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All I have done this morning is cry...cry..ahhh well crying is ok and I feel is just what I needed.....am over the moon about being engaged but deep down I knew that still my weight is an issue for me......so I jumped on the scales not prepared for what they revealed but must face reality and say I am now 110 kgs.............a hell of a lot of weight to cry about .........so out came all the emotions , the blame, the hating myself, the wonder why my guy would have asked me to marry him as all I am is fat and ugly.....I feel like a mix master is inside me........... so there is the story behind the morning of tears....... I went back to day 1 of my blog and have just re read all my entries ...gathered some points here and there, laughed and cried some more.....and am now ready to start this journey all over again............
For however long it takes ....I am going to try and blog more regularly and have also decided to draw on past entries for inspiration, will post a past entry from time to time in no specific order What better time to start then now
Blog entry 2005
I had Al's Y7 orientation day yesterday cant believe Al is off to high school next year only seems like yesterday I was leaving her in kindergarten.Looking back over these past years and what we as a family have endured and overcome to get where we all are today brings tears and a smile to my face. I know what it is like to overcome hurdles, to survive when you somehow dont know how that is going to happen and if there really is such a thing as a rainbow at the end but there is and that is how I know that I will get to my goal ...this is what will make me continue no matter what hurdle appears. I know I am sort of rambling here but I need to see this for myself...be able to go back and read over this during the next few week
Time to start this journey again...........time to wipe away the tears......... hugs to you all :)
You can bend but never break me
'Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'Cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul
4 comments:
Yes, my dear, dry those tears and hang on tight and jump on that wagon again and begin the ww journey. You can do it...
Happy birthday for the other day....and big CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS on your engagement....
Big hugs and loves for the beginning of your exciting journey.
Hey there!!
What a timely post mine on the If Not Dieting, Then What book was for you!! This is what the book talks about, so many people lose the weight but then put it all back on because they never deal with the food addiction issue. Time to view food as sustinence instead of the enemy.
Congrats on engagement, happy birthday and onwards and downwards!!
Hang in there, we all have to start again sometimes... me included. Starting today too.... {{{{BIG HUGS}}} mate.
Did you make the Warm Kumara and Chicken salad?? It is flipping yummy aye
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