this mornings exercising when in all honesty there wasnt anything wrong with me just seemed to be searching for an excuse not to go exercise. I know above all that I need to exercise so after reading these blogs I have decided to get my act together and go find that oomph!!!!!!!!!!(ATTITUDE).

I made this yummy vegetable slice last night.... the original recipe (Asparagus and Ham slice) came from Annette Sym's Cookbook but I didnt use Ham instead I used carrott and peas.... girls loved it too.

I had Al's Yr 7 Orientation Day yesterday cant believe Al is off to High School next year only seems like yesterday I was leaving her in Kindergarten. Looking back over these past few years and what we as a family have endured and overcome to get to where we all are today brings tears and a smile to my face. I know what it is like to overcome hurdles.. to survive when you somehow dont know how that is going to happen and if there really is such a thing as a rainbow at the end but there is and that is how I know that I will get to my goal... this is what makes me continue no matter what hurdle appears. I know Im sort of rambling here but I need to see this for myself.. be able to go back and read over this the next few weeks as it is pretty scary for me thinking about my birthday dinner, miss 7's birthday, Christmas parties, Christmas and New Year all scary times when food and drink are going to be in plenty... ohhh but I know what I have to do, I have worked to hard and come to far to stop so continue I will regardless. If I eat or drink a bit too much I am not going to beat myself up about it (am I em !!!!) I will move on and make the next day count and so on and so on. Ok well there you go its in my mind nice and clear for now and here for future reference.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Take care
Love Emxxxx

Still Here

Hi Everyone

Well its Tuesday .. weigh in day and this week I am happy to say that I lost 900 grams :-). It is so great to see the scales go down a little more each week and I am finding myself doing little cheers and jumps and eyeing myself off in windows and mirrors omg am I becoming vein lol

Ok news on my g/f, she had the operation last week and they got all the tumour and the outlook for her is very good. This is such a relief, am extremely happy for her and her kids goes without saying hey.

We all had a busy weekend, Christmas shopping, birthday party( wasnt a really good girl) but the scales were kind, must be the exercise I do which helps with this. We put up the Christmas tree , looks beautiful, and the window decorations and this weekend some friends are coming over to help with the outside decorations.

The weather wasnt really good here last weekend, Saturday was a stinking hot day, then storms and wild winds Sat night followed by a windy wet Sunday which turned cold . The last two nights and mornings have been quite cold and today it looks as rain isnt too far away again. I mowed the front and back yard this morning .. left my new phone inside.. good idea hey lol.

Ok well hope everyone is having a great week...

Cya Em xxx

PS ( Is definately Tuesday 2 46 pm ... cant change my date etc )

Weigh in day again

Hi

Just a quick hello to let you all know that this week I lost 400 grams.......

I did my rowing again today ... gees its hard but I will get there.... I am determined.

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week

Take care

Em xxxx

Change of Exercise

Hi Everyone

Hope you all had a great weekend... the girls and I did. On Saturday we went shopping bought some Christmas pressies, got some really good bargains esp for my older girls which is always a good thing. Yesterday we went to Apsley Falls at Walcha, we had a picnic then we went for a walk around the falls, so peaceful and beautiful, Al actually said to me to slow down as she couldnt keep up lol ... now that is a good thing to hear.


Did my measurements on Sat .... my total loss now is 148.5 cms and I ve lost the most off my hips woo hooooo am excited about that as my hips have always been so much bigger then the rest of me . I really think those exercises I ve been doing from the hip and thigh diet are working or it could be just a combination of everything.
Today however I have changed my exercise program... now I will be doing 30 mins on my bike,treadmill,air walker(yay a friend was able to fix that for me) and stepper taking that to a daily total of 2 hrs. Then I will do my arm weights every second day for 20 mins, the days I dont do my arm weights I will do a variety of exercises for 20 mins and finally I have converted my total gym into a rowing machine so will try and I do mean try to do 15 mins a day on that. This morning I found it difficult but I guess like all new things will take time as I can clearly remember how hard I found the stepper and treadmill to begin with. I will see how this goes for a few weeks plus I want to go for a few walks with the girls:-).

Ok well bye for now... take care

Love Emixx

Feeling better

Hi everyone

Firstly I want to say thank you to Suzie and Karen for caring..... your words mean a lot thankyou once again :-).

I am feeling better, my g/f is home at the moment as they cant do the operation just yet due to machine failure so they sent her home for the time being. I am so amazed at just how much inner strength my g/f has and even my g/f that had breast cancer and lost a breast has.... they are truly wonderful ppl.

I have been good with eating after Sunday.. omg what a day that was am still kinda annoyed at myself but it happened and I cant alter that so all I could do was move ahead and get back on track Monday which I did. I am still doing my 2 1/2 hrs of exercise everyday as it really helps my mind as well as my body.

Al had a wonderful time in Canberra ..so good to have her home though :-).

Finally yesterday was weigh in day for me .. doesnt it come around quickly .. anyway I lost 500 grams ( 1 of suzies tubs of margarine/butter lol) so gotta be happy with that.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying their week..will try and catch up with all your blogs real soon.


Take care
Love Emixx

so sad

Hi

I am feeling so many emotions here atm...anger, sadness, scared, annoyed u name it I am feeling it. I received some awful news yesterday morning my g/f in Newcastle has been diagnosed with a brain tumour and the drs dont give much hope. She is currently in hospital awaiting more tests which are to be done tomorrow. I feel so sad, so angry as she has 4 kids why why why ? I am a believer, I do have my faith but its times like this that I just struggle to understand.
Once again though this isnt about me so how dare I eat bad foods, foods that I know I shouldnt eat, that I know I dont want to eat, that I know I dont even enjoy so why do I do it? Why do I hurt myself, I thought I had overcome this but apparently not. I am trying so hard to come to terms with this.. just doesnt seem real.

Ahh sorry about this negative entry... hope everyone is doing really well and enjoying their weekend. Emi

Silly Me

Hello again

I forgot to tell you all how much weight I lost this week..silly me. I lost 1.7 kgs so am really really happy with that:-).

I know I am still cursing myself for mowing my phone....

Take care

Love Emixx

Weigh Day

Howdy

Woke up this morning feeling a lot better , had a good nights sleep for a change ( doesnt that make a world of difference to begin with). I think a combination of having that virus last week and lack of sleep from that and then my worry about Al's trip had just made me a mess. I didnt exercise Saturday, Sunday or yesterday so that wouldnt have helped my cause either.... for me exercise just boosts me so much. Its funny you know just reading that last bit a few months ago I wouldnt have known that gawd what was exercise other then housework and walking around the shops.
Im still worried about Al but not to the extent of yesterday.. just hope and pray they will all be safe. It is so scary when you think about it, all those ppl arrested in Sydney and Melbourne last night apparently there being a real threat of an attack... wonder when it will all end if ever hey.

I mowed my lawn this morning and also my mobile phone :-( Cant believe that happened but the proof is sitting out the back on the garbage. I diverted my phone to my mobile and it must have fell out of my pocket and of course I didnt realise this until it was too late.So guess I will be looking to buy a new one damn!!!!.

Ok well I am off to do some ironing.........

Hope everyone is having a lovely day

Love Emixxx

Monday

Hi Everyone

Sometimes I really think I am loosing the plot........
Miss 11 left this morning on a school excursion to Canberra , she was all excited but said she would miss me and her little sister( of course) and all I could do was cry. I was able to hold back the tears until she got on the bus which was good as she would have got upset if she had seen them. I had a bad weekend, tears as I didnt want her to go. I am such a worry wart and all I can think of is these bloody terrorists and just wanted to keep her with me. I know I had to let her go though as it is a wonderful experience for her, just got to pray she and all the rest of the kids and teachers will be ok. I really am loosing the plot.... didnt see any other parents with tears, wonder if any other parent has had thoughts like mine? I know Al's friends parents are fine with it all.......Friday hurry up and come please , its going to be a hard week for L and I without Al :-(


Hope all is well with you all

Love Emixx

mixed emotions

Hi everyone

Weigh in day for me yesterday...I lost 700 grams this week.

I should be over the moon but for some reason I'm not......... am feeling a bit emotional atm.. on the verge of tears and to cap it off have been sick with some sort of virus which consists of massive headaches. I have been so sick Monday and yesterday that I couldnt exercise which makes me feel bad... I just seem to be so different when I exercise ...so on top of my world. Im guessing that the combination of being sick and not exercising has just bought me down .

I hope everyone is doing well :-)

Love Emixx

Friends

Hi everyone

Just reflecting on the past few days and my friends. I have caught up with a few this past week gone and done the cuppa thing and their comments have been really great.

They now tell me that I am starting to get a figure (my reply) What didnt I have one before ! You are changing shape (my reply) What to a square now ? You are really looking good Em ( my reply) What did I look awful before? lol. They just shake their heads and say Em you know what we mean and yes I do know what they mean, I am actually starting to get real good curves, my body is definately changing shape which for me is soooo great as I didnt want to just become a smaller version of the shape I was ( if you know what I mean):-).


I am going out tomorrow nite a girls nite out and am even going to have a couple of drinks without feeling guilty here .. I figure I do enough exercise and basically stick to my points everyday and I never use any of my bonus points so a couple of drinks isnt going to hurt me. I think its ok as long as I keep it in perspective and know that its not going to be an everyday or weekly occurance for me.

Ok well hope everyone is going well and have a great weekend.
Love Emi xxxx

Weigh in

Hi everyone

I lost 1.5 kgs this week, taking my total now to 31.8 kgs gone for good. I really believe for me that when I found a inner peace within myself that this weight loss journey for me has been better. I can still remember the times where I was obsessed with it all, wouldnt go out for lunch with g/fs, wouldnt eat anything like a potato chip or chocolate and if I did omg the guilt was so awful that I felt down in the dumps for days.

I have no idea why I loose everyweek and because I dont go to meetings or even do the home program anymore I really cant ask anyone. I have just put it down to the amount of exercise I do 6 days a week... has to be that cause I still have those potato chips.. and more potato chips.....
I took my girls to see sky high on Sunday.. was different , they enjoyed it so that was great and I even had a choc top icecream without feeling guilty so I guess I have come a long way and should be proud of myself.

I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their week..... take care

Love Emixxx

Hope you liked as much as me

DON"T QUIT
When you've eaten too much and u cant write it down
And u feel like the biggest failure in town
When u want to give up because u gave in
and forget all about being healthy and thin
So What ! u went over your points a bit
Its your next move that counts
SO DONT U QUIT
Its a moment of truth an attitude change
Its learning the skills to get back in your range
It's telling yourself "you've done great up till now
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow"
Its part of your journey toward reaching your goal
Your still going to make it just stay in control
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace
if you summon the will to get back in the race
But, often the struggler's when losing their grip
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip
And learn to late when the damage is done
that the race wasn't over..they still could have won
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow
but facing each challenge will help you to grow
Success is failure turned in side out
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt
When u are pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit
IF U BITE IT U WRITE IT .. BUT DON'T U QUIT..author unknown

I got this from the WW community and think its great.......

Weigh in today

Hello everyone

Weighed today and this week I lost 900 grams.... am over the moon.

Everything is going pretty good, am really enjoying my exercises at the moment. I was given a Air swing at the weekend and included it into my exercise program but today it broke :-(. I was so lucky I didnt break my leg or much worse as I exercise in my garage and of course cement floor. Was excited about having another piece of equipment too... maybe it can be fixed hope sooo.

Ok well best go .. girls are waiting for me to help with their homework. Hope everyone is having a great week and take care
Love Emixx

Cleansing of the mind

Hi everyone :-)

I have read some truly inspirational blogs this morning and have come to realise that this weight loss journey is also in a sense a cleansing of your mind. There are so many fears , insecurities still holding me back and I am sure I am not alone here in that. I read Karens blog and for some unknown reason I cant leave a comment.... but I just wanted to say that I have that quote as a fridge magnet just I ve never taken the time to try and live by it. I understand what you mean about the bike Karen as I have often thought about getting one myself and riding with my girls but have held back because I think to myself that ppl will say gees she needs to ride more often.You have certainly given me a lot to think about as well as Suzy, and Jak's posts always find them inspirational... as I do a lot more recently with Lee-annes posts as well. I dont read that many blogs...know I should as everyone is wonderful in their own way of dealing with this weight loss journey.

I have been back into the full swing of things with my exercise..... have done 2 1/2 hours everyday so am really happy with that. I have even managed to do those arm exercises everyday in the hope that my arms will tone up at least a little bit.

K well I hope everyone has a great weekend, good luck with your weighins Karen and Jak ( hope I can comment soon on blogs).

Take care
Love Emixxxxxx

Weigh in day

Hi everyone

Weigh in day again today am very happy to report that I lost 1.5 kg this week.

Girls went back to school yesterday so I was up at 6 and into my exercises, felt really tired last night but fantastic as well. I missed that feeling the past 2 weeks. I have been doing my stepper everyday and I am also doing more with my total gym basically just concentrating on my top half though. I tried these arm exercises that were in a blog that I linked from Jak's blog and I did them this morning and omg did they kill. I could really feel the whole sensation of it all so I really think in time and if I manage to do these everyday as well as total gym every second day that there is hope for my arms ( alleluia).

I wanted to have a mushroom and chicken omelette for lunch today but silly me didnt refrigerate what was left over from Saturday and it went off. I am new to mushrooms and so wanted that gotta make up for 40 years of not eating them havent I lol. Oh well I had a toasted chicken, cheese and pineapple sandwich instead was yummmy too.

I got my mammogram results back yesterday all clear so that is a bigggg relief.

Ok well that all from me today... hope everyone is well.

Emixx

RE: Negative list

Hi Back again

I have been in a thoughtful mood the past week and have been thinking about my negative list from a couple of weeks ago. I sometimes look in the mirror and see a difference and then the next day I cant see it or I feel fat and frumpy. In the past I hated having my photo taken and while on this image part I used to hate looking at myself in the mirror as well. I can remember times where I have been shopping and have actually hated my reflection on the freezer doors, Ive never had full length mirrors in my house and sometimes I have even been known to not get my hair cut when its been needed as I have not liked what I have seen looking back at me. Wow I really had low self esteem, poor self image and a huge dose of self denial.

Now ok that is the past and the day I decided to change my lifestyle was the biggest positive step.Anyway my point being that I have come to realise that why I cant see the 28 kg loss( nearly there) when I look in the mirror is because I never actually had a good look at the old me. I never accepted just how big I was, what I really looked like before so now when I look my mind thinks I should look smaller and therefore I cant see it. I know I have lost heaps just by the size I now take and my old clothes falling off me but to mentally see it in the mirror has been such a struggle for me.Does this make sense or is it just me? Ok so to turn this negative into a positive I tracked down a couple of old pics of me and made myself have a good look at them, I then got my daughter to take a photo of me and I compared the two. I went shopping and made myself look at me in the doors of the freezers and I liked what I saw, I really liked my reflection and then I stood on my bed and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and it finally sunk in just how much I have lost and just how my body has and still is changing shape.

Anyway just thought I would share this.... hope everyone is doing well and had a great weekend.
Love Emixxx

goodbye chips

Hello

Well I think I have had a major breakthrough.... I think I am over my craving for potato chips once and for all. I had a 50 gram pkt of deli style chips on Friday night and today I went to have another packet( I know norty me) but I felt quite ill after eating a few and I really believe that they no longer will be a weakness for me.
I was talking to my g/f last week and she said to me do you think you will gain weight once you reach your goal, like hello let me get to goal first lol but seriously I answered NO as I really do not enjoy eating the fatty foods anymore. I know I ve still had the occasional pizza, kfc, hot chips over the past 6 mths but really after eating them Ive sat back and realised that I havent really enjoyed it to be honest. I do enjoy however all the "new" foods I eat and am trying new foods all the time only yesterday it was mushrooms and arent they yumm.

School goes back tomorrow and therefore its time to get back into my 2 21/2 hrs of exercise.I am kinda looking forward to that......omg I said that. I was reading Karens blog and at the things she has changed in her lifestyle so my imaginary leader said for me to write down my changes as I head to my 30 kg loss .Here goes

1 I now drink at least 3.5 litres of water everyday compared to never.
2 I now eat broc, cabbage, spinach, cauli,mushrooms,zuchini,asparagus .
3 I now exercise everyday and really enjoy it.
4 I now have a lot more energy, sleep better,no headaches and overall feel great.
5 I have cut my portion sizes, and eat more vegies and fruit.

Ok well there it is..... well it is Sunday so I think I will get away with the sermon lol.
Take care
Emixxxx

feeling awful

Hello everyone

I havent been around for a couple of days as I have sinus really bad and have been so sick with it all. I am starting to feel a bit better today thank goodness and will try and catch up with everyones blogs as soon as I can. I havent forgotten you all and I hope everything is going well and will catch up soon.

I weighed in on Tuesday, had a 300 gram loss so still going downnnnn.

Take care

Emi

Go the mighty tigerssssssss

Hello everyone

OMG I am still over the moon about my tigers win yesterday. I cried, I have waited 36 years to see my tigers win a Grandfinal and finally it happened. I had some friends over and well yes we opted for pizza but hey thats ok all will be good. I have a bit of a sore throat at the moment now of course that wouldnt have anything to do with me screaming and cheering last night now would it? Nope of course not damn weather changing all the times fault lol.

I have been pretty good with my exercising this past week managed to do 1 1/2 hrs everyday instead of my 2 21/2 hours but it is school holidays and I try to do things with my girls so at the end of the day its all good too. We have been for walks, to the park, shopping,Koala park and this week we are going ten pin bowling and to the movies. My 19 year old is home for a couple of weeks which is great so will be a busy two weeks but as long as I get some exercising in each day I will be happy with that.

Hope everyone is doing well and having a good long weekend. Weigh in for me tomorrow so until then bye and take care

Emixx